Chapter 4

Renee's POV

After preparing dinner, I dished our meals and dropped them on the dining table before going off to call dad who had just returned from his daily job hunt. With the way he returned and locked himself inside his room, I knew it hadn't been successful.

I paused in the sitting room to pick up the empty bottles of alcohol which was consumed. It was sad that all he did was drink and get drunk all the time.

" Dad, " I called outside the closed door. I knocked on it and tried to open it but it was locked " Dad, dinner's ready "

He didn't respond and I sighed tiredly. I wasn't leaving so I folded my arms and leaned beside the door as I waited for him to come out. I'll just wait here for as long as he gets out of there.

It was so hard for dad because he lost his job and since then, he has not been able to find something stable to do. We started feeding from hand to mouth and I had no choice but to take up different jobs which have helped us a lot.

He finally came out of the room and together, we went to eat dinner in the dining room. He didn't say anything to me and I didn't ask him questions either. Maybe because I knew all the answers already.

" You remember Mrs. Grace? My friend? " He asked and I looked up at him.

" The one you had a one-night stand with in college? " I asked in return and he looked away. Yeah, I knew she was the one. My dad's old-time sweetheart but unluckily for him, she got married to some rich man and now she's better off, unlike him.

" I met her earlier today "

" Did she say she's gonna come back to you? " I asked and widened my eyes but when I noticed the seriousness on his face, I knew it wasn't anything to joke about " Alright, sorry. What did you two talk about?"

He didn't respond immediately as he continued eating. When he was done, he drank from his glass of water and cleared his throat " She'll be coming to pick you up tomorrow. She wants you to live with her but I already told her that you wouldn't agree "

" You know my response already, dad, I'm not going anywhere. I'm not leaving you "

" I know, I know " He responded and used his hand, resting on the table to cover his face " It's just that I got a job in Mexico. It happened two days ago but I couldn't tell you cause I wasn't ready to take the job "

" Why? "

" Cause it's so far away and I couldn't imagine myself going without you. I wanted you to stay with your mom but before I could say anything, she said she was traveling out. "

" Then let's go together " I chipped in but he shook his head negatively and looked up at me. I could see the sadness in his eyes even when he was trying so hard to hide it.

" No, Ren, I can't take you with me. I need to go over and start working first. I need to earn enough money before I can bring you over with me. I don't need you around and I'm not able to provide everything you need, just like now. You're not supposed to be working so hard to take care of us when I should be doing that "

Tears welled up in his eyes and rolled down his cheeks. I felt so sad seeing him that way. I wanted to stick to my usual self of being stubborn and standing by my word but I couldn't. Not when my father was shedding tears in front of me.

" Don't worry, dad, I'll stay with Mrs. Grace "

***

" What the hell did you just text me over the phone? " Nick asked as he got into my room through my window. I didn't even get to tell him about what transpired between Noah and me.

After having dinner with dad, I had to tell him about everything over the phone cause I wouldn't have the chance to speak with him in person. I was leaving the next morning.

" That's it, Nick, I'm leaving tomorrow "

He seemed too shocked to speak because he just stared blankly at me. I felt so sad and didn't want to leave but I had to cause that's what dad wanted. I had to stay with Mrs. Grace until dad was financially stable to invite me over to Mexico.

" But you can just stay. I'll take care of you. You'll get more jobs and you'll be fine "

" When you speak of getting more jobs, you mean sucking more dicks? " I asked and scoffed " Nick, I don't wanna do that anymore. It's disgusting, sucking people's dick and getting their sperm either spilled on my face or down my throat. "

" I hate it too, trust me. I hate seeing you do that but I've got no choice just like you cause you needed the money. But if you stay, it's gonna be different. You can take up a decent job... "

" Come on, Nick, how many of them do we have here? Is it working in a bar where I get to see people do different kinds of nasty stuff? That's no decent job. The rest of the jobs wouldn't pay enough for me to afford things for school"

He sighed and sat on my bed, burying his head in his palms. I was gonna miss him so much but I needed a better life for myself.

" So, you're gonna have a better life wherever you're going, huh? "

I nodded even when he wasn't looking up at me before going to sit beside him " Yes. She's my dad's friend and she's better off. Dad said she's gonna take care of all my needs "

We sat in silence as none of us said a word to each other. No doubt, we had a lot running through our minds but it was better not to speak out.

" I'm gonna miss you so much, Ren. You're the only one who knows all my flaws but still accepts me as the badass boy that I am. These past years that I've had you as a friend, life has been so easy and cool. "

" Cut it out, okay? " I chuckled and dabbed at the corner of my eyes with the tip of my fingers. My eyes were teary already " I told you that I loved bad boys and I'll always love you, Nick. Never change from being that way "

He turned to look at me and I pulled him into a hug, trying so hard to fight back my tears. Leaving would mean starting a new life with people who were nothing like me. I was so young and pretty but nothing inside me was.

*

I woke up early the next morning and plodded into the bathroom to brush my teeth. At least, that's what I did first thing in the morning before going into the street to source for money.

I got out of the bathroom and wore my joggers and hoodie before sneaking out of the house. It was 6 AM and no one was awake including dad who was snoring deeply. I guess he's just too tired.

When I managed to sneak out of the house, I saw Nick sitting outside. He stood up when he saw me and I walked over to him, wondering why he didn't come in through the window. He always did that.

Nick escorted me to the drugstore to do my business. He always came around every morning so I wouldn't have to go on my own. Like he always said, he wanted to make sure that I was safe.

We were outside the drug house and I was supposed to head in and start the business but with Nick here, I couldn't. For some reason best known to him, he hated seeing me giving people blowjobs for a little amount of money.

" I'll meet the guys inside," I said to Nick and walked off. I noticed that he wasn't as bright as he used to be. Maybe because of the news I told him yesterday.

" Fuck, I thought you wouldn't show up, " One of the men said as I approached them. They were eight in number and each of them was going to pay 25 dollars. That would be 200 dollars. Enough to make breakfast and also keep dad until he was ready to leave for Mexico.

I knelt in front of the first guy who had his dick out already. I stroked it gently before sucking him like a pro until he climaxed in my mouth. I did the same to the rest of the guys and when I was done, I left with the money to find Nick.

" Use that and wash off their venom from your mouth," He said and threw a bottle of water in midair. I caught it and uncapped it before taking a mouthful from it.

I gargled the water in my mouth before spitting it out. After cleaning my mouth like three times, I washed my face because two of them had spilled their semen on my face. Yikes, so disgusting. When did I even get used to all of this?

"I heard them groaning in pleasure. Once again, I regret ever introducing that kind of job to you "

Yeah, you heard him right. He was the one who introduced me to the dick-sucking job but that story is for another day.

" But it paid well enough to take care of myself and my dad. How could I have paid my fees and gotten my textbooks? "

" I'm gonna miss you, Nick. " He sighed and I went over to touch his arm " Don't worry, I'll call you, I'll text you "

He didn't say anything but just pulled me into a hug. I felt like crying. I didn't want to leave but I had to. Just for dad.

" Stay safe, alright? " He said and I nodded as we disengaged from the embrace. We bade each other goodbye and I jogged back home.

*

" Where did you go, Ren? " Dad asked once I got into the house. He looked like someone who had just woken up from sleep.

" I went out for a run and also to tell my friends goodbye " I answered dryly and walked into the kitchen to make breakfast. Dad joined me but he stood in the doorway.

" I didn't know you had friends, Ren. " Yeah, I didn't have any exception of Nick and dad knew it. " I'm so sorry that you'll be leaving them behind "

" Yes dad, it's for the best "

After making breakfast, I went in to take a shower and also do the final packing. I still couldn't believe I was leaving here. But as I told dad, it was for the best. I'll get into a new school over there and I'll complete my studies.

I dressed up and arranged my hair before carrying my luggage outside. I went over to have breakfast with dad afterward and there, I gave him the remaining money from what I could gather this morning.

" Where did you get the money, Ren? "

" I worked for it. Just keep it. That should be enough to keep you until you're ready to leave for Mexico. "

" Oh, dear! " He cried and looked up at me. I didn't want to see the tears in his eyes so I focused on my food instead. If he got to know where I got the money from, he'd be so ashamed of me.