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The Pause

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Millie POV

The pause lived in my chest for two days.

“There's no her,” he had said. “There's no her.”

But he had not said “there was never a her.” He had said something smaller, slower, more careful, and the space between “no her now” and “never a her” was the space I had begun to live in. It was a small, ugly furnished room of a space, and I had moved my things into it without deciding to.

Adrianna was back. Friday at sundown, pink suitcase, perfume cloud, three new stories about Marcy and De
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