Masuk“I will be back, Raffy. And I hope that by the time we see each other again, you will have already made the smartest and best decision. And you already know what that is.”
Raffy's hold on his fork had tightened as he kept remembering those words Andrew had said before he left.
'Who does he think he is to tell me what to do? Make the smartest and best decision? I already did it by not letting him buy our land and telling him to leave!'
He shook his head. It'd been ten years, and he thought Andrew would have already changed for the better, especially after everything he'd been through. But disappointedly, that wasn't the case at all.
Andrew was still the same arrogant and self-centered alpha.
"Are you okay, Dad?"
Raffy got pulled out of his deep thoughts after hearing his son's voice.
He looked at Lance, whose forehead had turned into a knot.
"You seem out of it, Dad," Lance added, then asked him again, "Is it because of that stranger a while ago? What did he tell you?"
He smiled at his son and patted his head. "I'm fine. And don't worry about that stranger. He won't be back."
But Lance could tell he was lying. "Is he a bad guy?"
When he couldn't answer, Lance asked once more. "Is he asking us to leave?"
The sadness and fear in his son's voice were very clear, and it made Raffy's heart clench in pain.
He hated that he let Lance feel that way. He hated that he couldn't assure his son that everything was going to be okay, hated that his words weren't enough to make Lance feel safe and at ease.
He hated feeling like he was not good enough to be a good father.
'You will be a good father, Raffy.'
He smiled bitterly at that thought.
He wanted to believe those words. After all, it came from someone who has never and will never lie to him—Lancy, his son's mother.
But with everything that was happening in their life at that moment, and upon seeing Lance's reaction, believing that he was a good father was hard for him to do.
"Do we have to leave our house, Dad?"
"No," he answered instantly. "We are not leaving. No one in this place is leaving, son. This is our home, and no one will take it away from us. I won't let that happen."
Hope started to fill Lance's face, and it made Raffy's heart swell in happiness.
"Promise?"
Raffy let go of the fork he was holding to touch his son's cheek, gently caressing it. He smiled at the boy and replied, "Promise."
Lance smiled at him, finally content with the answer he gave.
His son continued to eat heartily after that, while Raffy still couldn't stop thinking about Andrew. Remembering the alpha's smug expression made him want to punch something.
Eating with his son has always been his favorite thing to do. But at that moment, he couldn't find it to enjoy himself because all he could ever think about was Andrew.
After what felt like an agonizing dinner—he never thought a day would come where he would describe a dinner with his son as agonizing—Lance finally went to his room to sleep, while Raffy stayed to do a deep cleaning, which he usually only does every Sunday. But because he needed to do something to get his mind off of Andrew, he decided that it's never wrong to clean the house thoroughly at eight in the evening.
But no matter how much he tried to occupy his mind with something else, it always went back to Andrew, and it was frustrating the hell out of him.
Even while he was showering, and even when he busied himself with inventory and bookkeeping, Andrew had always found a way to pester his mind. Until he finally gave up and decided to head to bed instead, thinking that a sleep would probably fix his brain's obsession with Andrew.
But no, it did not. In fact, it was what made him unable to sleep.
After tossing and turning so many times, Andrew sat and screamed in silence while also tugging his hair out of frustration.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Get the fuck out of my head, you stupid, arrogant, motherfucking alpha!"
He heaved, then went back to lying down again in a rough manner, making his bed shake a little.
He scowled at the ceiling, still cursing Andrew in silence.
Why did he have to come back? Why now when he's already doing alright? Why now when his life was already back on the right track?
Why did Andrew have to show up again when he'd already moved on from their past, when he's got Lance now to think of and take care of?
In the past, being near and being connected to Andrew had always put him into jeopardy. It made him and his life miserable. And it seemed that Andrew was about to do it again.
So, before Andrew destroys him for the second time, he needed to put a stop to it already. He wouldn't allow Andrew to have power over him again.
He will do everything he can to drive Andrew out of his life.
He was the one who walked away before. This time, Andrew would be the one giving up and leaving.
Andrew had been telling himself that he should be that affected over the fact that Raffy found it hard to trust him. And yet he was.It bothered him so much that he couldn't do anything to ease Raffy's worries. He wasn't sure he could actually help, but he, at least, wanted to try. He could listen, something he used to not do before. He used to not be good at listening, but he had already learned to during the past couple of years. It sucked that he couldn't do that with Raffy.He understood him, though. If he were in the same position as Raffy, he would do the exact same thing. He wouldn't trust himself either. Still, he was thankful that Raffy had allowed him to stay for Lance's sake.Speaking of Lance, Andrew wanted to know what the doctor had told Raffy about Lance's condition that made him gloomy and spaced out. Whatever the doctor said, it might also be the reason why Raffy allowed him to stay."I wish I knew what was going on inside your heads," he whispered while staring at La
Raffy was trying his hardest to fall asleep. He knew he needed it to put his mind and body to rest. But no matter what he did, no matter how long he kept his eyes closed while counting sheep, sleep wasn't taking him away.His brain was filled with so many thoughts. Questions kept flooding his head. He wanted to know the root of Lance's stress and anxiety because he knew being disappointed with Andrew not keeping his promise to him was just the tip of the iceberg. Hell, it might not even be part of the reasons why he was stressed.'But surely, you are one of the reasons,' a voice inside his head said.Raffy sighed. That one, he was sure of. He was definitely one of the reasons for his son's stress and anxiety. And he wanted to know how and why. Was it because he always ended up being swallowed in his own thoughts for the past few weeks? Or was it because he was not giving Lance enough assurance that they won't be leaving their place? Or could it be because he was not giving him enough
It was actually very easy for Raffy to know that Andrew was still under the rut. He hadn't spent years with him just to not know how he was when he was in a rut. It just happened that he was occupied with the thoughts of Lance, his fellow residents, and the situation with the Maplewood District that it hadn't crossed his mind the possibility of Andrew still being under a rut.Andrew's jaws tightened. "Don't worry. I can handle it. What happened before won't happen again. I assure you that.""If staying in the restroom for more than fifteen minutes to calm down is your way of handling your rut well, then I don't think I can trust you," he said grimly.Raffy knew he was being a total jerk. But he needed to. Not just to protect Lance, but also to protect himself. Andrew being in a rut was dangerous for both him and his son."I understand where you are coming from. But you've been with me for almost the whole day. You've seen how I was. I haven't, not even once, lost my self-control.""No
Andrew couldn't stop the smile that appeared on his face as he watched Lance, who finally slept after playing board games with him.For someone still sick, the kid was too energetic. He didn't even want to sleep yet even though it was already in the middle of the night. The only thing that convinced Lance to finally sleep was when Raffy secretly talked to one of the nurses while they were making rounds to scare the boy and tell him that unless he got enough sleep, then he would be staying at the hospital for another night."He's finally asleep."From staring at Lance, Andrew raised his head to look at Raffy, who had just come out from the restroom."Thanks to your bright idea of asking the nurse," he replied with a smile. "If it weren't for that, we probably would still be convincing him till now."Raffy took the seat beside Lance's bed. He crossed his arms over his chest as he stared at his son adoringly. "I don't know what got over him. He usually isn't this stubborn—not that I hate
"I promise it won't happen again, kiddo. You can hold on to that."Raffy's palms turned into fists after hearing those words come out of Andrew's mouth.He had just told him not to keep promises to his son that he couldn't keep, and yet he was doing it again.Andrew was setting his son for another heartbreak! He wanted to strangle the hell out of Andrew, or even just pull him away from Lance. But upon seeing the joyous smile on his son's face, he couldn't find in him the strength to do it anymore.Then he remembered the conversation he had with the doctor regarding Lance's condition.'Forgive me for asking this, Mr. Castor, but is everything alright in your home?'Raffy was confused with the sudden personal question but still answered. 'I wouldn't say it's great. We're dealing with a lot right now, so...''Are the problems you are dealing with right now enough to stress Lance?'Raffy got confused even more. 'Doctor, can you please get straight to the point? Is there something wrong w
It took Andrew a while to get over being surprised and find his voice again."Yes" was the only word he was able to say. He knew he should have said more or even tried to sound a bit more enthusiastic, but with how he was trying not to look and sound overly happy with Lance's acknowledgement with a genuine smile, looking for the right words was the least thing he could think about. He was damn happy; a wide and huge smile appeared on his lips without him even realizing.It was when he felt Raffy's intense staring at him that he finally caught himself smiling like an idiot.He cleared his throat and fixed his expression. But then Lance spoke through his raspy voice."You look better when you smile, Andrew."Once again, shock filled Andrew's face. He was not expecting to hear that from the young boy. He didn't know what to do. He was torn as to whether he should keep up the normal expression he had always shown to the public or he should just be himself. But before he could even get an
Despite telling himself so many times that he needed to stop thinking too much about Raffy and instead think of what he should be doing for his project to finally start, Andrew couldn't take his mind off of Raffy. Even after busying himself, the moment he wasn't occupied, even if it was only for
Andrew felt like his world had stopped spinning. It's like time has been paused. He was lost for words, and his gaze zeroed in on the man in front of him—the one he had so many memories about and had tried to bury.“Andrew…” he heard Raffy, looking equally shocked, utter.It had been so long since
The present...Raffy grinned, leaning against the counter as he watched and listened to the group of elementary-schoolers arguing over which book was better.One of the four children, a young boy, asked one of the girls, "How did you know that book is better than this one when you haven't even read
Ten years ago...Raffy didn't know how long he had been just staring at his reflection in the mirror. What he knew was that it had been too long, that he had to stop now, or else he was going to be late for his flight.He glanced at his wristwatch. His flight was at three p.m., and it was already t







