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Ten years ago...
Raffy didn't know how long he had been just staring at his reflection in the mirror. What he knew was that it had been too long, that he had to stop now, or else he was going to be late for his flight.
He glanced at his wristwatch. His flight was at three p.m., and it was already twelve noon, which meant he only had three hours to reach the airport.
A deep sigh came out of his mouth. He really needed to leave if he didn't want to be left behind by the plane…
Or maybe that was what he truly wanted—
"No," Raffy said to himself while shaking his head, putting a stop to all the thoughts he was having. He looked at himself in the mirror again, and this time his eyes showed determination. "You've already made your decision, Raffy. You can't back out now."
And so with that, he took one more look at his sullen face in the mirror and fixed his clothes before he finally grabbed his two suitcases and went out of his room.
He initially planned to just leave right away and not look back. But when he passed by his favorite room in the entire penthouse, he couldn't help himself. He stopped and turned his gaze into that room. And before he knew it, he had already gently let go of his suitcases and started making his way towards that room.
He opened the unlocked door of the room as softly and as quietly as he could. He went inside and made his way towards the bed where his favorite person—or who used to be his favorite person—was sleeping; his steps were so light that they had not made even a single noise.
His eyes travelled to the entirety of Andrew's sleeping figure. But his gaze lingered more on Andrew's handsome face. And there goes the familiar and usual beating of his heart again whenever he sees Andrew—the beating that had never failed to remind him how in love he was with the man he used to dislike.
A bitter smile appeared on his face.
Never, not even in his wildest imagination, had he thought he would end up falling in love with Andrew. And yet here he was.
But this has to end now. The love he was feeling for Andrew had to be stopped now, or he might end up getting more hurt than he already had.
He couldn't continue loving someone one-sidedly. He couldn't continue being with someone that does not value him and does not care about him.
And so, in order for him and his heart to not be fully destroyed to the point that it won't be fixable anymore, he had to put an end to everything now and leave, no matter how painful it was.
"This pain will pass. I just have to endure this," he told himself as he brought his gaze back to Andrew's face.
He bit his lower lip. There was this very strong urge inside him to touch Andrew's face for the last time, but he held himself back.
He couldn't do that. Because he knew that once he did, it would only be harder for him to leave. Also, he couldn't risk the chance of waking Andrew up.
Although Andrew could not reciprocate his love, Andrew wouldn't let him go easily either.
For some reason, Andrew was obsessed with him. At first, Raffy thought it was because Andrew was feeling something, maybe not love but close to it, and he hoped that it would turn into something more. But after being with Andrew for long, he finally realized that what he thought was wrong. That's when he finally decided to let go of the last thread of hope that he held on to.
Instead of touching Andrew, Raffy stood and took deep breaths to calm his racing and aching heart and also for him to be able to breathe normally once again.
When his breathing had gone back to normal, he took one last glance that was filled with love and longing at Andrew. Then, he finally turned around and got out of the room, leaving Andrew pieces of his heart that he knew he could never take back.
Andrew, with his hands inside his pocket, stood right in front of him, looking not even a bit bothered that Raffy was giving him a deathly stare. That pissed Raffy more than he already was."I am here for your son. Is he home? May I speak with him?"Raffy scoffed. "Oh, so you now remember my son.""Raffy...""He's still at school. And even if he's home, I will not allow you to talk to him.""Look, I am not here to hurt Lance.""You already did," Raffy said immediately. "The moment you promised him something and then acted as if you didn't, you had already hurt him. Why did you even do that? Why had you talked to him without me knowing? Why did you make him believe that you are someone you are not—someone kind and someone he could trust? Why the hell did you have to promise him something, only for you to break that fucking promise!"Remembering the sadness and disappointment in Lance's face when he finally realized that Andrew has no intention to fulfill his promise made Raffy want to
Andrew was back in Maplewood District, and Raffy hated it. He had been trying to act normal, as if he didn't care, but every time he remembered Andrew's face when he saw him coming out of his vehicle, anger and frustration immediately surged inside of him.'Why has he come back? He said he's going to stay away from me, and for a while, I thought he would honor that. And yet he's here again, acting like he didn't do shit! I could never really trust him.'Andrew was pulled out of his deep thinking when someone called his name. From staring blankly at the barcode scanner, he looked up to see who called him.It was Mr. Zhang.Raffy immediately put a fake smile on his face."Mr. Zhang, how may I—""That man is back," Mr. Zhang said, not even letting him finish his sentence. "Why is he back? Are they making another move? Be honest with me, Raffy. Do we still have a fight in this?"Mr. Zhang's face was so full of worry and uncertainty, and Raffy hated seeing those on the old man's face. He w
A knock on his office door caught Andrew's attention, causing him to raise his head."May I come in?" Sally asked from the other side of the door."Yes," Andrew replied before letting go of the pen he had been holding."You okay?" Sally asked after she came in and closed the door, clocking the flushed look he had."Yeah. I'm good.""You sure? You're still in a rut, Andrew. You sure you don't want me to call someone?""I am a hundred percent sure, Sally," he quickly replied. "Now, tell me what you're here for."Sally gave him a doubtful look but said nothing about it anymore. Instead, he handed him a manila folder that contained information about a real-estate and urban development company."What am I looking at, Sally?" he asked as he looked at every page."Crownstone Properties Group. I know you already heard about them."Andrew nodded. "I had a newly established real estate and property development company that has rapidly gained attention in our industry. So?""You are aware that t
Raffy tried to act as normal as possible. He was all smiles as he got out of the taxi when he reached the Maplewood District. That same smile hadn't faded when people greeted him. He even had conversations with a few of them in the gentle and calm tone he always used, which was the complete opposite of what he was truly feeling.Because while he appeared fine on the outside, a storm was causing havoc inside him, a storm so strong it made his heart clench.Once he was inside his safe space, his home, that was when he finally stopped pretending and allowed himself to let go of his real emotions. His fake smile disappeared, and he allowed himself to be stripped of the last bit of strength he still had after meeting Andrew.He placed his phone on the counter and sat on the chair facing it, a heavy sigh escaping his lips.He crossed his arms and laid them on the counter before resting his head on them.He closed his eyes and took a couple of deep breaths. He wanted his messy and chaotic b
With his eyes closed, Andrew lifted his head to let water fall down his face.Because he was still in a rut, his body was very sensitive, making him feel and hear almost everything.He hated it. He hated being in a rut because not only was he losing control of himself physically but also emotionally. And he loathed that because that was not him anymore.For years, after what he did to Andrew's best friend, after he got punished for it, and after Raffy left him, Andrew did everything he could to change. He made himself better in all the aspects he thought he was lacking. And he believed he was already doing well. For years, that was what he believed.But what happened at his office with Andrew made him realize that that was not the case at all.Andrew's slap instantly reminded him of the punishment he had received, and the way he relied on Raffy to forget and feel better brought him back to how they were ten years ago. And he didn't know how to feel about that.There were so many emotio
Raffy was shocked to see the overwhelming anger in Andrew's face.He knew Andrew would be angry. Anyone would be after being slapped. But he was not expecting that kind of anger. It was scary. It made him speechless, made him unable to move. The look on Andrew's face made it seem like he could kill anyone who stood in his way, and right now, that person was Raffy.There were only a handful of times where he saw that side of Andrew. And most of those ended with him being roughly fucked so hard, he had to stay in bed for a day. As for whether he was alright being treated that way—yes, he was. Because at that time, all he could think about was helping Andrew to get whatever horrible thoughts he was having off his mind. He wanted to make him forget, to make him feel better.Fuck! He wished he could forget too. If there was some kind of a potion that would make him magically forget everything that had to do with Andrew, he would gladly take it. Because he couldn't keep remembering their pa
Despite telling himself so many times that he needed to stop thinking too much about Raffy and instead think of what he should be doing for his project to finally start, Andrew couldn't take his mind off of Raffy. Even after busying himself, the moment he wasn't occupied, even if it was only for
“I will be back, Raffy. And I hope that by the time we see each other again, you will have already made the smartest and best decision. And you already know what that is.”Raffy's hold on his fork had tightened as he kept remembering those words Andrew had said before he left.'Who does he think he
Andrew felt like his world had stopped spinning. It's like time has been paused. He was lost for words, and his gaze zeroed in on the man in front of him—the one he had so many memories about and had tried to bury.“Andrew…” he heard Raffy, looking equally shocked, utter.It had been so long since
The present...Raffy grinned, leaning against the counter as he watched and listened to the group of elementary-schoolers arguing over which book was better.One of the four children, a young boy, asked one of the girls, "How did you know that book is better than this one when you haven't even read







