FAZER LOGINCHAPTER 39
The formal summons arrived with the morning courier, sealed in black wax and written in the stiff, impersonal language of the council. The full council required Alpha Roman Draven's presence to address, in writing and before the assembled elders, the nature and future of his relationship with the surrogate Mira Vale. They wanted an explanation. Publicly. "Read that again," I said. Roman stood behind his desk, the summons held between his fingers. He read the final line aloud, his voice flattening around the words. "The nature and future of my relationship with Mira Vale." I set down my teacup. "Like we're a border dispute." "That's the intention." "Can they actually demand an explanation of your private life?" "They can summon me to address anything they believe threatens Blackthorn's stability." "That's not an answer." "It's the procedure." He folded the paper along its crease. "They can't dictate whom I love. They can question whether my judgment is compromised." "And if they decide it is?" "Then they'll demand to know what I intend to do about it." Intend. The word sat between us like a threat. "They want you to choose," I said. "They want me to explain myself." His mouth tightened. "Which is how the elders ask for a choice without admitting that's what they're doing." I stared at the summons. Last night's argument still weighed on me. Roman had apologized for treating my conversation with Kase like a crime. He had asked me to give him a chance to prove he could handle the truth. Now the council was demanding that he explain what I meant to him. "What will you tell them?" I asked. "I'm still deciding." "That's not comforting." "It isn't meant to be." He met my eyes. "I'm not going to lie to you and pretend I have everything figured out." "Are you going to defend us?" A pause. Too long. "Roman." "If I defend our relationship openly, Wren will call it proof that I put personal desire above the pack. If I minimize it, I give her another reason to question my honesty." "And protect your position." "And hurt you." "Then which will you choose?" "I don't know yet." I studied him. "You told me last night to let you prove something." "I remember." "I'm not asking you to deliver a perfect speech. I'm asking whether you'll hide behind strategy when it matters." His jaw flexed. "I'm not hiding." "You're calculating." "I'm an Alpha. Calculating consequences is part of the job." "I know." I held his gaze. "But I'm not a calculation, Roman." He opened his mouth to answer, but a knock interrupted us. Before either of us could respond, Corvin stepped inside and closed the door behind him. His gaze moved from me to Roman, then settled on the summons. "You've seen it." "This morning," Roman replied. "Then I'll be brief." Corvin's expression was unusually serious. "Wren has been busy." Roman placed the summons on his desk. "Busy how?" "She's been visiting elders individually. Dinners, private meetings, walks in the gardens. She's making certain they hear her version of events before they hear yours." "And what version is that?" I asked. Corvin glanced at me. "That Roman's judgment has been compromised by his relationship with you. That he's allowing personal attachment to interfere with his responsibilities." I remained still, though something tightened beneath my ribs. "So she's not asking him for an explanation," I said. "She's building a case." "Exactly." Roman's expression hardened. "For what?" Corvin hesitated. "A formal challenge to your authority, if the session goes badly." The room fell silent. "To my authority," Roman repeated. "She's testing how much support she has. If she can persuade enough elders that you're putting your desires above Blackthorn's stability, she'll have grounds to demand a formal review of your leadership." "How many are with her?" "I don't know the exact number." "That's not good enough." "It's the truth." Corvin's voice sharpened. "I know she's counting. I know she has enough support to make this dangerous. I don't know whether she has enough to win." Roman stared at him. "Names?" "I'd rather give you confirmed information than guesses. The moment we start accusing people without evidence, we make her work easier." I found my voice. "So the summons is bait." "It's a stage," Corvin replied. "Wren wants Roman in front of the entire council, defending himself while she watches for a mistake." "And I'm the mistake," I said. Neither man answered. I looked at Roman. His expression had become smooth and unreadable, the way it did whenever something struck too deep for him to show. "I'll handle it," he said. "Roman." "I will." "I'm not asking whether you're capable of handling the council." I kept my voice steady. "I'm asking what it will cost you." His gaze held mine. He still didn't answer. Corvin cleared his throat. "There's one more thing." Roman turned to him. "Go on." "I'll stand with you in the chamber." Roman's expression changed. "Say that again." "Whatever you decide to say about your relationship with Mira, I'll support your right to say it without having your leadership questioned simply because Wren disagrees with your personal choices." "Corvin." "I mean it." "You understand what that could cost you? Your seat, your standing, your influence with the elders?" "I understand exactly what it could cost me." "Then why?" Corvin studied him for a moment. "Because I watched you at the last session. I watched you lose your temper, recognize it, and recover before you made the situation worse. I watched a man fighting to protect someone he cared about without turning his back on the pack." "That isn't a reason to risk your position." "It's my reason." A faint, dry smile touched Corvin's mouth. "I'm not supporting you because I think you're perfect, Roman. I'm supporting you because Wren is turning a private relationship into a political weapon, and that weapon could eventually be used against anyone who makes a decision she doesn't like." His gaze shifted to me. "I also don't believe people should be punished simply because someone powerful has decided they're inconvenient." I considered him carefully. "You voted against relocating me," I said. "I did." "You never told me why." "Because the evidence presented at the time was thin. And I don't like decisions made out of fear." Something about that answer stayed with me. Corvin wasn't promising to defend every choice Roman made. He was defending the right to make a fair decision without being threatened into submission. It was a meaningful difference. Roman looked at him for a long moment. "You've never said anything like this to me before." "You never needed to hear it." "I don't know what to say." "Then don't say anything." Corvin's mouth twitched. "Just don't make me regret it." He gave me a brief nod before leaving. The door clicked shut behind him. For a moment, Roman and I remained silent. "That's more support than you thought you had," I said. "It's one vote." "It's one friend." "It's both." He rubbed his eyes. "And it doesn't change the numbers." "No. But it changes what you walk into that room carrying." He looked at me. Something in his expression softened, leaving him briefly unguarded. "Roman," I said. "Listen to me." "I'm listening." "Are you going to bring me to the session?" His face tightened. "Mira" "The summons names you. I know that. I'm asking what you intend to do." "I'd rather you stayed out of it." "Why?" "Because Wren will use you the moment you walk through those doors. She'll make you the subject of the entire hearing." "I already am the subject." "Then let me spare you the room." "Spare me, or spare yourself?" His eyes flashed. "That's unfair." "Is it?" "I'm not ashamed of you." "Then why does it sound as though you want me waiting outside while everyone inside discusses my life?" "Because I'm afraid of what they'll say about you." "And what will you say about me?" He stopped. I took a breath. "I won't be a secret you reveal when it's convenient, Roman. I won't be something you protect by keeping me out of sight. If this relationship is real, then it's real in front of them, too." "You'd stand in front of the entire council?" "If they'll let me." "They won't unless I insist." "Then insist." He looked away. "They'll treat you like a problem to be managed," he said quietly. "They'll question your motives, your place in this house, and whether you've influenced my decisions. They won't see you as a person who deserves to speak. They'll see an opportunity to weaken me." "They already see me that way." His gaze returned to mine. "The difference is whether you allow them to keep speaking about me as though I'm not here." He closed his eyes briefly. "I can't promise they'll be kind." "I'm not asking for kindness." "I can't promise they'll listen." "I'm asking whether you'll demand that they hear me, or let them decide everything about me without giving me a chance to speak." Something shifted in his expression. The uncertainty didn't disappear, but it hardened into resolve. "I'll demand that you be heard," he said. "And if they refuse, I'll tell them exactly why that refusal matters." "And if it costs you?" "It might." "Then don't pretend otherwise." "I'm not." His voice lowered. "I can't keep pretending my leadership and my feelings for you exist in separate worlds. I've tried, and it doesn't work." "No," I said softly. "It doesn't." "I'll have to decide how to carry both." "Is that your answer?" He considered the question. "It's the truest one I have." I nodded slowly. "Then it's enough for now." Not because it solved everything. Because, for the first time that morning, he had stopped trying to give me a guarantee he couldn't keep. By noon, the east wing was humming with rumors. Maids lowered their voices when Roman passed. Two guards straightened the moment he approached. Even the servants who usually ignored council business seemed aware that something important was happening. Someone had polished the brass handles on the council chamber doors until they gleamed. Roman stood in the corridor in his formal dark coat, the Blackthorn crest pinned at his throat. His collar was high, his shoulders squared, and his expression so controlled that he looked like a man who had never smiled. I approached him. "What will you tell them?" "I won't write a speech." "Why not?" "Because if I rehearse every word, I'll start thinking about which answer protects my position best." "And you don't want to do that?" "I need to understand the consequences." He looked down at me. "But I don't want to walk in there and turn you into a carefully constructed argument." I studied his face. "Do you know what you want to say?" "I know what I can't say." "Which is?" "That you don't matter." My throat tightened. I nodded, afraid that if I tried to speak, my voice would betray me. He stepped closer. "Mira, I won't pretend there aren't consequences. If I speak openly about us, it could cost me my position." "Then why do it?" His answer came without hesitation. "Because I'd rather lose it honestly than keep it by lying about what matters to me." "Is that a calculation?" "No." "Is it your decision?" His eyes held mine. "It's mine." He reached for my hand. No one was looking. Or perhaps everyone was. His fingers closed around mine, warm and steady. "I'll come back," he said. "I know." "I need you to trust me." "I do." It wasn't entirely true. Not yet. But I wanted it to become true. "Stay near the doors," he said. "I'll be where I can hear." "Mira." "Go, Roman." For a moment, he didn't move. Then he lifted my hand and brushed his lips against my knuckles. It was a small gesture, almost private. Almost. Then he released me and walked toward the council chamber. I watched him go, his steps measured, his posture carrying the full weight of his authority. Beyond those doors waited the elders, Wren's growing influence, and a decision that could change everything. Roman had promised to demand that I be heard. Now he would have to prove it. And as the council chamber doors opened to receive him, I realized that the next few minutes would determine more than whether he kept his seat as Alpha. They would show me whether the man who had asked me to trust him was finally ready to stand beside me when it mattered.CHAPTER 47 Breakfast tasted different that morning.Not the food, but the ease of it. Roman's fingers brushed mine over the teapot without either of us pretending the contact was accidental. Somewhere during the night, we'd stopped hiding, even from ourselves.I kept catching myself looking at him.He kept catching me.Neither of us seemed particularly interested in stopping."Did you sleep?" he asked."Like the dead.""Poor choice of phrase.""Like a very peaceful log.""Better."He poured my tea. Two sugars, no milk."Are you hungry? Do you want eggs? Something warmer?""I have toast.""One piece.""It's a large piece.""It's a small piece." He nudged the butter toward me. "I could ask the kitchen to send up porridge.""Roman.""Or fruit.""Roman.""Fruit is excellent for""Has being in love with me turned you into a personal breakfast supervisor?"His mouth twitched."I'm making sure you're comfortable.""I'm pregnant, not incapable of deciding what I want to eat.""I know that."
CHAPTER 46 Nothing needed to be said.The fire had burned low, Roman's hand was still in mine, and when I leaned toward him this time, neither of us hesitated.There was no question about what we wanted. No need to pretend we were only drawn together by the bond or that the feelings we'd confessed could be tucked away again when morning came.For once, we were simply two people choosing each other."Mira."His voice was low against my hair."Are you sure?"I lifted my head."Roman.""I want to hear you say it.""I'm sure.""Not because of the bond?""The bond has never once asked me anything." I touched his cheek. "I'm asking. I'm the one standing in your room.""You are."A faint, crooked smile appeared on his face."I'm trying to be very careful.""I noticed. Stop being careful.""That's an order?""It's a request.""From my..." He paused, searching for the word, then abandoned it with a quiet laugh. "From you. I'll honor it.""Good."His hand rose to my face, his thumb tracing my
CHAPTER 45 He asked again that night, alone in his room, with firelight throwing shadows across the space between us."What were you thinking at dinner?"This time, I didn't deflect."That I love you," I said. "That's what I was thinking."Roman didn't move.The fire popped once, filling the silence."Say that again," he said, very quietly."I love you.""You're certain?""Roman." A breath of laughter escaped me. "I just worked up the nerve to say it twice. Don't make me conduct a third audit.""I'm not auditing." His voice was rough. "I only needed to hear it twice to believe it once.""Believe it.""I'm trying.""Try faster."He let out a sound that was half a laugh and half something I couldn't name. Then he crossed the space between us.He stopped in front of me, close enough that I could see the pulse beating in his throat."You don't have to take it back," he said."I wasn't going to.""You don't have to protect yourself from my answer.""I'm not." I drew a breath. "I'm frighte
CHAPTER 44 I used to think falling in love happened all at once, like stepping off a ledge.It didn't.It happened in a hundred small moments I only noticed once I was already standing at the bottom, unable to remember when exactly I'd started falling."You're doing it again," I said.Roman glanced up from the steward's ledger. "Doing what?""Holding my hand."He looked down.Our fingers were laced together on the breakfast table, his thumb tracing slow circles over my knuckles. He'd been discussing household expenses with the steward for ten minutes without letting go once."So I am.""In front of him."The steward suddenly became fascinated by the ledger."He's looking at the ceiling," I added. "Very hard."The man coughed and studied the plaster with renewed concentration.Roman's mouth twitched."Would you prefer I stop?"I considered pretending I would.Instead, I tightened my fingers around his."I didn't say that."His smile deepened. He returned to the ledger, still holding m
CHAPTER 43 "Tell me something you've never told anyone," I said.Roman was quiet for so long that I thought he wouldn't answer.Then he looked down at his hands."I talk to her sometimes. Lyra. Not out loud. Just in my head." He swallowed. "I think I've been afraid that loving you would mean I have to stop."I didn't move.Neither did he.The candle on my table flickered once before settling into a steady flame."What do you tell her?" I asked."Small things." His fingers tightened together. "What the council said. What I decided. Whether she'd have agreed with me.""And?""I ask questions she can't answer.""How long have you been doing that?""Since the funeral.""Does anyone know?""No.""Why not?"His mouth twisted."Because it sounds like I haven't accepted what happened. Like I'm someone who can't let go.""Is that what you think?""I think it's what they'd think.""I asked what you think."He stared at his hands."I think I've been afraid that if I loved you properly, I'd have
CHAPTER 42 The envoy sat across from us with the careful stillness of someone who knew more than he intended to reveal.His questions had been polite from the beginning. His expression remained composed, his voice measured, and his posture perfectly diplomatic.Yet every question circled the same unspoken concern.How much did Mira Vale know about what she was becoming?"Miss Vale," he said, folding his hands over one knee. "How long have you lived at Blackthorn?""You already know that.""I prefer to hear it from you.""Since spring.""And during that time, have you undergone any unusual examinations?"I studied him."Define unusual.""Anything beyond the ordinary care a surrogate would receive.""The Alpha's physician looks after my health.""Has she noticed any changes since your arrival?""My pregnancy.""Besides that."Roman leaned forward."Alpha Draven's household is not an open ledger. Her private affairs are not subject to diplomatic inspection."The envoy turned toward him







