Life sure has no mercy! I feel disgruntled at everything, my pathetic unfortunate self included. The devil has surely made a pact with fate to screw me, and the heavens have always had their doors latched for me. I am all alone in this quagmire. I feel so forfeited, and vague, and powerless, and above all, empty!How can life be so cruel? What did I ever do in the past for the heavens to castigate me this way, huh? My parents got annihilated. The killer is walking free and on top of the nation, cloaking himself as the fucking savior while my parents can't even be buried yet. My only sibling is missing and I don't know where to start looking. Ooh, well, I think I have an idea, but how do I do that? How can I face that monster now?My uncle?! My fucking uncle!My nightmare, the monster I loath with all my heart, the man who took my purity, the dog that deflowered me in the cruellest way and kept on abusing me sexually over and over again and again, turns out to be my uncle? That's the
I finally pull away from his embrace after ages. It feels so heavenly and safe being in his arms. It's the most safest place I know so far. It must be somewhere around afternoon, presumably.I feel better. I feel sober. I feel relieved. My head and heart feel lighter now. I'm still in thoughts and still torn between decisions, yes, but this is an innocuous feeling I haven't had ever since I woke in this cruel life. Maybe I just needed to sob on his shoulder to be relieved off of all that guilt. Maybe I just needed to hear someone whisper to me those beautiful solacing words he just told me- that I am blameless on this abomination. That I don't need to kill myself over it. That it wasn't in any way my fault.You know what? He is perfectly right. I didn't intend for that to happen. God knows how I scorned myself for being fucked by an abhorrent monster like him even without knowing he was actually my uncle. I at this juncture thank the heavens that I wasn't cognizant that we were bloo
We stroll downstairs hand in hand, the fervor of the savage kissing still burning my face. I bet I am all rosy. I know this may sound crazy, but I feel so good having kissed this man. His kiss is like an antidote to my sorrows. It leaves me so fresh. I feel so raw, and invigorated, like I can now face the world. At the sitting room racks an awfully indignant figure of inspector Dan. I can tell from afar that things did not flare glossy on him where he sprinted to a few hours ago. I hope this isn't about this monster again. But then again, how cliche can that absurd hope of mine be? It's like everything now is about this monster. Everything in the world is orbiting around that cursed monster."What's up?" Deep asks the disgruntled Dan as we rack in front of him.He opens his mouth to enunciate something, but a single glare at us, his mouth hang agape, his eyes doing the talking. We swap a glance with Deep. I am satisfactorily pinned to his hip, his hand sheathing around my waist, and
Deep serves us a mind-blowing sweet coffee to hopefully calm us down. The aroma is so fetching. It smells sweet even from afar. Taking my mug, I blow it continually until my senses are contented that my mouth will be safe. I take a sip, and men, I mean, girl, I had to shut my eyes as I savor its luscious soothing flavor as it soothes the raw walls of my throat all the way down. I also recall licking my lips to accentuate my pleasure. I don't think I have ever sampled something like this. So sweet and soothing!Taking another sip, a faint satisfactory moan unintentionally breaks out of my lips. But I don't mind anyway. I am thrilled. It's not an offence to let the chef know just how sweet he is. When hasn't he been terrific anyway? Damn! Why is he soo... I peel my eyes, yearning for another sip if not gulping down the remnants in the mug in a go, but my cravings are halted by the oglings of the two pairs of eyes. What did I do that usurped their scrutiny like this?"W.hat?" I query.
"Please, understand that this is the only way. I am the only one who can put an end to this monster. To this mystery! Deep, please." I beg, for a thousandth time, and for a thousandth time, he howls the same answer."NO!" His voice reverberates to all the corners of this huge room with a rebounded echo. I had to close my ears for their own safety.It's been hours! Yes, hours! It's almost five o'clock in the evening. We have howled at each other, taken commercials, tried calming down and resumed this conversation again and again, but still, it's hitting a dead end. He is one stubborn ass, and I am trying my best best to play the reasonable one, but stubbornness is also in my blood. No one is willing to bow down. None is willing to submit. Once again, I try to calm my demons down while he charges his, presumably. I take a deep breath which I don't think is helping at all, and speak as calmly as I can manage."You have to...""I said, no, Ella! Period!" He squeals even before I can say
"Like I said earlier," I start, Deep gripping my hand as if soliciting with me not to enunciate what he already knows. I dismiss his exotic gesture and continue, "Ajay is a vicious treacherous devil. He is cunning. We have no idea what his next move will be or when, but we at least have a surmise of what he wants. He is a ticking bomb right now that will explode any minute. We will give him what he wants before he explodes because that will bring total doom." I finish, with Deep's hand almost breaking mine from his beastly grip, his hand trembling on mine. He doesn't know he is beginning to hurt me. His fear of my plan is taking a tall one on him."I still don't understand." Dan speaks.It's not that he doesn't discern what I am explaining. I didn't speak in parables or tongues. He is just in denial that I am actually suggesting this. However insane my suggestion sounds, sacrifices are parts and parcels of our lives, I believe, and this is worth it. All the lives that have been oblit
Glaring at these two antagonistic riled beasts, and with Deep's words earlier wrecking my equilibrium of mind, I shuffle to them, ignoring their sinister homicidal glares. I wonder how they can stand these glares because I am freaking out. I guess Deep went way overboard with his clamors of worries, and raved about something that wasn't meant for a third ear. Fortunately or unfortunately, I heard it, and I can't keep quiet about it."Who is this Ajay holding against you?" I silently raise a question, curiosity itching my arse real bad, but the scowl I receive as a riposte from Dan threatens to paralyze me on the spot, but I don't.I am even grateful to my gewgaws because eventually, they have broken that freakishly stare challenge. But I would appreciate it if Dan directed his glare somewhere else. I only asked a simple question, right? Why the heck is he glaring at me as if I am the one who took his love away from him?Yeah! His love, because from the analysis of his look and his wr
"You remember what I told you in the morning?" Deep starts after sighing like a hundred times.What exactly is he referring to?"We talked about a lot of things this morning, so which one, in particular, are you referring to?" I quiz."That it's you, who wanted us to remain this way. As...just...friends." He says, pulling me to the seat.I don't demur. I follow him voluntarily and we crouch on the couch facing each other, our knees almost lounging on each other's.Not a decent posture for my own thoughts, but it's tolerable. We are in for a serious symposium so I am certain that my virtuous brain will not have the time or incentive to drift haywire."Yes, what about it?" I implore, my eyes not leaving his."You rejected me. Not once, but twice."Ahem! "Why?" I curiously query."The first time was because you didn't want to be bound by just an alignment. Your father had come to me with a marriage proposal. He wanted me to marry you, and the only reason he gave me was that he was sure