LOGINHAZEL I heard Axel chuckle as I returned to arranging his things and smiled to myself.Here is the thing about taking care of Axel in his bedroom. I didn't exactly move into Axel's bedroom, but I might as well have. And to think that this was once a room I had been forbidden to enter made me laugh.I spent most of my time there. I kept a few of my belongings in his bathroom, along with some clothes and toiletries, so I wouldn't have to keep going back and forth to my own room.I was there twenty-four-seven. When he woke up, when he ate, and whenever he needed his medication. I made sure he drank enough water, reminded him to rest, and watched him whenever he tried to do something he wasn't supposed to.At some point, I think Axel felt like I was his own personal nurse.“You know,” Axel said one morning as I handed him his medication, “I think I should start paying you.”I raised an eyebrow.“For what?”“For all this nursing.”I placed the glass of water in his hand.“Don't worry. I'l
HAZEL I didn't leave Axel's side. Not for a day.The days passed in a way I hadn't expected. I barely left his hospital room. The first night, I slept in the chair beside his bed, waking up every time the monitor beeped or he shifted in his sleep. The nurses kept telling me I could go home and get some proper rest, but I refused. I wasn't going anywhere without Axel. I had already spent enough time wondering where he was and whether he was going to make it. I didn't want to keep going through that.The next day, Axel had them bring a bed into the room so I could sleep comfortably, as if I was going to sleep comfortably when I was worried about him every second of every hour.Axel seemed amused by my determination, although he didn't say much about it. He was still weak, and the doctors wanted to keep him under observation because of the amount of blood he had lost. They checked his wound regularly, monitored his blood pressure, and made sure there were no signs of complications.Tha
HAZEL My throat tightened.“Then what do you expect from me?”“Nothing tonight.” His thumb moved slowly over my hand. “I just needed you to know. You have no idea how much telling you that has made me feel.”I looked away, blinking back the tears. There were so many things I wanted to tell Axel—a lot of them.I wanted to ask him how long he'd felt this way, why he'd waited so long, and why he'd made it so difficult for me to understand where I stood with him. But I also knew this wasn't the right time. And, if I was being honest, I was afraid of his answers too.The monitor beeped again, pulling my attention toward it.“That's enough,” I said, standing up. “I'm calling the nurses.”“Hazel, wait...."No." I responded immediately. "You've said what you wanted to say. Now you need to let them take care of you. You're not dying on my watch.”He looked like he wanted to argue, but I was already reaching for the call button. A moment later, the door opened, and the two nurses came in with
HAZEL I turned toward the monitor, not knowing what was happening.“What's happening?” I asked, looking back at Axel.I was about to have a full-blown panic attack.“It's… nothing," Axel responded quietly."Nothing?" "It's monitoring my blood pressure,” he said.“And what's happening? Why is it doing that? Should I get a nurse?”“No. I'm going to be fine. Listen..... I have to say this.”“Say what? What is it?”Axel took a deep breath, but the beeping monitors weren't making it any easier for either of us.Soon enough, two nurses rushed into the room.“Give us a second,” he said.But, of course, they didn't listen. They immediately began checking the monitors and fussing over him.“Give me a second,” he repeated. They didn't. This time, he called out, “Remo.”I hadn't even realised Remo had walked into the room and was standing in front of the door.“Give me a few seconds," Axel said to him.Remo nodded and looked at the nurses.“Out,” Remo ordered.The nurses hesitated, looking bet
HAZEL The room went silent, and I immediately regretted what I had said.Axel's eyes remained on mine. I quickly looked away, embarrassed by how easily the words had slipped out. I knew this wasn't the time to talk about Kat, Vasilisa, or what I had imagined the previous night. For Christ's sake, he was lying in a hospital bed. He was hurt and needed to rest—not have me doubt him or question him. But I also couldn't pretend that none of it had happened.“Hey,” came his tired voice.I didn't move.“Look at me.”I looked up. He held my gaze.“I wasn't with Kat or any other woman you're thinking about.”“I know. I was just.... Besides, here you are lying in a hospital.”He tried to laugh, but it quickly turned into a cough.“Hey, are you okay?” I quickly asked.“I'm fine.” He took a moment to catch his breath. “That's the first time I've laughed since they put me in here. So, thanks for that.”I smiled, looking away.“I was worried about you,” I whispered. “When you didn't come back la
HAZEL I stopped. What was I supposed to say? I was the woman he had told he cared about. The woman he had asked to give him time. The woman who had spent the previous night convincing herself that she meant nothing to him..... None of those made any sense. And the worst of all was that I had no idea what I meant to Axel; I had no idea who we were or where we stood.“I need to see him,” I said instead. “Please, he's very important to me. And even if I can't see him, I want to know how he's doing. I only just heard about what happened, and I'm freaking out...”The nurse looked at me as I continued speaking, and a look of understanding and sympathy crossed her face.“Okay. Just wait while I check,” she said gently.I nodded, but I couldn't stand still. I paced a few steps away before returning to the desk.“Have you found him?”“Please, miss. Just give me a moment, okay?”I pressed my hands together, fighting the urge to cry. Then I heard a familiar voice behind me.“Hazel?”I turned.
AXELThe minute Remo walks into the penthouse, I know he’s about to give me another headache.I don’t even look up right away.“What’s that smile for?” I ask.I know Remo. And I know that smile.I don’t like it.He just shrugs. “Nothing.”“Anything you found out about Morozov?”“No. I’m still diggi
HAZELAxel gives me a look.A look that says I’m way beneath him.A look that says I am undeserving of an answer or an explanation.“You’re here, aren’t you?” he says, almost bored. “You’re safe, you’re fed, you have a roof over your head, and that’s all you need to know.”That gets my anger rollin
HAZELAngela freezes as she stares at me.“Remo? Why?”“You told me he’s the only one who might know where Axel is,” I say flatly. “And I want to know where he is.”“That’s not a good idea,” she says. “And Remo isn’t here.”“I can wait,” I answer undeterred by her words.She studies me. “You’re loo
HAZELI am an idiot.A stupid, stupid idiot.Whàt was I thinking?What the hell was I expecting? That Axel was magically gonna change just because we slept together? That he was gonna..... I don’t know, spoil me? Take care of me after? Say sweet nothings into my ear? Whisper that he loved me?Gosh







