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A LITTLE DESPERATE

Author: Kairal.K
last update Last Updated: 2025-01-28 23:27:44

ARI

I am a ghost, fleeting through lives and not even living. I get told to go this way, I do. When I am told to jump, I do.

The only color and life that is in my life is the fact that I will be done with this life when I graduate. I thought it would be when I turned eighteen but no. That came with being told I had to mingle and be like the rest of the kids. Be like the legacies.

The owner of the life I am living.

Owners. That’s how I feel about them. Nothing in this life is mine. I don’t feel like I belong. I don’t wish to. I lost my home, I lost myself and right now I am only going through the motions.

Sure, I act and show my mother that I am normal. I put on a fucking smile when I need to, and I laugh and tell a joke when it is needed. All for her not to look at me too closely. Not to question my character because then she might see me. The real me.

Then she will see the real daughter she has.

Dead. Hollow. An empty shell grasping at life even though I am failing to hold on.

I find
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