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I AM BLUBBERING BUT I MEAN EVERYTHING
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Now I am his mate, then I will be his crowned wife, then I will be told to perform this and that for him, for the pack, for the kingdom.
None of that for me. All will be stripped of who I am, what is mine, and be dressed in what is his. Be in servitude for the rest of my life, and for what? Love? I don’t believe in love.
I never grew up in love long enough to believe in it, long enough to let it impact me in a way that, by believing, if I stay by Zade’s side, all will be okay. I am jaded, messy, and broken.
He got mated to a disaster, and he knows it. He doesn’t even know what he wants for himself, but he has the privilege of that being thought for him.
I might have misjudged him in the past as this cruel, mindless prince that is spoiled and such, but I wasn’t far off.
But despite it all, I know that I have no future with zade. I can’t tell him that though, and it hurts somewhere I my chest to think I will h
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