When the morning comes I have forgotten where I am. Nothing looks familiar to me and it isn't until my consciousness fully returns that the events of yesterday start flooding back into my mind. Left home...new pack...slept in Samuel's room.Samuel.He isn't here. The room is empty and the couch that served as his bed is made up and utterly untouched. It is as if he hasn't even spent the night here at all. I have to think back to yesterday just to be sure I haven't imagined him being here.I glance at the clock on the bedside table and yawn. Nine-thirty a.m. it reads. It isn't much different than time I normally wake up in the mornings at home.I slide myself to the side of the bed and push myself off with ease. My feet meet the blue carpet I had admired yesterday.I quickly make my way to the bathroom to use it, before my bladder bursts, then attempt to clean myself up in front of the mirror before anyone catches sight of my ghastly appearance. My hair is in every direction on top of m
The pack territory is even bigger than I had imagined. What Samuel had referred to as a small housing community for the pack in the woods, is no small community at all. It is quite large; almost the size of our pack village, just slightly smaller. Samuel's pack still outnumbers them by double nonetheless.The houses are nice. The community is a close knit neighborhood. Though the houses are on the smaller side they make up for it in beauty. Side by side, the houses are lined up next to each other, not very far apart.Kids play outside while several adults and wolves roam the land. Most of them seem to just be keeping an eye on things. Some of the familiar faces I met last night stare back at me with smiles, all of them bowing their heads in respect. It surprises me that they are already treating me like Samuel's mate even when we have not yet made a step in the mating direction yet."Welcome back to the territory, Alpha," one of the men says."Yes, it's been too long," another person
I don't sleep well. I try to suppress the memories deep in my subconscious but they resurface over night and the dull wounds left from Logan's wake feel entirely too fresh for me.I scream and clutch my chest all night. My soul is being torn apart all over again as the vivid dream plays through my mind like a horror movie on repeat.Somewhere in my mind I think I know it is merely a dream, but I can not find my way back to reality. I am lost in my own mind with no one to bring me out of my suffering.He has rejected us, my wolf whispers. He has chosen another mate.My wolf whimpers at the new realization and I wish for anything that I can in some way console her, but I am just as broken as her. I feel weak and sick. I have to grab onto the counter just to keep my balance. Logan becomes concerned, but he doesn't move to help me."She's pregnant. Josephine is having our pups," he says.No.The pain inside me is more excruciating than I can convey. It feel as if something inside me has
You helped Samuel with this didn't you?" I ask him.He shoots me another sympathetic look before standing from the bed and answering me. "Yes and one other couple. Your situation is very rare; there are very few people who take on other mates. Unfortunately, it happens though. It's more common in wolves that have lost their mate to some unfortunate circumstance, like a war or illness. That is if they survive the loss.""You know someone else who has gone through it though," I state. "Yes, there is a couple in the pack who lost their mates and the dreams were the same. The only difference is, they would feel the pain of their mate's death all over again, instead of a rejection."I sit silently. I suppose that is much worse than a rejection. Though a rejection is much like death. You still grieve the same way. You grieve for the loss off your mate. However, I wasn't mated to Logan. That would have destroyed me completely. I doubt I would have survived it."They were able to overcome it
Once again Samuel and I find ourselves inside the big city that we stopped in on the way to his territory. I am doing my best to adjust to it, but like before, I feel like I stick out- and not in a good way.The restaurant we are in this time is not like the one we were before. This one is nicer and better yet, it is Italian- my favorite. I ask for the spaghetti.After we have eaten our meals we sit at the table making light conversation over dessert, which is almost finished off now.I find it surprising how easy it is to talk to him sometimes. When we aren't worried about things like our rejections or the mating, we fall into conversations effortlessly. It is really nice. Samuel even seems to be quite laid back and carefree tonight which is something I haven't seen in a while. It is very unexpected after how Alpha he went on me today. I'm just glad he has more to him than just his job.Even now, we sit in the nearly empty restaurant laughing our heads off at a story he is telling me
Even with so little effort to get ready this early in the morning Samuel can still look so good, like some kind of model or Greek God, with sculpted figures. Life isn't as fair to me.He is watching Dominic and Dylan with a carefully trained expression. I can tell by their reactions something is wrong. Dylan must have mind linked him and told him what was going on seeing as their expressions all mirror each other. I let the blanket fall to the bed when I take his hand and stand up with him. He places his hand around my waist protectively and walks me to the door.Dylan and Dominic respectively move out of our way and start down the hallway just ahead of us. From what I can tell, almost everyone is still in bed except for the few early risers, and some of the pack fighters that have been on boarder control overnight.They bow their heads at us respectively as we pass by them.I grow even more confused when the group traveling with us leads us outside. Kyle is now with us as well, and B
“And this is my room," I tell James as we come to the end of our tour. "Well, it will be when I fix it up," I correct myself.I push open the white door and flip the light switch on then take a look around. I have only ever been in this room one other time, so I am still getting used to it. It is definitely not as grand as Samuel's room, but it is still very nice and it's going to suit me perfectly. Everything is white and wood colored.Tomorrow I'll have Samuel take me into town and pick up some paint for it. I think it will look beautiful with half purple and half white walls with a thin border separating them. I can practically envision the whole thing."It's nice, I guess; for a girls room anyway," James says, looking around."Well I guess it's a good thing you don't have to live in it then," I laugh, slapping his shoulder teasingly.He walks further into the room and looks around before plopping down in the pale pink chair in front of the window. He kicks his feet up on the bed n
Kyle and Luka seem more than happy to accompany us into town. Today Kyle is being his usual funny, laid back self and it is a refreshing change from the past couple of days. I liked the funny Kyle much better than a serious Kyle.After an hour of torturing the guys with girly songs on the radio that Laura and I have chosen to listen to, we finally arrive at town.We all pile out of the vehicle one by one and make our way into the huge store. I already feel lost and I haven't even began looking for what I need. Kyle sees my overwhelmed look and offers to lead the way. Thankfully he knows his way around much better than I do.In my town we only had a small hardware store off Main Street and the selection there was very limited. Anything that wasn't used on an everyday basis had to be specially ordered. It took days or sometimes weeks to get what you needed. Being in a big city like this one really makes me realize how limited my hometown was.Here, I am like a fish out of water. This is