LOGINNolan’s POV"Fuck me, Nolan," she demanded, wrapping legs around me, her heels digging into the small of my back like spurs urging a horse to gallop. Her voice was breathy, edged with that practiced seduction that came too easy in places like this—hot, anonymous, no room for the messy truths that clawed at you later. Mia's thighs were smooth, toned from whatever gym routine she bragged about earlier, but they weren't the right ones. Not soft and yielding in that way that made my blood roar, not marked with the faint freckles Clara had along her inner thighs, the ones I'd map with my tongue on lazy mornings, tasting salt and her until she begged for mercy.I grabbed a condom from my wallet—always prepared, even if this felt like betrayal—and sheathed myself with shaking hands, the latex cool and constricting against the heat throbbing in my veins. Whiskey made everything sharper, the edges of sensation amplified: the scrape of her nails on my shoulders, the hitch in her breath as I pos
Nolan’s POVThe bass thumped through my chest like a second heartbeat, vibrating the sticky floor of the club and rattling the half-empty glass in my hand. Neon lights sliced through the haze of smoke and sweat, casting everyone in jagged, unnatural hues—purples and blues that made faces look like masks, hiding whatever bullshit they were running from. I leaned against the bar, the wood slick under my elbows from spilled drinks, the air thick with the sharp tang of liquor, cheap perfume, and bodies grinding too close. It was the kind of place where people came to forget, to drown in noise and numbness, and tonight, that's exactly what I needed. Clara's ghost clung to me like a bad habit, her scent, her laugh, her touch—fuck, especially her touch—haunting every quiet moment. So I chased the loud ones, the chaotic ones, where thoughts couldn't catch up.I knocked back the rest of my whiskey, the burn sliding down my throat like fire, settling in my gut with a warmth that almost tricked
Clara’s POVI sank onto the edge of the bed, the mattress sighing under my weight like it already knew my secrets—thin and slightly lumpy, with springs that creaked faintly, protesting the intrusion of a new body into its space. The sheets were crisp and starched, smelling faintly of industrial detergent that stung my nostrils, nothing like the soft, worn cotton back home that carried the mingled scents of Nolan's skin and my lavender body wash. My fingers curled into the blanket, gripping it as if it could tether me to something solid, something familiar amid the vertigo of displacement. The wool scratched against my palms, rough and grounding, but it wasn't enough to stop the room from spinning in my mind. It felt too quiet—an unfamiliar, echoing silence that pressed against my ears like cotton wool, broken only by the distant murmur of voices from the courtyard below and the occasional honk of a scooter on the narrow cobblestone street outside. Back home, silence had never lasted.
Clara’s POVThe flight attendant’s voice cut gently through the cabin, announcing cruising altitude in a tone that suggested comfort, routine—safety. I hated it. Nothing about this felt safe. The hum of the engines was a constant drone, vibrating through the seat and into my bones, a mechanical lullaby that did nothing to quiet the storm in my head. I kept my forehead pressed to the window until the cold numbed my skin, staring down at the endless sea of clouds below, white and fluffy like whipped cream on a dessert I no longer had an appetite for. They looked so soft, so inviting, but I knew better—up here, they were just vapor, insubstantial and fleeting. Kind of like the future I'd just thrown away.Somewhere below, buried under that fluffy deception, the life I knew kept breathing without me. Somewhere below, Nolan was waking up to a morning without my body curled against his back, without my hair tickling his chin, without the quiet ritual of coffee we never skipped—no matter how
Clara’s POVGoodbye.The word didn’t sound real when it left his mouth.It didn’t land. It didn’t echo.It haunted.It followed Nolan out the door like a ghost with unfinished business, clinging to the walls, the air, the cracked floorboards of the apartment we’d called home for less than a year and somehow forever. The door closed softly behind him—no slam this time, no rage. Just finality.The lock clicked.That sound broke something in me.I stood there long after his footsteps faded down the hall, arms wrapped tightly around myself, fingers digging into my sleeves as if I could physically hold my heart in place. My chest burned, hollow and tight at the same time, like something vital had been ripped out but left bleeding.“Don’t,” I whispered to no one.Don’t leave like that.Don’t mean it.But he already had.The apartment felt wrong without him. Too quiet. Too still. The refrigerator hummed loudly, obnoxiously, like it didn’t understand what had just happened. Nolan’s jacket sti
Clara’s POVThe dreams twisted like vines in the dark, choking me with visions of Nolan’s face—his eyes pleading, then hardening into accusation as he walked away again and again. In one, we were back in the mansion, the night of the discovery, but this time he didn’t fight; he just turned his back, disappearing into the shadows while Mom and Dad laughed, their voices echoing like thunder. I woke gasping, tangled in the sheets, the room pitch black except for the faint glow of streetlights seeping through the blinds. My phone read 3:17 a.m., the screen a harsh reminder of the world marching on without us. No messages from him. The silence was a void, sucking me in, making the apartment feel vast and empty despite its cramped size.I sat up, rubbing my eyes, the dried tears cracking on my skin like old paint. The pillow still held his shape, a dent where his head had rested that morning, and I traced it with my fingers, a futile attempt to summon him back. How had it come to this? Two







