I watched the waiter as he served me the food that I ordered.
"Enjoy your meal, Miss," he said and bowed. I just let out a slight smile at him.That substitute teacher of ours made me hungry so I'm gonna take my lunch here at a Chinese restaurant down the school alley. My tongue craves for xiaolongbao, some mooncakes, and green tea. I'm not Chinese or what. I began loving those dishes because of being a Chinese drama fan, especially with their historical dramas.Also, the food that our cafeteria offers makes me a little bit unhappy. I want to eat a fresh one. I'm so sick of some food processed every day at school.I picked out the pocketbook in my backpack because I wanna read while devouring these dishes. The ambiance of the restau is quite relieving with the composure of performers who are currently playing the traditional instruments of China.Seeing the couples around me somehow made me bitter. They're in their own world when they kiss, hug, smile, and feed each other. On the other hand, I'm the only one who doesn't have any acquaintances or what but I really don't give a damn about it as long as I get full.My phone vibrated and saw the notification that Aisie texted me so bedor to it, I sip on my tea and read her message.Aisie: Where are you?I put down the phone. Well, if I told her I'm eating in a Chinese diner, she would not be pleased by it. That girl doesn't appreciate anything about Chinese because her last boyfriend is Chinese, and a manipulative bastard.Glancing at the pocketbook I have while eating is kinda tough. It's either I'll keep reading or concentrate on eating, so I decided to put it back in my bag. I'll read it later when I get home.So we have two more subjects to go; science and literature before the day's classes ended.Classes start at two. I glanced at my wristwatch to check the time; it was already 12:30 PM. As soon as I finished my meal, I fixed myself and left the restaurant. I have 30 minutes left before the classes start so I started to walk. It's a good thing that our campus is near to coffee shops, restaurants, and fast food. There's nothing to worry about commuting or calling our driver.As I reached the main building, the hallway greeted me with disturbance and whispers. We still have 15 minutes, yet the students are still everywhere."Hi, Lushiane!"I turned my back just to see Halieyah, the queen bee. She's already in senior year, probably a batch mate of the sub earlier. As usual, her hair is fixed in two braids, she even wears thick cosmetics on her face. I often contend with her at sports, let's say tennis, but she never beats me. Her eyes screamed of disliking me, but here she is, entertaining me as if we were best buddies.Girls like her only approach someone if they want to discover something that will tarnish one's existence. But sad to say, I don't interact with the person whom I hate the most.Consuming my time and effort to befriend someone against my will isn't worth it. Why bother if all of this is just synthetic?The annoyance is written all over her face as I pass to her. Her minions even came out of nowhere simply to stop her from pulling my hair. Well, it's fine for me if she initiated a war, I know some karate moves."Lushiane!"Another species called me. Why do they even know my name? I took a deep breath and darted my eyes at the guy who called me. His name is Drailen, and a year older than me. He always tries to pursue me. However, he doesn't have any effect on me so I refused him, and dating isn't in my vocabulary. I don't have time for some cheesy temporary relationships.And I know Drailen very well. He's not the serious type of person, he's a playboy. And concluding about it, maybe I became their prey in their gambling game."Flower for you, Madame. The sun shines radiantly when you and I get together. Isn't it amazing?" he arrogantly proclaimed and gave me a red rose."It is not. So stop pestering me, Mister. I don't have any time for this stupid stuff of yours. If you'll excuse me, I have a class to attend to."He just scratched his nape and gave way to me."But, Lushiane, can you just accept—""I said no."He's handsome but I always see him as having an ordinary complexion. However, if I'm with Aisie right now, she'll surely get into this man, Drailen is one of her crushes tho.Before heading to the class, I held the straps of the bag and turned the way to the comfort room. I forgot to pee before leaving the restaurant earlier."Girls, Xalent is gonna perform later. Should we skip our class?""We have a test, Melanie.""Aww. That's sad.""Besides, we'll not be able to enter. They put barricades in the field, no ID no entry. And even if we have, we can't pass it because we're not seniors."My brows furrowed to the little chitchats I heard outside the cubicle. Who are they talking about?I flashed the toilet and fixed myself before going to the classroom. The girls who are talking about someone are still there, making up their minds.If I were them, I'd go back to the class and take the test.As I entered the room, it was noisy. Chatters in every corner of the room while some are taking a nap or reading some kind of pocketbook. I slumped on my chair and realized that my friend isn't here.Where is she? The class is about to start. Don't tell me she's in the college building again, chasing some guy? Her openness affects my innocence.I took out my phone and plugged in my earphones to listen to my favorite playlist while waiting for our teacher. Time seems so fast, and next week will be our semester's break. I'm excited to spend my whole week sleeping. Or maybe go to Manhattan and hang around at Aunt Adleyie's house. My cousin Deylia can drag me out of everywhere, she's a cool one.However, Deylia is truly a partygoer compared to me because I spend my time reading books.My thoughts got interrupted when someone pulled my earphones. Irritated, I glanced at my friend who had this excitement written all over her face.Confirmed. The sightseeing she did was look for hotties."What?"She nips my arm which makes me groan a little. "Oh my goodness!" Her high-pitched voice caught the attention of everyone in the room.Aisie has gone mad! Just what happened when I left? She seemed possessed by something."Xa—" she didn't finish her words when the teacher entered the room with a stoic expression and greeted her the same way we greeted her.In the middle of the discussion, Aisie kicked my foot under the desk. I squinted my eyes at her to warn her. What's happening with this girl? She didn't stop disturbing me, either she kept on stepping on my foot or poking my waist."Xalent," she whispered, not minding my hand on her waist, squeezing it tightly.My brows furrowed. "The who?"I blinked several times because of the closeness of our faces. I can even smell his manly perfume, which I seemingly thought he had bathed himself in the perfume because of the fragrance."Ehem." In an instant, I was estranged from Xalent because of my good friend. Goodness!"I-I'm sorry," I said, and I didn't know if I was going to walk or not, as if I was glued to where I stood because of his presence. Shit!He smiled and held out his hand. "May I?"I just reached out his hand, and he hung my hand on his arm. I can still see Aisie on the side, smiling like a fool. Furthermore, I, on the other hand, was anxious because of the impulsive beats of my heart, as if I was going to have a heart attack because of the extreme nervousness I was feeling.Shit! Am I doing it right? Maybe, I look like a fool.When we entered, I was amazed at how well they designed the ve
The next day, I informed dad that I'm going to sleep here at Aisie's house. I also sent him a message that I will spend the night later because there was an event at school, and I am glad that he still let me to, even if I make him disappointed because of my actions. I thought daddy wouldn't reply to me but he replied, saying 'take care' and 'I love you'. I just smiled and realized that he still cares for me even though I did that, I lost my respect for her.I woke up at ten o'clock and the gown was delivered here at Aisie's house, exactly nine o'clock, she said. That girl is full of positivity and always thinking that she might be the chosen Mrs. Claus and maybe Mr. Claus is said to be her lifetime partner. I just rolled my eyes because of her exaggeration.Aisie's imagination is really something.I’m also grateful to be here with Aisie. She knew I had a problem and she had witnessed my destruction yesterday, but
"Are you ready?" Daddy asked when we got in the car.I don't know if I'm ready, I don’t know if I will be able to smile at my mom thinking about the pain she caused leaving us. I don't know... If I could."I think so..." I just looked out the window when the car commenced.Today, we are going to meet my mom. And dad still wants me to talk to mommy, like the old times mommy is my favorite to talk to, the one who I want to sleep next to, and the one who I want to be informed about my dilemmas. My favorite person in my whole life, but she's the first one who broke my heart. The one who left me just to be with the other family.Sometimes I thought that she didn't like me so she left and looked for someone else. Sometimes I also doubt her love. If she really loved me, me, and daddy, or did she really consider me a child. Lots of questions, but I don’t know if I’ll get the right answers.
The next day, Aisie came to me early and reminded me that we were leaving at three o'clock to the shop of a well-known designer of gowns. I was sleepy when she arrived here at six in the morning, and she really disturbed sleep. I didn't want to face her, but she sprinkled water in my face that makes me so irritated that is why I just woke up even though I wanted to hit her with my lampshade.She said that she was tired of waiting for the time at their house, and she didn't have anyone to talk to there so she just decided to come here. I just rolled my eyes because of what she was saying, she just didn't want to admit that she's too excited.I bring her out of my room and told her to just wait in the living room because I was going to take a bath and she had nothing else to do in my room. It's better that she's just downstairs and watched, she's also used to it, sometimes she doesn't get my permission for her to watch Netflix downstairs.
Today is Friday and I didn’t come out of the classroom yesterday even though I was so hungry, I endured everything just so I couldn’t see him and couldn’t remember again the embarrassment that happened because of my shameless post. But now... Now I won't hide anymore.Why should I hide? And who am I hiding from? I shook my head because of my question that seemed like I was just fooling myself.Aisie teased me yesterday because of my post and what Xalent said and I'm really irritated, I don't know if it's because I'm just annoyed or embarrassed, maybe it's the same. I was about to hit Aisie in the face with my bag so that she stopped talking, and will regain back myself. Also, I didn't felt the presence of Xalent yesterday so it was really good, I was able to breathe easily because of it.But one of my concerns is the upcoming Sunday because I will finally meet again my mom, but can I do it? Maybe, when
"What do you want?" I asked and withdrew my elbow he was holding.Even though I look calm, I still can't change the fact that I'm feeling so nervous right now. It was as if my heart was the only thing I could hear at these moments. You are giving me the highest intensity of yourself, Xalent. I'm going crazy because of you and I don't know how to regain myself back from being a normal being.He licked his lips. "You," he said and leaned over to my side."You're kidding me, right?"Instead of answering, he just kept his eyes on nothingness, looking so serious, but when I started to walk, he followed. I heave a sigh at what he did because I could not understand him. He was so vague and seemed like he was just playing with me because of what he was doing."Look... I'm sorry.""Huh? Why are you apologizing to me?" I gripped the strap of my bag tightly. "Than