I sat in my spacious office, behind my desk with my head buried in my hands. This was one hell of a cluster fuck situation.
That night that I had gone to the party, I thought that it would be for my own good. After my divorce, I had barely any time to have fun or be happy. When I received a letter from Heldon college requesting that I replace Timothy Harper as the Archeology professor I felt this was a chance for me to start over. New life, new job, new chapter. Then Alex came around. He was a highly attractive young man and I loved how he was straight forward. He wanted me to fuck him and I did. A one night stand that left me craving his presence the minute I woke up. I had accepted it as what it was. An amazing night that was going to remain in a locked off part of my memory. How was I supposed to know that when I got ready and came to introduce myself to my new students that he’d be right there in the middle row staring at me with those eyes of his. He looked just as shocked as I was. Even if I did my best to play it cool and act like I didn’t recognize him. Even with my back turned I could feel his eyes on me. I won’t lie, I stared at him subtly a few times. I had to stop when I saw him smile at the boy next to him. I hated that. I shook my head. I didn’t want to be thinking of how attractive he was when I was supposed to be more concerned about this ever getting out. But then again, Did I have to be worried? He wasn’t going to go around saying something like that when it would get us both in trouble right? I sighed. This is a mess. While I was still remembering how my first day on the job had played out, I heard a knock on my office door. It dragged me out of my thoughts. “Come in” I said and the door opened slowly and a short man with receding hair peeped in. He smiled at me and asked. “I hope that I’m not interrupting anything?” I shook my head. Even if he was, it was a welcome interruption. “No, not at all,” I waved him in, “Come inside” The man walked in, his smile unwavering and he shut the door behind him. Mr Mathew Cullim. He was one of the few staff that had welcomed me warmly to Heldon. He was roughly around his mid fifties, with a friendly demeanor and welcoming presence. Unlike some of my colleagues who saw their fellow colleagues as competition or a means to climb a social ladder, Mathew was a genuine individual. He was the Physics professor and always had a joke to tell and from what I heard, a prank to play as well. “How are you doing, young man? Settling in properly?” He asked as he shook my outstretched hand. “I’m doing my best, Sir,” I replied and gestured to a seat, “If you’d please” He let out a hearty chuckle. “Don’t mind if I do” He said and sat down, “Did you know that this seat is made of pure, Italian leather” I wasn’t surprised. Heldon college had a reputation to uphold. “Is that right?” “It is. Only the best for our staff” “You’d think that the staff would smile a little bit more with all the effort that goes into pleasing then” Mathew smiled and shook his head. “A lot of the teachers here are new like yourself and under a lot of pressure to perform. From their employers, older colleagues and even more, the parents” “You don’t seem like the type to place pressure on anyone, Mr Cullim” I said “I know a few students that would strongly disagree” “Well, I think you’re a nice guy” “Thank you, Son” “I’ve been meaning to ask, Mr Cullim” “Mathew is just fine” “Are you sure?” I wasn’t used to addressing older folks by their first names except I didn’t like them. “Of course” “Okay then, Mathew. I wanted to find out what happened to the old professor” “The one you replaced?” “Mr Harper. I was told to say that he was unavailable if the students asked but I never really heard the true story. Was he fired?” Mathew sighed and leaned back on the seat. His expression taking on a more somber form. “It is quite a pathetic story to be honest” Mathew began and I leaned forward, my curiosity piqued. “What did happen?” “Apparently, his youngest child had returned from the army. His name was Daniel and I had the chance to meet him a few years ago and he was a good lad” “Is he alright?” “Daniel?” Mathew asked “Yes” I replied “The poor boy had a mental breakdown and set himself on fire” I gasped at the horrific news. I had never heard of anyone setting themselves on fire. To inflict that level of unimaginable pain on oneself had to come from a place of mental instability. “That’s horrible” Mathew nodded slowly. His eyes showed that he was equally upset about the situation. “Harper felt guilty about the situation. He believed that if he had paid attention to his little boy then maybe this wouldn’t have happened” “Did Daniel die in the fire?” “No. But the state that he is in sometimes makes me wish that he had died,” he shook his head and sighed, “The poor child” “That’s why Harper left?” “He quit the very next day. He doesn’t know if his child will live too long and wants to be by his corner to the very end. Whenever it may come” “You sound like you cared for Harper and his family” “Harper was a good man. A much better teacher and if anyone should have gone through something like that, it shouldn’t have been him” “I’m truly sorry about what happened.” “That’s fine, Son. A man can’t pick what kind of battles that life sends his way” “True,” I looked around the office, “If Mr Harper is even half the man that you make him out to be then I’m afraid that I have quite the shoes to fill” Mathew laughed and tapped my hand to offer reassurance. “Nothing to be worried about, Kid. You just do your job and stay out of trouble especially with these young women here at Heldon. Rumor has it that you have gained quite a number of admirers” I smiled and looked away. A part of me whispered that I hoped Alex was part of the people who admired me. “I’ll do my best to be of good behavior” Mathew nodded and got to his feet. “Well then,” He began, “ I best be on my way” I rose to my feet as well and shook his hand. “Thank you so much for stopping by, Sir” “Don’t worry about it. I will make sure to keep checking in on you until you’re fully settled” “I truly appreciate it, Sir. Sorry, I mean, Mathew” He laughed and tapped my shoulder once. “Anytime, Kid” I watched as Mathew left the office and shut the door. I sighed and fell back on my seat. This job was starting to look like a lot of work.The door flung open after the third knock and Rita was standing at her dorm door step wearing a large nightgown that looked like something out of an old movie. “You look stunning” I said and she sighed, rolling her eyes at my obvious sarcasm. “Boy, don’t start” “What? Someone has to tease you” “Now that Nico isn’t going to huh?” I sighed. She looked so unhappy and it hurt. The entire situation was weird and was hurting both my friends. Nico was not willing to let me in and help out but I was hoping that Rita would be more open and receptive. “Can I come in?” I reached into the bag that i held in my left hand and pulled out a bottle of brandy that I made Collin buy and a bag of weed, “I come bearing gifts” She chuckled and shook her head. Usually she was the plug of the group but I didn’t mind switching roles for the mean time. “How did you manage to find weed, Alex?” Her voice sounded lighter albeit still sad. I shrugged. “I have my ways and a magician never rev
The first thing that I felt was the warmth. Not the one from the expensive, wool blanket, but from the heat of his body. I cracked my eyes open, the rays of the morning sun and the blur of a strong arm and a handsome face was the first thing I saw. Toby snuggled closer, he was still fast asleep, his dark hair, which was usually was silk and laid back was a mess on the silk pillow, a faint smile playing on his lips.He looked so adorable and I smiled as he pulled me in and buried his face in my neck. I remembered the previous night. We had talked so much over wine that I didn't even remember when I fell asleep.I shifted slightly, trying to get a better look at him. He looked a lot different than I was used to. He looked so much more natural and it was nice to see. It felt like I was staring at the real Toby."Morning, sleepyhead," he mumbled, his voice rough and sexy, "How long have you been looking at me""Morning," I replied, my voice a little breathless. "How can I tell?""Cause
The Bentley glided to a stop, outside one of the highest ranking boutiques in the state. Toby had asked me to clear out my schedule that weekend because he wanted to take me somewhere nice. I sank into the plush leather seat of the car, the relaxing feel enveloping me. It was like being cradled in a very expensive, very soft cloud. Toby sat beside me, his eyes glued to his phone even though he did look up a few times to smile at me. He looked as handsome as ever.He was dressed in very casual yet expensive attire. “We’re here, Master Toby” the chauffeur announced. Toby turned to me, his smile radiating warmth. "Ready to help me spend my money, darling?" I managed a small laugh. It felt nice to laugh for the first time today. I had been under the weather a lot lately. I really liked Toby but I hated that being with him meant that I had to sacrifice my friendship with Nico. Three missed calls. Five unread texts. I had heard absolutely nothing from Nico. I pushed th
“Hey” I peeked my head into Nico’s room. He had moved out of my room back to his and according to him he just needed some time alone. He still had not opened up about what happened with Rita but I knew that was the reason. He most likely wanted to cry without any interference. Nico was sprawled on his bed, face buried in a textbook; literally. He placed the textbook on his face and lay unmoving, My friend was definitely depressed. I wish that he would let me in. "Hey, man," He replied without moving. I walked into the room, my shoes almost sinking into the overpriced carpet. “I haven’t seen my buddy in a few and you haven’t come to bug me in a minute,” I began trying to keep my voice casual. "How's it going?" He didn't move or take the book off his face but replied. "Fine." "Just...fine?" I pressed, sitting on the edge of his bed "It’s just that I’ve been really worried about you” “I just told you I was fine” I sighed. I might as well just spill the beans. “Rita told
The lecture had ended, but I lingered behind as I usually did. To everyone else, I was putting a few things in order but that was just a facade. Hiding under the pretense of tidying my notes I used the chance as an excuse to watch him. Alex. I had my eyes on him the entire time during class and sometimes I had to pause and write on the board whenever I felt his eyes on me. I had never been so immersed in another human being the way that I was with Alex. He was gorgeous and so smart. He moved with an effortless grace that made my breath hitch. He had such a beautiful smile that made his eyes sparkle. Even if I knew that I only did it out of fear of the being exposed and punished for sleeping with a student, I still mentally kicked myself for telling him to forget about happened between us. I watched him say hello to a few of his peers a smile playing on his lips before walking out with Nico, his friend. Even if I was aware of their platonic relationship my chest still
I sat in Professor Tristan’s archeology class, surrounded by the hum of students chatting in low voices, flipping pages, carefully texting and stressing over our upcoming midterms. Today, Tristan was diving into the intricacies of ceramic analysis and how it made up a crucial aspect of understanding ancient cultures. Professor Tristan spoke in his usual loud, commanding and passionate voice. He was always this way when it came to teaching. On a regular day he appeared very passive and lacking in emotion. It made him very desirable yet highly unapproachable. The only time to catch him with passion in his voice and eyes was when you were around to hear him speak on a subject that he liked. Whether it was the way he spoke about it or his body language, I found his passion for the subject was contagious. As usual, I found myself captivated by his enthusiasm. But then again, I had always been captivated by him. It didn’t matter how much I tried to push him out of my mind, h
“That must have really broken their hearts” I said with a smile as the three girls that had approached Collin walked away. “Serves them right,” Alex said folding his hands, “They didn’t even say hi to the both of us. How rude can a bitch get” “You sure that’s why you’re upset, Alex?” I asked with a mischievous smile on my face. He frowned and scoffed. “What? You think I’m jealous?” He asked. “I mean, they were flirting with your baby boo” I replied. “I’m not jealous” “I don’t mind if you’re jealous,” Collin placed his arm around Alex’s shoulder, “I think it’s kinda cute” Alex blushed and slapped Collin’s arm. I won’t lie it was really sweet to see. I glad to finally see my friend so happy and in love. I was glad to see the way that Collin looked at him, talked to him, smiled at him. It made it ten times better that he was a huge upgrade from Julius. A loud bang on the table startled all three of us. I looked up to see two of Collin’s pals. Larry Myers and Har
“I’ll be at the cafeteria later. Nico and Rita will be there waiting” I smiled at the text from Alex that popped up on my screen. He had spent Friday night and the whole of Saturday with me. It felt like heaven when I had him next to me, my arms wrapped around his small frame. His smile was so bright and infectious. Every kiss, every touch, every laugh was pure bliss. When he went back to his dorm earlier this morning I wanted him back. He was so addictive and I wondered what Julius was thinking when he called their relationship off. Lucky me I guess. “Okay then,” I replied, “I miss you already” “Lol. Come get me then” That was all that I needed to hear, I leaped off my bed, took a quick shower and began jogging to the cafeteria. I almost laughed at how I was half running to go meet Alex. I was no playboy but I had not exactly been with anyone that made me excited to be around them. Nico was on his way out when I had arrived, he looked upset. “Hey, Nico” He smi
I ran into the somewhat noisy cafeteria; one of my friends and I’s favorite hangout spot at Heldon. I spotted Rita seated at our usual spot when our eyes met she smiled and waved me over. “Hey Riri” I said as I settled into the booth, grinning from ear to ear, and dropped my bag onto the floor. The soft thud of the bag hitting the floor was a familiar sound, one that announced the start of a relaxed morning with friends. Nico arrived a few seconds after I had and settled into the booth of the cafeteria next to me. It was a bit odd that he didn’t sit next to Rita like he usually would but I didn’t think too much of it. “Hey, Nico” I said. “Hey man,” he replied, his tone low and perhaps tired, “You look like you’re in a good mood” I sighed dreamily. “I really am” “Was it really that good?” Rita asked and I nodded. “It really was” I replied. I noticed that Nico had not said a word to Rita since he arrived but before I could draw any attention to it, Nico said. “Y