Masuk
CHAPTER ONE
RAIN’S POV I clocked eighteen two years ago. That should have felt like freedom. Instead, it felt like being shoved out of a moving car and told to land gracefully. I had officially left the orphanage then, because that was the rule. Eighteen and out. No matter that I had been dumped there when I was two years old with nothing but a faded blanket and a name nobody bothered to explain. No matter that the orphanage had been the only place I knew, even when it was hard, even when it was lonely, even when it taught me early that nobody was coming to save me. I thought surviving on my own would be easier than staying where I was never really wanted. I was wrong. It had been hell. Real hell. The kind where you smile through hunger because crying burns too much energy. The kind where bills stare at you like insults. The kind where you stand outside food shops pretending you are just thinking when really you are calculating whether bread is more important than soap. I had promised myself that once I left the orphanage, I would start college. That promise had laughed in my face for two straight years. I couldn’t even properly feed myself, let alone pay school fees. By last Friday, I had broken. I called Matron Celestine. The only person in this world who had ever looked at me like I was not some extra body taking up space. She picked on the third ring. “Rain?” The second I heard her voice, I burst into tears. “Matron,” I choked out. “I’m tired.” There was a pause. “What happened?” “Everything,” I said, crying harder. “Everything is happening. I can’t keep up. I can’t pay rent, I can’t feed properly, I can’t even start school, and I know I said I would manage but I can’t. I really can’t.” She was quiet for a few seconds, and that almost made me cry more. Then she said, in that steady voice of hers, “Enough crying first.” I sniffed. “That is not helpful.” “It is,” she said. “You cannot solve anything while sounding like a broken tap.” Despite myself, I laughed through the tears. “That’s better,” she said. “Now listen to me, child. Let me see what I can do.” “I’m suffocating, Matron.” “I heard you the first time.” “I’m serious.” “And I am serious too. I will get back to you.” She ended the call after making me promise to eat something, and I had stared at my phone for a long time after that, feeling stupid for crying and even more stupid for hoping. Then she got back to me. I was in my tiny room when the message came in. I read it once. Then twice. Then a third time because surely my eyes had lost their minds. *Rain, I hope this message finds you well. I’m texting to inform you that the Lord in his infinite mercy has heard your prayers. A good samaritan has agreed to be your legal guardian and take care of every of your needs, including your college f*e. Once you see this message, pack your things and come over and prepare to move in with him.* I just stared. Then I cried. Not cute tears either. Ugly, shaking, grateful tears. I pressed my rosary to my lips over and over, kissing it, whispering, “Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus.” For once in my life, something good had chosen me. I packed so fast I nearly broke the zipper on my duffel bag. By the time I got to the orphanage, my heart was beating so hard it made me feel lightheaded. Matron Celestine was waiting in her office. The moment I saw her, I nearly cried again. She adjusted her glasses and looked at me. “If you start wailing in this office, I will send you back outside.” I laughed and rushed to hug her anyway. She let out a soft grunt when my arms went around her. “You have become too big for these dramatic attacks.” “I missed you.” “You missed help,” she corrected. I pulled back with a grin. “That too.” Her mouth twitched, but I saw the affection there. I looked around the office I had entered a thousand times growing up. “So where is he?” “He had to leave after signing the legal guardian documents,” she said. “Important meeting.” I blinked. “He signed already?” “Yes.” “For me?” She gave me a look. “Do you know any other Rain in this room?” I sat down because my legs suddenly felt weak. “This is real.” “It is.” I swallowed hard. “What kind of man does this for someone he doesn’t know?” Her expression shifted slightly. “A man who made a promise.” “A promise?” “That is not your concern right now.” That made me frown. “Matron—” “The driver is on the way,” she said, clearly ending that line of conversation. I knew that tone. It meant stop pushing. So I did. Mostly. “Is he old?” I asked. She looked at me over her glasses. “Why?” “Because I need to know if I’m about to start taking care of someone’s grandfather.” That made her laugh properly. It startled me. Matron Celestine didn’t laugh like that often. “Go and sit properly,” she said. “You will know soon enough.” I leaned forward. “At least tell me if he’s nice.” She gave me one of those looks adults give when they know more than they want to say. “He is… complicated.” That made me nervous. “Complicated how?” “You ask too many questions.” “That means the answer is bad.” “It means,” she said firmly, “that you should be grateful.” I shut up after that. When the black SUV finally pulled in, my stomach flipped. This was really happening. I hugged Matron Celestine one last time before leaving, and this time she held me a little longer than usual. “Be careful with your heart,” she said quietly. I pulled back. “What does that mean?” She shook her head. “It means say your prayers, mind yourself, and stop asking me twenty questions per minute.” I smiled. “I’ll miss you too.” She touched my cheek briefly. “Go.” The driver took my duffel bag and opened the back door for me. During the ride, I kept rehearsing what I would say to this mysterious good man. Thank you for helping me. Thank you for not letting me drown. I will not be a burden. I can be useful. I can cook a little. Well, I can only boil rice and ramyeon but I can do my best in other delicacies. I clean very well. If you need company, I can talk. If you need quiet, I can disappear. In my head, he was old. Not weak, just old. Maybe lonely. Maybe rich and tired and kind in that distant way some people are when they’ve already lived enough life and want to do one decent thing before they die. Maybe he needed a child in the house. Maybe he wanted someone to care whether he had taken his medication. Maybe he simply had a good heart. Whatever it was, I was ready to be grateful for the rest of my life. The SUV drove through a massive estate, past gates that looked more expensive than any building I had ever slept in, and finally rolled to a stop in front of a huge mansion. I clutched my rosary so tightly it pressed into my palm. “Oh my God,” I whispered. The driver got out, took my duffel bag, and led me inside. The place was so grand it made me instantly aware of every cheap thing I owned. I tried not to look too overwhelmed. The driver gestured toward a seat. “Please sit. Mr Vale will be with you shortly.” Mr Vale. I nodded slowly. “Mr Vale.” The name sounded elegant. Powerful too. I sat down carefully and folded my hands in my lap so I wouldn’t start touching things that probably cost more than my entire existence. A few minutes passed. Then I heard it. A voice from the top of the stairs. Smooth. Deep. Controlled. “Has she arrived?” I got to my feet immediately. And froze. Because the man coming down the stairs was not old. Not even close. He looked like sin in a black shirt with the first five buttons undone, revealing ink over hard skin. His hair was slicked back. A pair of glasses sat low on his nose in the most unfair way I had ever seen in my life. He was beautiful. Not pretty. Not handsome. Dangerously, stupidly, devastatingly beautiful. The most deliciously-looking man I've ever seen. My mouth parted before I could stop it. “Wow,” I whispered.CHAPTER FIFTEENRAIN’S POVI went straight to my room after Evelyn showed up. My legs felt shaky the whole way up the stairs, and I didn’t even bother changing out of the mini skirt. I just crawled under the covers, and tried to shut my brain off. The image of Lucien’s thigh pressed against mine on that couch kept replaying, along with the low sound of his voice asking if there was someone I wanted to try the blindfold thing with. I squeezed my eyes shut tighter. Gideon was my boyfriend now. I had said yes in front of half the school. That should have made things simpler. It didn’t.Sleep took forever to come, but when it did, it was deep. I woke up crazy early, before the sun was even properly up. The house was still quiet. I figured I might as well do something useful instead of lying there overthinking everything. So I padded downstairs in my pajamas and started pulling things out for breakfast. Eggs, bacon, fresh fruit, the good coffee Lucien liked. I was cracking eggs into a bowl
CHAPTER FOURTEENRAIN’S POVAfter my first class ended, I slipped away to the library instead of heading straight to the cafeteria. My head was still buzzing from the lecture, but honestly, I just needed a quiet corner to breathe. I found my usual spot near the back, dropped my bag, and pulled out my sketchbook. Before I knew what I was doing, my pencil was moving across the page.Lucien. Shirtless. The way I remembered him from that night he carried me, muscles shifting under smooth skin, that tattoo peeking out. I shaded the lines of his shoulders, the dip of his waist. My cheeks heated up. God, what was wrong with me? He was my guardian. He was getting married. Or... not anymore, apparently. Still. This was dangerous.I was so lost in it that when a warm breath brushed my ear and a low voice whispered, “Drawing something interesting, Rain?” I nearly jumped out of my skin. My hand slapped the sketchbook shut so fast the pencil flew off the table.Gideon stood there, grinning like he
CHAPTER THIRTEEN RAIN’S POV Three days passed quietly. Thelma called the morning after everything and said she was staying with her maternal cousin for a bit. “I just need some fresh air and cousin time,” she told me. “Don’t worry, I’ll be back soon. Tell Uncle Lucien I said hi.” Lucien had left for a business trip two days ago. The house felt too big without them. I kept myself busy with schoolwork, but my mind kept drifting back to that hug, the way he called me “angel,” and how safe I felt in his arms even when I knew I shouldn’t. On the evening he was supposed to return, I decided to do something nice. I went into the kitchen and made his favorite — that grilled salmon with the lemon-herb sauce and roasted vegetables on the side. I set the dining table properly, lit two candles, opened a good bottle of red wine, and poured two glasses. Then I waited. At 8:15 pm, I heard his car pull into the driveway. My stomach did a little flip. I went to the door and opened it before
CHAPTER TWELVE RAIN’S POV Note: Rain does not recall any event from the kiss the previous night. I woke up with the worst headache of my life. My eyes cracked open slowly and I realized I wasn’t in my own bed. Green silk sheets. Lucien’s bed. I sat up fast, heart pounding. “How did I get here?” I whispered, looking around the empty room. “What the fuck happened last night?” I had zero memory after drinking that weird beer at the club. Everything was just… gone. I touched my head and groaned. I needed to get out of here before he came back. I slipped out of his oversized t-shirt, quickly went to my room, and took a long shower. The hot water helped my head a little. I threw on a simple white top and one of my favorite short flare skirts — the black one that swished when I walked. I brushed my hair, trying to look like a normal human being again. That’s when I started hearing raised voices downstairs. I walked out of my room and stood at the top of the stairs, listening.
CHAPTER ELEVENRAIN’S POV I cried myself to sleep that night, face buried in the pillow so no one would hear me. The tears wouldn’t stop. Lucien was getting married in five days and I had to hear it from Evelyn like some outsider. It hurt more than it should have.The next day I didn’t leave my room. I stayed in bed, staring at the ceiling, ignoring Thelma when she knocked.“Rain? You okay in there?” she called softly.“I’m fine. Just tired.”She left me alone after that.The day after, I finally came downstairs for breakfast. My eyes were puffy, but I tried to act normal. Thelma was already at the table scrolling on her phone. Helen was wiping the kitchen counter.“Morning, Thelma,” I said quietly.“Morning, babe.” She smiled. “You look like you need coffee.”Lucien walked in right then, dressed in a crisp white shirt with the sleeves rolled up. He looked unfairly good, as always.“Morning, Rain,” he said, voice low.I didn’t answer. I just sat down and reached for the toast.He tri
CHAPTER TENRAIN’S POV The next day at school dragged. By the time my third class ended, I was already tired and ready to go home. I stepped out of the building and froze when I saw Gideon’s car parked right in front. He got out quickly, looking nervous.“Rain, wait. Please.”I kept walking toward the gate without answering.He jogged after me. “I’m so sorry about last night. My nephew got really sick suddenly. I had to rush him to the hospital and my phone died. I couldn’t even text you. I felt terrible the whole time.”I stopped and turned around. He looked genuinely sorry, eyes wide and pleading.“You could’ve called from the hospital or something,” I said quietly.“I know. I messed up. Let me make it up to you. At least let me drive you home today?”I hesitated. Part of me wanted to stay mad, but another part was tired of being angry. “Fine. But don’t do that again.”He smiled in relief and opened the passenger door for me. “Thank you. I won’t.”The drive started quiet. Then he s







