LOGINSerena
The doors open, and I step into the room. The first thing I see is his broad back as he stands facing away from me.
He turns at the sound of the doors, and our eyes meet.
He's gorgeous. He's always been- dark hair falling to his shoulders, perfectly tousled. His jaw is strong and sharply defined, his nose straight, his features almost too perfectly sculpted. He is tall and broad-shouldered, and even beneath the immaculate tailoring of his clothes, there is no hiding the strength of his body.
He has always carried himself like this. With an effortless authority that makes people straighten their backs and lower their voices without even realizing it. The presence of a powerful Alpha filling the room before he has even spoken a word.
He is, without question, a beautiful man.
Once, I thought that beauty belonged to me.
How foolish I was.
In my previous life, he never came to see me that morning- I never gave him the chance. The moment I had woken up, I rushed to find him, barely caring how I looked and definitely without an ounce of care for what anyone else thought. All I cared about was that he had brought in another woman. I had gone mad with jealousy.
I’d thrown an inkwell at his head and made a huge scene. Not only did I attack the King but I’d even threatened to kill myself- and him- if he didn’t send the new Companion away. And then proceeded to publicly call the Viscount’s daughter words that no polite lady should utter.
He had been furious and had responded by ordering me confined to my palace for two months.
The humiliation had lasted far longer.
The servants had whispered about me. The courtiers had laughed. Even ministers who should have shown their Queen proper respect had sneered whenever they saw me. I was the shame of nobility. In days, word spread throughout the entire Kingdom. From then on, I had been the subject of gossip and ridicule, the pathetic Queen whom the King had been tolerating had finally lost all favour.
By then, it had become obvious to everyone.
Cassius truly did not love me. He did not even like me. I had simply been too foolish to see what everyone else had apparently known for years.
That incident had finally cemented my place in the eyes of the kingdom. The King disliked the Queen, and the Queen was desperate for his attention. I was nothing.
Thankfully, this time I had not made the same mistake. Thankfully, I arrived just before I could rush after him and humiliate myself all over again.
And now he has come to me.
Of course he has.
The ‘ever-kind and wise King Cassius’ could hardly do otherwise. He is nothing if not courteous and proper, and a Queen who has nearly drowned is certainly deserving of a visit from her husband.
Courtesy demands it.
His expression softens, and a smile spreads across his face. He opens his arms wide.
I stare at him for the briefest moment. He is expecting me to run into them- just as I always did.
This time, I do not.
Instead, I dip into a proper curtsy, deliberately pretending not to see.
“Good morning, Your Majesty.” I say, in as even a tone as I can.
For a heartbeat, he remains like that. Then his arms slowly lower, and he clasps his hands behind his back. There's the faintest tightness at the corner of his mouth, there and then gone.
“Good morning, Serena,” his voice is gentle. “How are you feeling this morning?”
“I am quite well.”
His gaze moves over me, his eyes flashing with surprise at my different attire. "This is different. You look lovely."
"Thank you, Your Majesty," I say.
"The colour suits you."
I only smile again, and say to the servants trailing behind me. “Have some refreshments brought in.” moving deeper into the room.
The servants immediately move to obey.
My private sitting room is moderately sized compared to the other entertaining rooms in the palace. However, there is nothing modest about its furnishings. Everything in it is expensive and befitting of the Royal family. But unlike the grander rooms of the palace, this one feels warm and lived-in. A thick rug covers most of the stone floor, keeping out the winter chill, while a fire burns steadily in the hearth. Comfortable upholstered chairs surround a low table near the windows, and heavy curtains frame the tall glass panes. Several vases of flowers are scattered throughout the room, though the cold weather has already begun to take its toll on them.
I move toward one of the chairs in the middle of the room and take a seat- I intentionally choose a single-seater. Cassius settles on the sofa opposite me.
The servants are efficient. Within minutes, tea and refreshments are arranged before us. Cordelia steps forward and pours the tea into our cups before retreating with the other servants to the corners of the room. They maintain the proper distance expected of royal attendants, far enough to grant us privacy but close enough to respond immediately should either of us need anything.
I lift my cup.
Across from me, Cassius does the same.
His gaze moves over me, concern on his face. "I heard you fell into the pond. Are you hurt?" he asks, “How did that happen?”
I shake my head lightly and take a sip of my tea. "I tripped on my dress. It was nothing- a moment of carelessness on my part."
His frown deepens. “But it’s winter. The water must have been freezing.”
I nod.
It was.
“I had a hot bath afterwards.” I inform him, “I was otherwise unhurt.”
"Has the physician seen to you?"
"It wasn't necessary."
His eyes melt with gentle concern. "Serena, I'd feel better if he did."
I open my mouth to refuse again, then think better of it and simply incline my head. "As you wish." I take another sip of tea instead of arguing further.
His expression eases at my agreement and glances toward the servants. "One of you, go summon the court physician to examine the Queen."
"Yes, Your Majesty," they answer almost in unison before one of them moves to carry out the order.
SERENAThe girl in lavender who counted her rivals. The beautiful one with the cousins. The small fair girl in pink, Lady Isolde, who flinches and then looks, a little, relieved. Lady Elowen Pryce. Two more whose answers told me what I needed. Lady Odette Marwick, last, who curtsies with the same dimple, the same perfect grace, but the rage in her eyes is unmistakable. I sneer, unfortunately for her, she can do nothing to me. Eight ladies are disqualified in this round."I'm grateful to each of you for coming. You've been honest, and I respect that. The palace isn't for everyone, and there's no shame in it. Go home. Find someone who deserves you. The palace will compensate you each with generous gifts and a sizeable dowry." I nod to the Rosalyn.“Rosalyn.”“Your Majesty?” She steps forward."See that each lady is given a piece of jewellery and ten yards of silk from my own stores before she leaves."They curtsy and file out, some with their chins high, some with their heads bowed, a f
SERENAI remember the story I heard in the fifth year of my marriage.Lady Odette had met a young man outside a bookstore and fallen in love with him at first sight. That young man was Edric Hallam, the son of a minor official stationed in Lindenfold, about a town an hour's ride from the capital. Unfortunately for Lady Odette, the young man happened to be married already and his wife had even just recently given birth to their son.Lady Odette had then demanded that the man divorce his wife and send both she and the child away- promising that if he agreed and married her, her father would get him a high-paying job as an official in the capital. But Edric was well-known to have pursued his wife for five full years before he was able to marry her. He was a devoted husband who truly loved his wife and child so he humbly refused Lady Odette’s offer.But who knew Lady Odette would be so vindictive. She sent her family’s guards to ambush the carriage carrying Edric’s wife and child on the r
SERENA It's a narrow band of gold, worked into a row of upswept points like the ridge of a wolf's back, with a small diamond set at the tip of each one, and in the middlemost point sits a sapphire the size of a quail's egg, so deep a blue it looks black until the light hits it. The crown is heavy and presses against my forehead- the symbol of ultimate authority and power. Today I want every woman to understand that just because I am giving her the opportunity to enter the palace, it does not mean that they can challenge my authority. The head of the Department stands to my left with his hands clasped in front of him, rubbing his thumb over his knuckle. He hasn't slept. "How many?" I ask. "Eighteen ladies, Your Majesty." He lowers his voice. "Eighteen passed the records check and the physician's examination this morning. A few more registered but were turned away over irregularities in their family papers." Eighteen. I nod. For such short notice, that's enough. "Bring them in."
SERENAHe's writing fast now, but his eyes keep flicking up to my face. "And when does Your Majesty wish it to begin?""In two days."The quill stops again."Two days?" His voice cracks on it. "Your Majesty, forgive me. A Selection normally takes... the ladies need time to prepare. Gowns, escorts, travel arrangements. The physicians must schedule the examinations, and the record checks alone would take...""That's why only the nearby families are getting the notice," I say. "They don't need to travel far. They can prepare in two days if they want to badly enough. The physicians can examine them on the day, and so can the matrons. You'll have every clerk in the Department on the record checks tonight.""But, Your Majesty...""It's an emergency," I say it flatly, and I watch him swallow whatever he was going to say next. "The King refuses to have the current Companions serve him, and the King cannot be without. Furthermore, the Queen Dowager is most concerned about the matter of the hei
SERENAThe Blackwood and Parker clans and armies are about equal in size. However, the Parkers are wealthier and have more property. But the same size doesn’t mean the same quality. Blackwood soldiers are stronger and fight better, with the Parkers being a notch below.However, with the two clans being so similar, it’s hard for people not to make comparisons between them.People always compare the two generations. It happened between my father and Parker, who are the same age and began their careers in the same year. My father became a General. Parker is still a Lieutenant General, and he will never be anything else.That kind of thing eats at a man. First place never thinks about second place, because it has no reason to resent anyone. Second place, however, spends forty years glaring up at first through gritted teeth. Parker has always seen my father as his rival, while my father has never seen him as more than a nuisance.Then came the children: Parker’s sons were no comfort to him
SERENAIt’s been three years already and I haven’t conceived yet. She hopes I’m truly barren. That way, she’d pick herself a new daughter-in-law, someone easier to control and who didn’t come with a father like mine.I look down and sneer. You wish!This crown is mine. The power is mine. Every inch of influence I gather will stay in my hands and I will ensure it grows. I will not let anyone take it from me. Who says a marriage must be held together by love? Love is what screws you over. Position you can count. Interest you can measure. Everyone takes what they need, and nobody bleeds for it. At least those things don’t turn on you.She tries to smile. It takes her two attempts before she is finally able to hold, a thin and stiff one. "A..." She clears her throat and starts again. "A very clever thought, Serena. I hadn't expected you to see so far ahead.""I had a long time to think, Mother.""So I see." She dabs her lips with a handkerchief, and folds it in her lap with great care. Wh







