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Nyx's pov

pain.

I can't really remember the first time I felt pain, it's like I was born with it, into it. I was accustomed to it. I knew pain, I knew what it felt like, sensed like, smelt like. Pain was with me, pain was me. I felt pain each time my father told me hurtful words, each time Alpha Titan had whipped and punished me and each time the pack members took their anger out on me. I felt it when ever Alpha Titan used me, I felt it whenever the unmated pack males used me and I felt it when Lycus voiced out that he will never want me.

I felt this thing called pain, emotionally, physically and mentally and it made me weak.

Rejection.

Would I say this was worse? I remember the first time I felt rejection unlike pain I remember this. I was six playing with fluffy just like Amara did these days and then just there in the lawn, my father walked up to me, drunk as hell telling me that I was a mistake, i killed my mother and he never wanted me. I was just six, the words stung, I understo