Chapter 218

His gaze drops. "You were supposed to protect her."

"You act like I was the one who threw the drink on her," I snapped. "She could for once stand up for herself."

I felt guilty and that's why I was so fucking angry because I knew my brother was right. I should've stopped Masha and I should've protected Winter. She was mine to protect and I failed her.

The guilt of seeing her saddened face, the flush in her cheeks when everyone around laughed.....

I was an asshole and I had to make it up to her. Apologize even though I believe she'd never want to hear it or accept it.

Ashton gritted his teeth and pulls out his phone. My eyes snap to the screen as I watch him text her, asking about her whereabouts. With the smell of alcohol, cigarettes, and body odor, it would be hard to get to Winter.

Especially since she was drenched in alcohol, her scent would be off. However for me, her scent was still strong and sweet, luring me in like a siren.

I could've told him where she was, where her heartbeat drums in my ears. But selfishly, I wanted to comfort her myself. It was getting harder and harder to control my beast and it didn't help that the moon was in full swing tonight.

When she gives him directions I step in his way. He looks up and glares. I stand my ground. "Let me go to her instead."

Ashton gives me a dirty look, his lips curling back. "So you can make her feel like shit?"

Ashton doesn't know I've found my mate. He doesn't know his best friend is mine to slip in and claim.

I shook my head. "I'm serious this time Ash, I want to apologize and make it up to her. She deserves an apology from me."

She deserves more actually, she deserves my tongue down her throat, between her legs....

Fuck, it was hard to control those urges during the full moon. I clench my hands into fists at my sides. Going to her now could be worse but she did deserve an apology.

I'd be able to control myself....right?

Ashton doesn't look convinced but I press him. "Look, I caused this okay? And I already feel like shit. It's mine to fix. Let me fix it, please."

Ashton's eyes narrowed sharply, warning me that if I mess up further he'd take me to the grave and bury me. " I swear to the Moon Goddess Axel, if you hurt her any more-

I shook my head. "I won't."

Ashton stares at me for a couple more seconds before caving in and nodding. "Fine."

"Don't tell her I'm coming up though," I scratched my chin. "She'd never want to open up or speak to me if she knows it's me that will be behind the door and not you."

I hated that they were close, hated that she would want him there instead of me. Fuck. Hell, I hated that I couldn't claim her as mine like I wanted to.

Ashton looks unsure but nods. "Hurry go to her before weirdos get there before you do."

I didn't need to be told twice, I took the stairs two at once, her scent beckoning me closer. My wolf grows restless, tingles racing under my skin as I get near.

I can control myself. I can do it.

Just comfort her, apologize and be on my way. It's easy, it's simple.

But it's not.

Not when she opens the door without looking. Not when with my supernatural vision I can see her perfect perked tits hugged by that lace bra. Not when she hadn't noticed it wasn't Ashton but me.

Not when I close the door behind me and watch her begin to pace the floor. Not when she turns around and runs into my arms, crying as her soft body presses against me.

And I lose it.

That little string of control? I fucking lose it.