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68. My Fault
Naomi D.Write what you know, i guess, but I had sort of been in her position. i was pregnant more than a year ago and it wasn't planned and turned out to be an ectopic pregancy. So I felt guilt, relief, everything all at once. my boyfriend and i weren't careful enough. and it sucks knowing so many women want kids and you act dumb once and suddenly you're pregnant and unsure what to do. At least I live in a country where you have a choice. although that time my body made the choice for me and the doctor took one tube and part of my uterus.
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