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The Alpha Who Threw Me Away
The Alpha Who Threw Me Away
Author: Manuel

Chapter One: Two Sugars, No Cream

Author: Manuel
last update publish date: 2026-06-04 06:07:17

The coffee is always two sugars, no cream.

I know this the way I know which floorboard outside his bedroom creaks, which window in the east corridor sticks in the rain, which light switch needs two tries before it catches. Small, useless knowledge that my body collected without my permission. Three months of living inside his household and I have memorized every inch of it.

I have not memorized him. I refuse to.

I balance the tray against my hip and push the study door open with my shoulder. He’s already at his desk, bent over something, pen moving. He doesn’t look up. He never looks up when I come in, not right away. There’s always this pause, this deliberate beat where he finishes whatever sentence he was writing and sets the pen down carefully, like he needs the extra second to prepare himself.

I used to think it was arrogance.

Now I think it’s something else. I don’t let myself name it.

“Good morning,” I say, because it’s my job to say it.

“Morning.” His voice is rough, still carrying sleep in it. He reaches for the mug before I’ve even set the tray down fully and I step back, out of reach, creating the exact distance that makes this manageable. That makes him manageable.

He takes a sip. Doesn’t comment on the temperature or the taste, which means it’s right. It’s always right. I’ve made sure of that.

“Elder Bowen pushed your nine o’clock.” I move to the side table, gathering yesterday’s correspondence into a neat stack. “He’ll be thirty minutes late. And the Voss delegation confirmed — they arrive Friday, not Saturday. Someone in the arrangements office has already been notified.”

Lucian sets the mug down. “Who changed the date?”

“Alpha Voss’s coordinator. Apparently he prefers to arrive before the weekend.”

A pause. “Fine. Prepare the east wing.”

“I’ll have it ready by Thursday evening.”

I’m already turning toward the door when he says my name.

Just that. Just — Selene.

Not Avery. Not that will be all. My name, in his mouth, in that specific low register he only uses when the room is empty and there’s no one to perform composure for.

I stop walking. I don’t turn around.

“The blue guest room,” he says. “Make sure the heating is looked at before Voss arrives. It ran cold last winter.”

I exhale slowly through my nose. “Of course, Alpha.”

And I leave before he can say anything else that sounds almost like caring.

Mara is in the hallway with a basket of linens and absolutely no attempt to pretend she wasn’t listening.

“Alpha Voss,” she says, matching my stride without missing a beat. “He’s supposed to be something.”

“He’s a visiting Alpha. That’s all he is.”

“That’s not what I heard.” She drops her voice even though the corridor is empty. “Reina in the kitchens said he’s been asking questions about the pack. About Ironveil’s — arrangements.”

I glance at her sideways. “What kind of arrangements?”

Mara shrugs, but it’s a meaningful shrug, the kind she uses when she knows more than she’s saying and wants me to ask. I don’t take the bait. I’ve learned not to feed that particular habit or we’ll be standing in this hallway for an hour.

“I’ll find out when he gets here,” I say. “In the meantime, I have an entire wing to prepare.”

She catches my arm, gentle but firm. “Selene.”

I know what’s coming. I know it the way you know when someone is about to say something true and unwelcome.

“I’m fine,” I say, before she can.

“You say that like I was going to argue.” She studies my face with that careful, unhurried attention that has always been her way. “I just want you to eat today. An actual meal. Not whatever you grabbed standing at the counter.”

The tension in my chest loosens a fraction.

“I’ll eat,” I say.

She releases my arm. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

The east wing takes most of my afternoon.

I work through it methodically — dust, air the rooms, check the linens, test every lamp, map out the heating issue in the blue guest room so I can have maintenance in by morning. There is comfort in the work. In the physicality of it. The way it keeps my hands busy and my head quiet. I have learned to be grateful for quiet heads.

In the early weeks after the rejection, my mind was a place I didn’t want to be inside. Too loud. Too full of things I kept turning over like broken glass, cutting myself on the same edges every time. Why wasn’t I enough. What was wrong with me. Did he ever feel it the way I did.

I don’t do that anymore.

I smooth the last pillowcase flat and stand at the window for a moment. Outside, Ironveil stretches toward the tree line, the mountains sitting heavy and grey at its back. I grew up looking at those mountains. They have never changed. Everything else has shifted around me and the mountains just stay there, unbothered and unmoved.

I’ve decided to be like the mountains.

I’m halfway down the hallway, arms full of spare towels, when I hear it — voices from the floor below. Male, more than one, carrying the unmistakable energy of new arrivals. I check the time in my head. Friday is two days away.

I frown and take the stairs.

The front entrance is already moving. Two of Lucian’s sentinels stand at the door. A line of unfamiliar vehicles sits in the courtyard outside, dark and expensive-looking in the fading afternoon light.

And then I see him.

He’s standing just inside the entrance, tall and unhurried the way men are when they’ve never had to make themselves smaller for anyone. Dark coat. Sharp jaw. Eyes that sweep the room with quiet calculation — and land, without warning, without hesitation, directly on me.

He holds my gaze for one second. Two.

And then he smiles. Not the polished smile of a visiting Alpha working the room. Something smaller. More deliberate. Like he came here already knowing something, and finding me just confirmed it.

My stomach does something I don’t have a name for.

I don’t move. I don’t look away.

And from somewhere above me, at the top of the staircase, I hear Lucian’s footsteps go completely still.

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