Three weeks had passed and the blood moon will now come out after a month of waiting, time flies so fast, right. It seems like I've just read that book yesterday although it was actually a month since then.
That's why I'm afraid of time, it can change anything and you can never fix it when time doesn't want to, if everyone was afraid of creature like us, then I'm afraid of how time work because you can never turn it back the way you want to, you will just find yourself reminiscing but not going back in time to change everything. I admit that I sometimes wish to turn it back then I'll realize that it's impossible. Now look at me now, waiting for a useless thing.
I was actually waiting for it, the blood moon and I still don't know the reason why, I'm just really curious, though I won't witness the vaewolf with my own eyes since I don't know whom it will be, it could be more amazing if I'll watch that myself but let's just wait, maybe there'll be a sigh or something on wh
Blade came back like nothing happened even though there are many things that he missed including who I truly am, and there is much pain that he failed to stop, pains that can probably change me to life, but I hope not. He promised to protect me from any pain and to not let it go through me again, but where is he? Gone for some fucking reason that who knows what and I also don't want to know it anymore. I know it's not his fault, it's never his fault, but I wanna know why he wasn't here last night. I wanna know why I suffered alone, again. I'll be so inconsiderate if I'll blame him because there's no one to blame but me, it's always me and it has always been me. "Good morning mi Reina! Rise and shine my sunshine... I missed your smiles already, hey, wake up my love" I don't wanna open my eyes even though I ain't asleep. I don't want his smile to vanish just because I have no strength to smile at him back, I don't want him to feel guilty just because I failed to pr
"So, where were you last night?" Did he think that I already forgot about that? Well I didn't, I was actually thinking of that a while ago but I can't find my timing and now I found one. I've heard somewhere that your mate doesn't have any responsibility to inform you anything that he'll do, it's actually ok for me if he's not comfortable answering me as long as he'll not lie to me, I would rather accept him keeping his privacy from me that lying to me, though we don't have privacy if we'll keep both of our mind open.I actually like it to be open if there's something important for us to talk to and not just because we're afraid that there may be something going on because that means we don't trust each other. After all, doubt is winning over trust and I hate that kind of toxic relationship. Though I must admit that I'm sometimes toxic when I know that I'm the one who's right."I-i just, Uhm... My pack needed me last night so I came there" is that it? Then why do
"Aze! Aze! Let me in! oh fuck you all" I heard a familiar voice shouting outside like a pig that is about to give birth. I think I know who has the most annoying voice, my best friend, Carmen. Hell, I miss that bitch! But gosh, I can feel the secondhand shame because of her but she looks like she's not ashamed, what a thick face that she has! Hell, is she really my friend. I can't remember her now, who is she? Just kidding!Can someone please make her stop? Her loud voice is now echoing in the whole forest and she's still not even planning to stop. For goodness' sake! I want to shout at her to stop it already but I can't I might end up laughing my ass off because of her stupidity."If she weren't your friend, I will surely cut his throat open for causing noise in my palace, she has the guts to shout outside an alpha's place? I'm starting to lose my temper with her my Reina, help me" I heard Blade talked beside me, how long has he been there? So he also feel
"She's my best friend blade! She was the one who was there for me during the time that I needed anyone that most and you can't just tell me that I need to avoid her just because of a reason that you can't even tell me! What is your problem, really? She didn't even do something wrong to me for you to react like that! Are you out of your mind? Or are you really jealous of her?" I confront him after we arrived at our room. My breathing ragged while shouting those words at him. I really can't understand his point but he can't even make me understand it! He's such a psycho!"I just don't like her" Anger took over me after hearing his response."JUST BECAUSE OF THAT FUCKING REASON? YOU'RE BEING UNREASONABLE BLADE!" I was almost out of breath, huffing, and don't know how to let go of the anger that I'm feeling. He's so unbelievably, he's not even the same blade that I met a month ago. What happened? Why is he acting like this?"Your mouth Mi Reina" and now he wan
"Carmen? Where are you?" I shouted the moment I entered her house. Blade already permitted me to visit her though I don't need his permission, I will still go here on my own, who told him that I'll let anyone stop me?it was locked but thankfully, the keys that she gave me years ago are still in my possession. I made sure that it'll be with me in case that I'll get back and I really did. The whole place is so unusually quiet, the surrounding was tranquil and it made me more nervous than ever.Where is she? I bet she is not here because if she is, she'll surely welcome me and ran towards me the moment she heard my voice, but I saw no one.I walked up the stairs to check in her room, maybe she's having what she called beauty rest and is lazy to get up, but she's still nowhere to be found. I checked the bathroom, kitchen, and every place that she might be but she's not there.Where did she go? As far as I can remember, she's not going out in time
"Good day milady" a familiar voice greeted me, its Dash. He was wearing his usual grin just like how every playboy is, never thought that werewolves have that kind of man. He was wearing a plain white t-shirt and black shorts.I was taking a walk outside the palace to see how beautiful the surrounding is but he called me and started walking with me. Is he up to blade? Then why did he approached me instead of just walking himself to Blade's place?"Oh, hi. Are you up to Blade? He's not here, he has some important errands to do, but you can just come back later at night, he'll be home hat time" I turned to look at him while speaking but he was looking at the path that we're taking."No, I was just wandering around and saw a gorgeous woman alone, I just assumed if I can join you, you seem so lonely a while ago so I decided to just walk with you. Can I?" he asked politely, there's nothing wrong with it right? Besides I'm so bored in the palace, I don't want to
"It was just a misunderstanding Blade!" Why can't he just open his mind to understand me? He just told me days ago that he won't be mad at me, yet here he is, shouting right in front of my face with his eyes full of anger that can even burn anything or anyone that'll touch it. He's always likes this, why can't he be open to an explanation even just once in his life? Because we always end up like this, fighting over shallow things because our relationship is still not that strong honestly. "FUCK THAT MISUNDERSTANDING! ANSWER ME! WHY. ARE. YOU. FLIRTING. WITH. THAT. JERK!" Flirting? Is that called flirting already when he didn't even saw the whole fucking scene! Does that mean he sees me as a flirt now? It's funny how fast he can jump to a conclusion like he doesn't trust me, it's obvious that he's doubting me. "Flirting? You call that flirting Blade? THEN WHAT AM I TO YOU, HUH? A FLIRT? A PICK ME UP, WOMAN? DAMN IT BLADE! I was just trying to be good at people here be
"Mi Reina..." Blade called me while I'm combing my hair, I just finished taking a bath, so I faced him with both of my eyebrows raised at him puzzled by his sudden call."Yes?""I know you haven't met my parents and I'm sorry about that, I should've let you meet them the moment you stepped here as my mate, I forgot about that," he apologized, we actually never talked about his parents and I never complained that I didn't get the chance to meet them so I was curious why he opened that topic up all of a sudden. I don't have a problem with that, I'm still not ready, I'm afraid if they bite- just kidding, but really, I'm afraid that they might have something to say to me that I won't like."Nah, I'm fine with that, I also know that they're a busy person- I mean werewolf so I understand, they don't need to be here just because of me, I'm not that important," he smiled at me and I don't think I will like what he's going to say next because of his smile."