Calla’s POV
The thermometer beeped again. 104.3°F.
I tightened my hold around Asher’s tiny body, praying for the fever to break. He whimpered lowly against my chest, his silver lashes were damp with sweat and his skin looked flush red like a dying sun. My arms were beginning to ache from holding him all night, but I didn’t dare let go. Never. Not when his breathing was so uneven. Not when the world had already tried to take everything from me once.
“Miss Rivers?” A nurse appeared at the doorway, her tone apologetic. “Dr. Hanley will see you now.”
I nodded, adjusting Asher’s weight on my hip as I followed her through the hallways that reeked of antiseptic and too much silence that unsettled my nerves even more. My sneakers squeaked against the tiled floor. My pulse was thundering hard in my ears.
Asher had always run hot. Since birth. But never like this.
He stirred weakly. “Mama?”
“I’m here, baby,” I whispered, pressing a kiss to his forehead. “You’re okay. We’re gonna fix this, alright? Just stay with me.”
He blinked up at me with eyes that mirrored my worst mistake.
Silver. Like his father’s.
Dr. Hanley looked up as I walked in, a deep frown taking over his usually pleasant face. “Calla. Sit.”
I took my seat on the chair opposite him, trying not to shake Asher. He was so small. Too small. His fingers gripped weakly into my hoodie, like he was holding on for dear life.
The doctor rubbed his temple before sliding a thick file across the desk. “I ran the bloodwork twice. Your son’s cells aren’t reacting to standard antivirals or immune boosters. His body’s attacking itself.”
“What does that mean?” My throat felt like sandpaper.
“It’s genetic. His immune system isn’t built like a normal child’s. His blood is… different.”
The way he said it made something cold slide down my spine. “Different how?”
“I can’t say for certain,” he admitted. “But it resembles some of the cases I’ve consulted on—cases tied to non-human gene markers.”
I went still.
“You said you adopted Asher?”
I flinched. Lie. One of many. “Yes.”
“Well, if his biological parents carried any… rare blood traits, it could explain why he’s not responding to treatment. I’d like to refer you to a supernatural specialist. Quiet. Discreet. Off the books.”
Panic bloomed in my chest like a thousand needles.
“I don’t—” My voice cracked. “I don’t want him involved in that world.”
“I understand. But Calla…” He leaned forward, eyes serious. “Your son’s running out of time.”
The specialist looked more like a librarian than a supernatural expert—round glasses, messy bun, sleeves inked with tiny runes I recognized all too well. I almost walked out.
She didn’t bother with small talk.
“I need a blood sample,” she said briskly. “And a strand of his hair.”
Asher stirred on the exam table, eyes glassy with exhaustion. He didn’t cry when she pricked his finger. He didn’t even flinch. He just looked at me. Trusting me.
That was the worst part.
Fifteen minutes later, she returned.
“You were right to be worried,” she said calmly, as if she weren’t about to drop a bomb on the center of my world. “Your son carries Alpha DNA. Strong lineage. Dominant strain.”
I swallowed hard. “What’s wrong with him?”
“His system is rejecting human medicine because it’s not designed for his biology. His condition is hereditary—linked to a rare Alpha gene that sometimes flares in mixed-blood children. Especially when they inherit strength without balance.”
“Balance?” I echoed.
She tapped her temple. “Magic. His wolf. His bloodline. Something’s fighting to emerge before his body is ready.”
I went cold. “What’s the cure?”
She hesitated. “Alpha blood.”
I stared at her. “He is Alpha-blooded.”
“Yes. But he needs more. A direct transfusion. From the source.”
My stomach dropped.
“From his father?”
She nodded. “Specifically—someone from the Blackthorne line.”
I laughed. It sounded cracked and brittle, like broken glass. “No.”
“Calla—”
“I said no!” I stood too fast, nearly tripping over the stool. Asher whimpered, and I scooped him into my arms like he was the last thing tethering me to earth. “We’re done here.”
“You need to understand—”
“I said I’m not going back!” My voice snapped, louder than I meant. “I am never setting foot near that pack again. Ever.”
Her eyes softened, but her words didn’t. “Then you better start saying goodbye.”
I didn’t remember leaving the building.
I just remember the weight of him in my arms, heavier than it had ever been. His breathing was shallow. His little lips trembled.
We made it to the apartment. I laid him on the couch. He whimpered. Then he jerked. His body convulsed once. Then again. A soft choking noise left his mouth.
No.
No no no.
“Asher!” I dropped to my knees. “Baby, look at me. Stay with me, baby—”
He seized again. My hands shook as I tried to stabilize his head, to hold his limbs—
I had to call 911.
But they wouldn’t help.
They couldn’t help.
He needed Alpha blood.
He needed him.
And gods help me, I swore I would never beg that monster for anything again.
Not after he forgot me.
Not after he let them erase me like I was a ghost.
Not after I nearly died in the ruins of the life we built.
But Asher…
Asher was all I had left. The only good thing I’d ever done. The only reason I still breathed. And now he was slipping through my fingers because of my pride. My fear.
I sank beside the couch, burying my face in his tiny chest, feeling the faintest beat of his heart against my cheek.
“Okay,” I whispered. “Okay, baby. I hear you.”
A tear slid down my cheek, soaking into his shirt. My hands trembled as I reached for my phone.
The number still existed. A private line only pack alphas used. One I’d kept buried at the bottom of my notes app under fake names and codes. One I swore I’d never touch again.
But I touched it.
My voice shook as I left the message. “My name is Calla Rivers. I need to speak to Alpha Rowan Blackthorne. It’s urgent. Life or death. Tell him… tell him it’s about a child. And tell him to come alone.”
I stayed up that night, watching over Asher.
Every rise and fall of his chest felt like a countdown.
I hadn’t seen Rowan since the night of the coup. The night they tried to kill him. The night he forgot everything—including me.
They told him I was dead.
And he believed them.
He let them bury me in silence. No search. No questions. No fight.
I wanted to hate him. Sometimes I did.
But none of that mattered now.
Because Asher was sick.
And no one else could save him.
I pressed a kiss to his damp forehead and whispered into the dark.
“For you, baby…”
“I’ll face the monster who forgot me.”
(Rowan's POV)I wouldn't have credited anyone if they said months ago that a child's laughter would be at the center of my existence. But now I'm leaning in, living for it, even.Asher's laughter echoes down the east wing like sunlight bursting from behind the clouds. It's enough to lift the weight from my shoulders, at least for a little while. When I hear it, I see Calla smiling at him with that sweet smile that only a mother can recognize. And then, sometimes, gratefully not very often, her eyes wander over to me. Not with the old hurt, not with the walls of reserve, but with something warmer. Something softer.The last time it did, I nearly tripped over my own feet.I have started making excuses so that I can walk here often, though in actuality excuses are no longer necessary. The boy now comes running to me with his sword in hand or tugging at my wrist and requesting me to play some game with him in whichever way he has dreamed. And gods, I cannot deny him. I don't want to.I
Rowan's POVThat night I left Calla's room, I vowed that it would not be like that.Her words had hurt more than any sword. She had suffered alone, been spurned, not recalled, forgotten not by me, by me, her wife, her mate. I was recalling the expression on her face of tears streaming on her cheeks when she had said she would not so easily pardon.I had not thought that forgiveness would be so willingly received, but watching her shatter under the ruins of her sorrow had shattered something inside of me.But despite all the agony, I had seen it, the fire of love still intensely burning in her eyes, beneath the pain. It was not extinguished. It could not be.So I decided on the matter of whether or not I would stand before her anymore with hollow apologies and pleadings. I would demonstrate it to her. Slowly, minute by minute, I would demonstrate to her that I could be the man she had at one point trusted me enough to be.The first thing was easy: Asher.I would find myself returning
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(Rowan’s POV)The thought of Calla, big with child, walking away from the only home she had known made me sick. Where did she go? How did she make it? Did she have anyone to help her when the time came? Or did she bring my son into the world alone, with no hand to hold, no voice to tell her everything would be okay?I felt sick. My chest moved up and down as I tried to breathe. The tavern swam in front of my eyes. The faces of strangers turned into nothing. The smell of ale and dirty bodies pressed in on me.How do you face the woman you have hurt like this? How do you look her in the eye knowing you made promises you didn't even remember making? That she carried the weight of both your bond and your child alone? What words could possibly be enough?I'm sorry it did not seem like enough. I forgot you sounded like the worst excuse in the world, even if it was true. I love you, did I even have the right to say that anymore? When I could not remember loving her, could not remember the mo
(Rowan's POV)The ale burned like fire when it hit my throat, but I kept drinking. Cup after cup. I do not even know how many I had. My hand shook as I poured another, the rough tavern light flickering over the rim. The room was not full, just a few scattered shadows hunched over their own problems, but it felt like I could not breathe. Like the walls were closing in.Knox's words would not stop playing in my head.Calla Rivers. My mate. My bride.The woman I married in secret. The woman I was tied to by both choice and fate. The woman I lost.And I forgot her.How does a man forget the one thing that should stick with him forever? How do you forget promises made in the still of night, when two hearts decide they will belong to each other always? How do you forget the way her eyes lit up when you said you'd protect her? The way her hand fits just right in yours?I slammed the cup down harder than I meant to. The drink spilled across the table. The tavern keeper looked at me once but d