로그인ALICE’S POV
The Blue Moon Festival was Lucian’s idea of heaven and my four-year plan of endurance.
He’d been talking about it for weeks—the lanterns, the fireworks, the honey cakes from the booth near the stage. When he’d asked, he’d pressed both hands together like he was praying, eyes wide, and I’d said yes before I even finished the thought. Benjamin had already agreed. Children who might be dying get their heaven when they ask for it.
So I stood at the edge of the festival grounds in a simple blue dress, watching my son drag his father toward the lantern booth as if he could pull the whole night closer if he just moved fast enough.
“Slow down, Lucian. Remember what the doctor said.”
He didn’t hear me. Or didn’t listen. His cheeks were flushed pink, his eyes bright, and for ten seconds I let myself not count his breaths.
“I’ll watch him,” Benjamin said, glancing back. “Go eat something.”
Not warm. But civil. I’d learned to take what I was given.
I turned toward the refreshment tent, already running through the checklist in my head: water for Lucian first, check his color in an hour, healer’s number in my pocket if needed. The list settled me. It always did. One task to the next, and the feelings stayed where they belonged.
I didn’t see Lisa until she was already beside me.
“Well.” Her voice was honey over barbed wire. “The Luna graces us with her presence.”
She stepped out from between two booths—wine glass in hand, diamonds glittering at her ears, wearing a dress that probably cost more than I spent in a month. Her smile stopped well short of her eyes.
“Lisa.” I kept my voice flat. “Enjoying the festival?”
“Immensely.” She fell into step beside me without invitation. “I’ve missed this. The celebrations. The community.” A small, precise pause. “Benjamin especially.”
“I’m sure he’s glad his friend is back.”
“Friend.” She laughed—a sound like something delicate breaking on purpose. “How sweet. You know, Alice, I’ve always admired it. The way you hold on. Even when you know.”
I stopped walking.
Strings of fairy lights hung between the trees, throwing soft gold across everything. She looked beautiful in them. She knew it.
“What do you want, Lisa?”
“Nothing at all. Just catching up.” Her voice dripped false concern. “How’s the little one—Lucas?”
“Lucian.”
“Right. Lucian.” Her tone softened into something that pretended to be sympathy. “I heard such a terrible rumor. Someone said he was ill. Really ill. But you’re here celebrating, so it can’t be as serious as all that.”
“He’s wonderful.”
“Is he?” She sipped her wine. “Because I heard the word terminal. And if I had a child who was terminal, I don’t think I could be here laughing. Celebrating. Using him to hold onto a man who—”
“Say ‘using him’ again,” I said quietly.
My hands stayed at my sides. I’d spent four years in a house where everyone decided things about me without me in the room. I had learned that the best response to provocation was to answer only what was actually said.
She’d wanted a flinch. She wasn’t getting one.
A cluster of pack members had slowed nearby. I felt the attention shift—the conversations dimming, eyes turning toward us. I knew exactly what they whispered when my back was turned. I’d known for years.
Trapped him. Tricked her way in. The child was never the point.
I stood still and let it settle. Let Lisa have the audience she’d positioned herself for.
“He won’t stay,” she said, warmth gone. Only the wire remained. “When your thirty days are done. When your son is gone—and he will be, Alice, everyone knows it’s only a matter of time—you’ll have nothing. No title. No husband. No one in this pack will even remember your name.”
“Leave my mommy alone!”
Lucian appeared at my side before I’d even registered him moving. His small body planted itself squarely between me and Lisa, fists clenched, face far too pale. He was shaking, but his voice held steady.
“You’re mean,” he said. “You’re lying. My mommy is the best mommy in the whole world.”
“Lucian—”
He shook off my hand.
“Daddy loves us. He reads me stories. He took us to the market. He’s coming to my birthday.” His jaw tightened. “You’re wrong. You’re wrong about everything.”
Something flickered across Lisa’s face—recalculation.
“How precious,” she said, pitching her voice for the growing crowd. “Your mother’s told you such lovely stories.”
“Stop talking to my son.” My voice was ice. “Right now.”
“Or what?” Her hands spread wide, unbothered. “You’ll go to Benjamin? He’s never believed you before.”
Then Lily appeared.
She materialized at Lisa’s side like she’d been waiting for her cue. She looked at Lucian with the casual cruelty only children can weaponize when taught early.
“Daddy loves us,” she said sweetly. “He told my mommy he wished she was his real mate. He said your mommy tricked him. He said he hates her.”
“That’s a lie!” Lucian’s voice cracked. “Daddy’s my daddy. Not yours. He said—”
“He said it. He said—”
“Enough.”
Benjamin’s voice sliced through the music, the whispers, and both children at once. He strode toward us—Alpha stride, jaw set—already reading the scene. Who was crying. Who was standing rigid. What the crowd could see.
“Daddy!” Lily ran to him and wrapped herself around his leg. “The mean boy was yelling at Mommy!”
“Dad, I was defending her! She was saying horrible things about—”
“Benjamin.” Lisa’s voice broke, soft and wounded. A single tear balanced perfectly at the corner of her eye. She was very good at this. “I don’t know what happened. We were just talking, and then it escalated so quickly. I tried to keep things calm, but…”
She let the silence do the rest.
I watched Benjamin take it all in: Lisa with her perfect tear, Lily’s face pressed into his thigh. Then me—standing straight, hands still, saying nothing. And Lucian, trembling beside me.
I watched him make his decision.
“Apologize.”
He was looking at me.
“What?”
“To Lisa. And make Lucian apologize to Lily.”
“Benjamin, she was the one who—”
“I don’t care who started it.” The Pack Alpha voice. Final. “Apologize. Or the arrangement is over.”
The arrangement.
Thirty days. Lucian’s thirty days—the bargain I’d made so my son could have something that looked like a family before we found out if he got to keep his life.
I looked at Lisa.
For a split second, her mask slipped. Underneath was cold, clean satisfaction. She’d planned this, or she’d seen it coming and let it unfold. Either way, she had won.
I knew what fighting back would cost. I’d run the numbers before he finished speaking. Benjamin had spent four years believing the worst of me. One more sentence from my mouth wasn’t going to change that. It would only end the thirty days. Lucian’s lanterns. Lucian’s birthday. Lucian’s thirty days of having a father.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
The words tasted exactly as I knew they would.
“Mommy, no—”
“I’m sorry, Lisa. For any offense we caused.”
Lisa smiled sweetly. “Apology accepted. Isn’t that right, Lily?”
“I guess,” Lily sniffled.
“Lucian.” I placed my hand on his shoulder.
“But I didn’t do anything wrong—”
“Lucian. Please.”
The fight drained out of him beneath my palm. I felt the exact moment a four-year-old learned that the world doesn’t run on what’s right.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
Benjamin nodded, satisfied. “Good. Now let’s all enjoy the rest of the festival. Separately.”
He put his arm around Lisa’s shoulders and led her away. Lily trailed behind them, shooting one last smug look over her shoulder at Lucian.
Lucian didn’t cry. He just stood there, staring after his father, small hands trembling.
“He didn’t believe me,” he whispered. “He believed them instead.”
I knelt and pulled him into my arms.
“I’m sorry, baby. I’m so, so sorry.”
“He’s supposed to love us. He promised. He promised to be a good daddy.”
ALICE’S POVThe waiting room was full before the sun was properly up.I stopped in the doorway with my bag still on my shoulder and looked at it. Mothers with coughing children. Two old men with their sample jars balanced on their knees.A pair of young warriors carrying the same bruises across both sets of knuckles, sitting four feet apart, not looking at each other. A girl with a swollen ankle up on her mother's lap.Every bench taken.Morwen came in at my elbow."Room three wants stitching. Room one's a finger out of its joint. Mrs. Aldern's in two with her hands. And those two can wait."I didn't move."Alice.""They came back."She took the bag off my shoulder and set it behind the front desk. "They never left. They were only frightened." She put a file in my hand. "Three first. That hunter's been going through his bandage for twenty minutes."The boy in room one was about six. His finger sat at an angle that made his mother wince every time she looked at it, and he'd stopped cry
LISA'S POVI scrubbed the counters twice, then washed the dishes that had been sitting in that sink since the funeral. I wiped down the windowsill where Lily used to line her painted stones up in a row.I left the stones themselves where they were. I couldn't pick them up.The marigolds were out back in that wooden box. She'd planted them three months ago and stood over them for a week waiting for something to happen, and when the first buds came she made me come out and look at them twice. They're going brown at the edges now.I stood out there with the watering can in my hand and didn't water them. Then I came back in and set it down by the door.The house is full of her. Her scarf hangs over the back of a chair. The drawing's still taped to the pantry door — a horse with six legs, because she told me horses run too fast to only have four and she wasn't taking questions on it. Her boots by the step, waiting for feet.I put the can down and went out of that house without locking it b
Benjamin's POVThe clinic door opened before I got my hand to it. John was standing there with the folder already out.He'd been waiting on me."You're early.""I didn't sleep."I took it from him and read it standing up. He stayed by his desk and watched me do it and didn't say a word.Both her wrists were bruised, both of them, all the way around, which means somebody had hold of her.The poison was the same one that killed the child.And nobody puts themselves in a box and buries it.The letter is in her handwriting. The words in it are not hers.And there was a piece of dark blue thread under the nail of her left hand.I read that last line twice and shut the folder."If this was anybody else," I said, "would you call it suicide?""No.""Would you put your name to it?""I haven't, and I won't."I folded the report and put it inside my coat."That's what I came for.""That's it? You've no questions?""I've plenty. None of them are yours this morning." I got the door open and held i
John's POVThe door swung shut behind me and the bell was still going somewhere behind the hill.I should've gone to the meal. That child deserved every person who ever loved her sitting in one room, eating off the same table, telling each other what she was like, and there'll be people at that table tonight who remember the doctor didn't come.I went past the chairs somebody had shoved back against the wall, past the appointment book still open on the page where they'd crossed the whole day out.Morwen was already down the corridor. She had the clipboard and the pen, and she'd put her coat on the back of the door instead of hanging it up, which is what she does when she doesn't intend to be talked out of something."You don't have to do this today," I said."Neither do you."I put my hand on the sheet and stood there a second, and then I took it back off her."Then let's begin."We didn't say much for the first hour. Morwen wrote down every word in that flat steady hand of hers and n
ALICE'S POVThe bell started before it was dawn.One. Then another. Then another, and I lay there in the dark and counted every one of them. There was nothing else to do with myself. Today they bury Lily.I sat on the edge of the bed a long time after it stopped. This house has been quiet for sixteen days, and it was worse this morning than it's ever been. I said her name out loud in that room. Not because I expected anything back. I didn't want that child to go out of the world without one person saying it kindly.Then I got up and went to work. It's the only thing I've ever known what to do.The clinic was nearly empty. Somebody had pushed all the chairs back against the walls in the waiting room and nobody had put them straight again. The book lay open on the front desk, the whole page crossed out. Twenty-one cancellations, and two that hadn't bothered to cancel.Even being sick can wait a day, apparently.Morwen was at the front desk, going through files that didn't need going t
LISA'S POVI was awake before first light, and the first thing I did was open the wardrobe, tomorrow they put my daughter in the ground and somebody has to decide what she wears.The white one is still hanging there, embroidered at the sleeves, the hem left unfinished because she'd grown two inches in three months and I kept promising to take it to the seamstress. I never did. Now I never will.I ran a finger along the stitching, crooked on one side where she'd begged for the needle herself, her hands too small to hold the line straight, and I told her it was beautiful.I meant it.I folded the dress, put it back, and shut the door on it. Then I picked out what she'd be buried in instead — the blue one with the flowers, the one she chose herself and nobody argued her out of. She had it on the last time she waved at me, both arms up over the schoolyard fence.I sat on the edge of the bed a long while before I could get a proper breath. The house doesn't make a sound anymore. It hasn't
ALICE’S POVI should have taken Lucian home.I should have picked him up, carried him away from this festival of false joy and false hope, and tucked him into bed with a story, a kiss, and a promise that tomorrow would be better.But I didn’t. Because Lucian wanted to see the fireworks. And I could
ALICE’S POVThe days that followed had a rhythm I didn’t trust.Benjamin came every morning. He actually sat at the table — something I still hadn’t gotten used to — and ate whatever I put in front of him. He returned every evening and stayed until Lucian’s eyes drifted shut.Four mornings in a row
ALICE’S POVBy the time I walked into the hospital room, I had composed myself completely. My face was set.Lucian was awake, sitting up in bed. His face brightened the moment he saw me."Mommy. You came back.""I came back." I lifted him into my arms. He smelled like baby shampoo, antiseptic, and
Alice’s POV"What?""Is this your new plan? To trap me again?" Benjamin’s voice dripped with contempt. "Did you run out of tricks, Alice? Is faking our son’s terminal illness really the best you could come up with?"I couldn’t breathe. The hospital hallway seemed to close in around me, the walls pr







