로그인ALICE’S POV
The Blue Moon Festival was Lucian’s idea of heaven and my four-year plan of endurance.
He’d been talking about it for weeks—the lanterns, the fireworks, the honey cakes from the booth near the stage. When he’d asked, he’d pressed both hands together like he was praying, eyes wide, and I’d said yes before I even finished the thought. Benjamin had already agreed. Children who might be dying get their heaven when they ask for it.
So I stood at the edge of the festival grounds in a simple blue dress, watching my son drag his father toward the lantern booth as if he could pull the whole night closer if he just moved fast enough.
“Slow down, Lucian. Remember what the doctor said.”
He didn’t hear me. Or didn’t listen. His cheeks were flushed pink, his eyes bright, and for ten seconds I let myself not count his breaths.
“I’ll watch him,” Benjamin said, glancing back. “Go eat something.”
Not warm. But civil. I’d learned to take what I was given.
I turned toward the refreshment tent, already running through the checklist in my head: water for Lucian first, check his color in an hour, healer’s number in my pocket if needed. The list settled me. It always did. One task to the next, and the feelings stayed where they belonged.
I didn’t see Lisa until she was already beside me.
“Well.” Her voice was honey over barbed wire. “The Luna graces us with her presence.”
She stepped out from between two booths—wine glass in hand, diamonds glittering at her ears, wearing a dress that probably cost more than I spent in a month. Her smile stopped well short of her eyes.
“Lisa.” I kept my voice flat. “Enjoying the festival?”
“Immensely.” She fell into step beside me without invitation. “I’ve missed this. The celebrations. The community.” A small, precise pause. “Benjamin especially.”
“I’m sure he’s glad his friend is back.”
“Friend.” She laughed—a sound like something delicate breaking on purpose. “How sweet. You know, Alice, I’ve always admired it. The way you hold on. Even when you know.”
I stopped walking.
Strings of fairy lights hung between the trees, throwing soft gold across everything. She looked beautiful in them. She knew it.
“What do you want, Lisa?”
“Nothing at all. Just catching up.” Her voice dripped false concern. “How’s the little one—Lucas?”
“Lucian.”
“Right. Lucian.” Her tone softened into something that pretended to be sympathy. “I heard such a terrible rumor. Someone said he was ill. Really ill. But you’re here celebrating, so it can’t be as serious as all that.”
“He’s wonderful.”
“Is he?” She sipped her wine. “Because I heard the word terminal. And if I had a child who was terminal, I don’t think I could be here laughing. Celebrating. Using him to hold onto a man who—”
“Say ‘using him’ again,” I said quietly.
My hands stayed at my sides. I’d spent four years in a house where everyone decided things about me without me in the room. I had learned that the best response to provocation was to answer only what was actually said.
She’d wanted a flinch. She wasn’t getting one.
A cluster of pack members had slowed nearby. I felt the attention shift—the conversations dimming, eyes turning toward us. I knew exactly what they whispered when my back was turned. I’d known for years.
Trapped him. Tricked her way in. The child was never the point.
I stood still and let it settle. Let Lisa have the audience she’d positioned herself for.
“He won’t stay,” she said, warmth gone. Only the wire remained. “When your thirty days are done. When your son is gone—and he will be, Alice, everyone knows it’s only a matter of time—you’ll have nothing. No title. No husband. No one in this pack will even remember your name.”
“Leave my mommy alone!”
Lucian appeared at my side before I’d even registered him moving. His small body planted itself squarely between me and Lisa, fists clenched, face far too pale. He was shaking, but his voice held steady.
“You’re mean,” he said. “You’re lying. My mommy is the best mommy in the whole world.”
“Lucian—”
He shook off my hand.
“Daddy loves us. He reads me stories. He took us to the market. He’s coming to my birthday.” His jaw tightened. “You’re wrong. You’re wrong about everything.”
Something flickered across Lisa’s face—recalculation.
“How precious,” she said, pitching her voice for the growing crowd. “Your mother’s told you such lovely stories.”
“Stop talking to my son.” My voice was ice. “Right now.”
“Or what?” Her hands spread wide, unbothered. “You’ll go to Benjamin? He’s never believed you before.”
Then Lily appeared.
She materialized at Lisa’s side like she’d been waiting for her cue. She looked at Lucian with the casual cruelty only children can weaponize when taught early.
“Daddy loves us,” she said sweetly. “He told my mommy he wished she was his real mate. He said your mommy tricked him. He said he hates her.”
“That’s a lie!” Lucian’s voice cracked. “Daddy’s my daddy. Not yours. He said—”
“He said it. He said—”
“Enough.”
Benjamin’s voice sliced through the music, the whispers, and both children at once. He strode toward us—Alpha stride, jaw set—already reading the scene. Who was crying. Who was standing rigid. What the crowd could see.
“Daddy!” Lily ran to him and wrapped herself around his leg. “The mean boy was yelling at Mommy!”
“Dad, I was defending her! She was saying horrible things about—”
“Benjamin.” Lisa’s voice broke, soft and wounded. A single tear balanced perfectly at the corner of her eye. She was very good at this. “I don’t know what happened. We were just talking, and then it escalated so quickly. I tried to keep things calm, but…”
She let the silence do the rest.
I watched Benjamin take it all in: Lisa with her perfect tear, Lily’s face pressed into his thigh. Then me—standing straight, hands still, saying nothing. And Lucian, trembling beside me.
I watched him make his decision.
“Apologize.”
He was looking at me.
“What?”
“To Lisa. And make Lucian apologize to Lily.”
“Benjamin, she was the one who—”
“I don’t care who started it.” The Pack Alpha voice. Final. “Apologize. Or the arrangement is over.”
The arrangement.
Thirty days. Lucian’s thirty days—the bargain I’d made so my son could have something that looked like a family before we found out if he got to keep his life.
I looked at Lisa.
For a split second, her mask slipped. Underneath was cold, clean satisfaction. She’d planned this, or she’d seen it coming and let it unfold. Either way, she had won.
I knew what fighting back would cost. I’d run the numbers before he finished speaking. Benjamin had spent four years believing the worst of me. One more sentence from my mouth wasn’t going to change that. It would only end the thirty days. Lucian’s lanterns. Lucian’s birthday. Lucian’s thirty days of having a father.
“I’m sorry,” I said.
The words tasted exactly as I knew they would.
“Mommy, no—”
“I’m sorry, Lisa. For any offense we caused.”
Lisa smiled sweetly. “Apology accepted. Isn’t that right, Lily?”
“I guess,” Lily sniffled.
“Lucian.” I placed my hand on his shoulder.
“But I didn’t do anything wrong—”
“Lucian. Please.”
The fight drained out of him beneath my palm. I felt the exact moment a four-year-old learned that the world doesn’t run on what’s right.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered.
Benjamin nodded, satisfied. “Good. Now let’s all enjoy the rest of the festival. Separately.”
He put his arm around Lisa’s shoulders and led her away. Lily trailed behind them, shooting one last smug look over her shoulder at Lucian.
Lucian didn’t cry. He just stood there, staring after his father, small hands trembling.
“He didn’t believe me,” he whispered. “He believed them instead.”
I knelt and pulled him into my arms.
“I’m sorry, baby. I’m so, so sorry.”
“He’s supposed to love us. He promised. He promised to be a good daddy.”
ALICE’S POVThree days since the full moon. We hadn't spoken.I counted it without meaning to.John and I were working down the last of the afternoon caseload — the follow-ups, then the final pages of training documentation, then the stack of files John had already started on before anyone thought to ask. He always did. The light through the clinic windows had gone the grey it goes before evening. He stood at the front desk with his reading glasses pushed low on his nose and a pen behind his ear he'd clearly forgotten was there.Then the door opened, and Drake walked in.He had a bag over one shoulder and a look on his face that made John step back without deciding to. I stayed where I was."I told you not to come."Drake dropped the bag onto the nearest chair. "You told me not to come for a month. It's been a month and three days." His eyes went round the clinic, taking it all in at once. "Also, Damian's worried. David did a risk assessment.""A risk assessment.""Twelve pages. Colo
ALICE'S POVThe bond was still there when I walked out — the same press against my chest it had been since the clearing.The compound was quiet. I crossed the frozen ground barefoot and didn't feel it.John was on the step outside my door, still in his training coat, the cold pressing it flat against him. He stood when he saw me. He took in my feet, my hands, the way I couldn't stop pressing my palm to my chest."What happened?"I opened my mouth. The words left me before they reached the air.He didn't push. He stepped forward and pulled me in — one arm, then both — and I pressed my face against his coat.His arms were steady."You're freezing," he said. "Come inside."He sat me on the edge of the bed and waited. Somewhere in the compound, a door opened and closed."I rejected him," I said. "Under the full moon. The formal words.""And?""He refused to accept it."John went still. "He can do that?""The ritual requires both parties. If he doesn't accept, the bond stays." I pressed my
BENJAMIN'S POVShe shifted and the trees took her.The bond pulled northwest with every stride she took, a hard insistent thing knocking behind my ribs. I stood there in the snow, barefoot, my hand pressed flat to my chest, and I didn't follow.The rejection was still in the bond — her words hanging there, unaccepted, waiting on something I wasn't going to give. I stayed until my feet went past numb, until the moon moved a degree and the snow started to creak in the wind. Then I heard footsteps at the tree line.Callum was still in his celebration coat. Which told me exactly how fast he'd run.He looked at my bare feet. At my hand on my chest. He stopped. "I felt it," he said. "The whole pack felt it. Something convulsed and then didn't break." He came across the clearing slow. "She rejected you.""Yes.""You didn't accept it.""No."He didn't ask why. He just stood beside me and looked at the same tree line I was looking at. His breath misted and went. When I turned back toward the c
ALICE’S POV"Alice." His voice landed rough. "Whatever you're thinking—""I, Alice Watson, hereby, formally reject you, Alpha Benjamin Kane, as my mate."The words were built for exactly this — learned before I shifted, final in the way ordinary words never were. They came out right. I watched them landed, exactly as I meant it.The bond answered at once. A convulsion that doubled me forward, my hand flat against my chest. I breathed through it. One breath, then another.Benjamin's hand flew to his chest. The color left his face all at once, and his breath came out in a short, sharp sound. Between us the bond pulled — my rejection waiting on his acceptance. Just two words from him, and it would be done.I waited.He didn't say them."No."I stared at him. "What?""No." He stepped closer. He wasn't shielding his face anymore. "I won't accept it.""You don't have a choice. The rejection is mine to make. You have to accept it.""I don't have to do anything." His voice was climbing, the c
ALICE'S POVBenjamin's footsteps in the corridor. I was already on the floor, the other side of the door, and I didn't get up.His voice. Then John's, cutting over it."You've kept secrets. You let her find out the truth from Lisa Scott, in front of a room full of people."I pressed my forehead to my knees."You had three years to tell her. You chose not to."He said it clean, without the weight of four years sitting on top of it."Then suffer. But don't make her suffer with you."Footsteps — Benjamin's, moving away. Then John's voice again, lower. "You're not the man she described. The one who left her on the road. I still don't think —"Nothing. Benjamin had kept walking.He'd come to explain himself. John had stopped him. He'd stood at my door, heard the quiet behind it, and gone.My legs had stiffened against the cold floor. I got up anyway and opened the door.John was still there. He looked at my face and didn't ask me anything."I need to go out," I said.He nodded. He didn't f
BENJAMIN’S POVJohn was at her door before I was.He'd been there a while, leaning on the wall with his arms crossed, planted there already, and the fact of him standing where he was told me everything. She'd known I was coming. He straightened when I came around into the corridor and he didn't move aside."She doesn't want to see you.""I need to talk to her.""She doesn't want to see you." Same steady voice, but there was an edge sitting under it now. "You've kept secrets. You let her find out the truth from Lisa Scott, in front of a room full of people. What could you possibly say that makes any of this better?""I'm not trying to make it better. I'm trying to tell her the truth.""You had three years to tell her the truth. You chose not to." He set himself square in front of the door. "She's in there right now trying to figure out if anything you've said in the past few weeks was real. And you want to go in there and unburden yourself so you can feel better about what you did.""T







