Mag-log inAVIONNA’S POV
The first time I found my mate, I had been ecstatic. The second time, I wanted to run. That first night with Lucien had been the worst of my life-a night that rivaled the day I learned my mother had been sentenced to death for murdering the Luna of one of the most powerful and respected Alphas in existence. According to the news report that covered the incident, the Saturn Pack Luna had undergone a complicated birthing procedure due to the rarity of Alpha Fabian’s bloodline. His family carried an ancient strain that made their wolves resistant to most modern medicines, making traditional healing methods necessary whenever they fell ill or were injured. Wolves gifted with traditional healing abilities were employed to treat members of his family and my mother had been the most revered healer among them. When complications arose during the Luna’s labour, my mother had been summoned to safely deliver the Alpha’s heir. But something had gone terribly wrong. And by the time it was over, the Luna was dead. “Renowned healer, Elara Vale, has been arrested and charged with the murder of Hillary Draven, the Saturn Pack’s Luna…” The report had been the beginning of the end of the life I knew. That night, I’d laughed in disbelief, the same kind of laughter that later spilled past my lips when I found my mate the night of Ivy’s coming of age ceremony and he rejected me before hundreds of wolves from our Pack. I always knew Lucien despised me, I just didn’t know he hated me enough to reject a sacred bond ordained by the Moon Goddess. But he hadn’t hesitated. “I, Lucien Kael of Crescent Pack, reject you Avionna Vale, as my mate. I reject our bond and sever all ties.” The words spilled past his lips and the pain that followed was immediate. “No!” I clawed at my chest as the bond tore apart, the agony so intense that my knees nearly gave out. Please…” I looked towards my Father. “Dad please…make him stop…” He was the Pack’s Gamma. Surely, the Alpha would listen to him but all my Dad did was sigh. “You’re an Omega, Avionna,” he muttered simply, as if that explained everything. Deep down, I knew Lucien wasn’t rejecting me just because I was an Omega. It was also because of my Mother’s crime, a sin I’d paid for my entire life. And still, I hadn’t earned that forgiveness. Not from my Pack, and certainly not from my Dad who believed my Mother’s action had robbed him of the position of the Pack’s Beta. Alpha Kael had demoted him after the incident, as a further action of appeasement towards the Saturn Pack who wanted two lives to be exchanged for the two lives that had been taken. As though Lucien rejecting me wasn’t enough, his girlfriend, Aubrey, had come looking for me that same night, flanked by her lackeys and my stepsister Ivy. Aubrey was the new Beta’s daughter, and had grown up with everything at the tip of her fingers. Yet, for unknown reasons, she bore immense hatred for me. They found me curled beneath a tree in the garden I’d run to, my arms tightly wrapped around my chest as though I could somehow hold myself together and ease the unbearable ache tearing through me. “How dare you?!” Aubrey roared in fury, simultaneously cracking her fingers across my face. “How dare you get mated to Lucien?” “I didn’t choose him,” I whispered, lips quivering. “The Moon Goddess did.” “Do you think that makes you innocent?” She hissed, yanking my hair back. “You must have wanted him to pick you. You really thought he’d dump me for you? For the stupid bond?” “Never! You hear me? That will never happen. Lucien belongs to me, he’s mine!” “Avi…” Ivy’s voice reached me right after. “You should have known your place,” she smirked. My own sister, the one person that should have taken my side, stood with her arms crossed, relishing Aubrey’s continuous slaps on my face while I laid there shivering, unable to fight back. That night I realized something. This wasn’t really about Lucien. Aubrey was scared. She could pretend she had won, but somewhere beneath all that anger was the fear that Lucien might one day regret rejecting me. That the bond would eventually pull him back toward me. So, she did the only thing she knew best. She tortured and humiliated me, constantly reminding me that Lucien belonged to her. It had taken three days for me to break. I went to my Father and threw myself at his feet. “Dad, please…I’m begging you.” “Please let me leave. I swear I’ll never come back. I’ll never show my face here again. I’ll…” I begged him until my mouth went dry and just when I was at my wits’ end, he agreed. “Fine, you can leave. It’ll save me the annoyance of having to look at you.” I didn’t question his reasoning, I was just happy to finally be free. That same night, I placed a call through to Aunt Morticia, my mother’s sister, informing her that I would be coming to stay with her. That was two years ago. Tonight, I found myself in the same situation that had forced my departure. My gaze swept to Alpha Fabian again, and my stomach churned. How in the world was this happening again? How was it that I had gotten mated to the man who had every reason in the world to hate me? I had spent two years running away from the life I’d been forced into. And somehow, in a matter of minutes, fate had dragged me right back into it. My wolf stirred restlessly inside me, seemingly oblivious to the danger standing before us. Mate. I clenched my fists. “No,” I muttered, more to myself than anyone else. Through my confusion and disbelief, Alpha Fabian’s gaze never left mine, as though the rest of the room had ceased to exist. Then, to my horror, he started walking toward me. The crowd parted almost instinctively, making way for the Alpha of Saturn Pack as he crossed the hall. My heart hammered against my ribs as he walked over. Surely, he would reject me. He had to. There was no way a man whose mate had died because of my mother would willingly accept me as his own. After what felt like a lifetime, he stopped in front of me. For a moment, neither of us spoke. Up close, he was even more intimidating. His towering frame blocked out everything behind him, leaving me with nowhere to look but at the man fate had apparently decided to curse me with. His eyes swept over my face, then he spoke. “I accept you as my mate.” The words struck me harder than Lucien’s rejection ever had. I wasn’t the only one overtaken with shock, the hall erupted too. Gasps and murmurs spread through the room as everyone tried to make sense of what they had just heard. I could barely hear them. I stared at Alpha Fabian, certain I had misunderstood him. “You… accept me?” His expression remained unreadable. “Yes.” “But…” I scrambled for words. “You know who I am.” His expression remained unchanged. “I know.” My stomach twisted. Then why? Why would he willingly accept the daughter of the woman he believed had murdered the woman he loved? Before I could ask, Alpha Fabian extended his hand toward me. “Come with me, Avionna.” My gaze dropped, and I stared blankly at his hand for a long while, unmoving. Every instinct screamed at me not to take it, so even though my wolf was already reaching for him, I didn’t. He kept his hand outstretched, his expression giving nothing away. “Come with me,” he repeated calmly. Slowly, I lifted my gaze to him, searching his face for an answer, for some indication of what he wanted from me, but I found nothing. I had no idea why Alpha Fabian had accepted me, and no idea what he intended to do with me. And somehow, that frightened me more than his rejection ever could.Chapter 52: No rushAVIONNA’S POVMy wolf had done us more harm than good, forgetting that our entire skeleton was made of fragile, aching things.The pain was the first thing I felt the moment I shifted back. It was everywhere, but my shoulders burned the most. The wound there hadn't looked like much in my wolf form but now that I'd shifted back, it hurt like hell.I could see the imprint Cicero's fangs had left behind and my side stung with every breath I took. My leg throbbed badly too and it hurt to keep my weight on it.I'd just gotten injured too, so my healing hadn't kicked in. It wouldn't have hurt so much if I remained in my wolf form, but my wolf had also decided to give up our skin to me so now, I had to bear the brunt of what she'd done to us.However, even as I hurt, I didn't blame her for anything she did. Like me, she had just been ignorant.I could liken her to the woman I was the day I arrived in Saturn Pack. The Avionna of that day had been filled with so much hope a
AVIONNA'S POV Nothing had ever smelled better.A thick, musty musk swarmed my senses. One second, it wafted like the base note of rich forest loam and freshly upturned soil after a heavy autumn rain. The next, it was the undertone of rotten cedar bark and crushed pine needles dried to a crisp.My wolf's anger dissipated immediately. In a twinkle of an eye, it was gone. Everything faded, narrowing into one thin line, into the man practically dripping with the smell. She lifted her head, and gone was the recollection of why she was angry in the first place.Within her, I was lost too, but not because of the scent that had intoxicated her. What I couldn't understand was why she hadn't shown submission.Just like Cicero who was now back in his human form, chest panting heavily, stewing with suppressed animosity and whose face held a thick layer of discontent, I had felt the irrepressible command in Fabian's voice, but unlike Cicero, my wolf seemed completely unaffected by it.She didn't
AVIONNA’S POV‘Stop’A faint, panicked voice, far away, pleaded to stop, think, wait a minute, but she…My wolf didn’t listen.She had taken the reins and all her vision could register was the Beta standing in the doorway, teeth gritted as though he was struggling to contain himself.The smell oozing off him was acrid, like singed hair and the tang of overheated copper born from the rapid rush of adrenaline that his anger had given rise to.He was a threat. And threats needed to be taken out.An inhuman wail, both a yowl and a roar, filled my ears from inside my skull and my spine ripped out of my skin.Pain coursed through me all at once as my body began to turn from the inside out, an explosion of splintering bone and shredding muscle.No. No you can’t. We’re too weak. He’ll shred us to pieces.I tried to call my wolf to order, but she was too far gone to listen to me. My voice had faded to the background of her mind and pure animal instinct had taken over.It was almost as though s
AVIONNA’S POVWhat do you do when there's a male wolf in your doorway, ferocious and angry, yellow eyes fixed on you like he's already decided you're his next target?You run.Did I run? Absolutely not.Following the absolutely tragic ruin that dinner had turned out to be, Zolani led me to her room after fearlessly calling the two grey-faced grown men dimwits, an action I found unfathomably courageous.It wasn't the suicidal bravado of an Omega thinking she could outfight a Beta twice her size either, nor the shallow pride with which Aubrey paraded herself through the Crescent Pack as Lucien's mate.Her courage was of a different kind. It was the fierce, secure confidence of a woman who knew she was cherished, and who knew with absolute certainty that these men would never lay a hand on her.And unlike Zolani, I knew without a sliver of doubt that I wasn't safe in their hands.So when she led me to walk out of the room, I followed but I couldn't help looking over my shoulder to the t
FABIAN’S POVZolani's words struck a place deep in my heart that I had refused to look into for years, buried underneath all the work I threw myself into.The old part of the city needed rebuilding. Trade relations with other regional Packs needed to be established. The Pack’s enforcement needed to be reshaped and restructured, giving average wolves with limited dreams opportunities to aim higher. There was still so much more I could do to develop the commercialization of our Pack. There was always something waiting for my attention. So much needed to be done, and too little had been covered. As long as I kept moving, I didn’t have to stop and think about what I had lost. I couldn’t allow myself to sink deeper into grief when there was an entire Pack depending on me. Their livelihood and sustenance depended on the decisions I made.So, I buried it.I pushed everything I felt into a place far out of reach and refused to look back, not allowing myself to think about it, or feel it exc
FABIAN’S POVI knew Zolani would come even before I heard her footsteps stamping down the hallway.Zolani was the opposite of me. Maybe that was what had drawn Father to her and made him bring the Four year old child covered in dirt with a face darkened by grime, home.I could never forget the look the child with the tear-streaked face had given me when Father instructed that she call me brother.Her pupils had enlarged, shining so brightly they looked like they held all the stars in the sky. With snot running down her nose, and the brightest smile I had ever seen, she had called out to me.“Brother.”And although she was stewing with anger right now, and had nearly gotten into a brawl with Cicero over dinner, and could be so frustrating sometimes, there had never been a day when I stopped loving this sister of mine.Just as the thought surfaced, the door to my study was yanked open and Zolani stormed inside.“You’re unbelievable.”I didn’t look up from the papers on my desk and inste







