Lost in my thought I skid to a stop right before we topple over and hit the dirt. Calm down Lynette don't throw us from this mountain get control of yourself. How, how do I do this tell me Miya- that's what I call my wolf she speaks to me often and dictates to me my feelings so I can understand them fully.
I begin pacing back and forth, up and down and across the dirt. Stomping my paws deep into the earth. How? Why? I'm lost how did I let this happen how could I be so stupid. All day I have had a bad feeling never once did it cross my mind that my mate would be the one to hurt me today. Not only is it my birthday, but today was supposed to change our lives and we would be one entirely.
My wolf is howling in pain feeling her mate ripped from her, and I know it's my fault. I made us suffer because of my actions we know this pain. I thought we could be together. I knew the consequences of my actions, each wolf has a destined mate. Here I was thinking that the world was kind and who I chose could love me back. Not the case my wolf gives her snarky remark.
We chose each other, we wanted to love each other, and be there for one another but no that's not what I got, I got my heart broke in front of the whole pack and our guest. I want the ground to swallow me whole. I fall to the ground shifting back into my human form and put on the clothes hidden in the tree.
I hear the bushes behind me, Russel, a little, and I turn my head down towards the ground. Ashamed of the way I behave how I just ran away. Leaving him there with his mate, and everyone I hold dear.
I don't want to look at anyone. I heard the whispers the gasps and even a few laughs. I heard everything. Lynette my Alpha calls and I answer him with a shaky breath, whatever it is you want to say just say it. I pick at an imaginary strong on the arm of my shirt.
I don't want to see the guilt in his eyes. He was also the one that told me if it takes my mind off things it was good to use Anthony as a distraction. “Big Mistake” on my part and I don't want his pity. Do you think mom and dad are upset with me for messing things up the way that I have? I think they're proud of who you are becoming this is a bump in the road that's it nothing to get worked up about.
I sigh heavily into my chest. This is the moon goddess way of telling me I don't get to decide and I have to deal with the consequences. She's taking everything from me all stripped away one by one. Including Anthony which was never rightfully mines but mines are still the same.
Not looking back I cry out it's ok Alpha, you have a million other things to do. Don't worry yourself, with my problems I'm a big girl I can figure it out or mess it up again, you don't need to stick around t see it. Hearing the sound of bones cracking and clothes shuffling I'm sure he just shifted and put on some clothes as well.
Lynette, it's his loss, he says nearing me and I fill my wall beginning to break. I whip my head towards him quickly. What has he lost? He has gained another mate and I'm sure he will walk away the moment I give him an out. My screams came out mean and distasteful.
He doesn't hide or cower away, he pays no attention to the way I'm beginning and I'm grateful at least for that. He could just command me to let him go in his Alpha tone but he doesn't He listens quietly while my rant goes on and on.
We've known each other forever my mom and his mom, my previous luna were best friends and because of that, we were pretty close too. We grew up together raised as brother and sister so he looks out for me a lot more since my parents died.
More so I know he thinks it is his job. I respect him as my alpha but there are times like these where I'm grateful to have him, he and his mate my Luna never misses a beat that's why I will gladly follow him wherever he leads. I shake my head and sigh Alpha I've made a fool of myself, haven't I?
He shakes his head no. Placing his hand at my shoulder pulling me into a tight side hug. You haven't Net, it happens to the best of us your not the only one who's fallen in love with someone she was directly mated to. I'm sure you won't be the last. Yeah that all sounds good, but we all can guess what the crowd back there is saying about it.
I laugh and shake my head but I have, I reply low and quietly kicking the dirt up from the earth. He folds his arms across his chest, Lynette loving someone can never be wrong. You can't let fear in now your just getting strong again.
Yeah but it's wrong if what you choose rather it be something or someone it can never really be yours. I now understand that Anthony can never be mine. Looking up into his eyes my tears began to pool. I try to blink them back a couple more times but it doesn't work the dame opens and my eyes flood.
I saw the look In his eyes, I saw how with just one look he looked complete. I couldn't compete with the mate bond if I tried. I need to go away for a little while I sniffle letting fresh air enter my lungs, closing my eyes leaning against the old oak tree.
I should probably tell you first, Alpha “I'm pregnant”! I was waiting for tonight to tell him. To tell everyone, I thought it would give more meaning to us as a whole. I have made my decision though and I'm going to do it as quickly as possible.
I'm going to release him and let him go. I don't know what to do about the pup. I was thinking I could call up a doctor and get it taken care of if I went away. He gives me a look of disbelief. Don't Chris, just don't If I have him who will want me?
Alpha Chris sighs, Lynette you can't be thinking what I think you are thinking. I'm thinking it might be better this way Alpha. That's an innocent child and if I remember correctly you've always wanted to have children. Yeah, that's when I thought they would come up in a two-parent home filled with laughter and love now I don't even see that in my future.
Hanging my head sadly my eyes glossing over again my emotions a wreck my body tired and my mind racing. My hands trembling from the adrenaline rush, I'm scared I reply, voice stIll to hoarse from my crying so it sounds like a whisper.
Alpha Chris was walking over to shush away my sobs When small voice booms over his shoulder. We won't let you do it alone, my Luna Nina approaches and grabs me in her arms. Hugging me tightly gave me comfort and still, my bones shook with a different type of pain. One they would never know because they have each other.
Since before your parents passed we've been family and that's never going to change. I lean into her hug and burst into tears, Moon Goddess why me, “why me”. What have I done to suffer loss after loss this isn't fair? I cry until my eyelids are heavy and I blackout.
I awake in my bed with a slight headache it must be from all the crying. I sit up and look at my surroundings everything here holds memories. Memories with him I jump out of bed my wolf is pissed my claws extend and I began tearing pictures off the wall. Extending my claws I began shredding everything. Clawing my walls ripping them to shreds as tears are pooling but they haven't felt. They refuse to fall. My wolf howls in agony and my knees buckle in the living room. I've shredded everything to pieces my knuckles are bloody and I'm breathing heavy. I hear a car door slam outside and footsteps quickly approaching. There's a knock on the door. I don't need to see who it is cause I smelled him as soon as he pulled up its no longer just his earthly sent which means they completed the mating process. I stand to my feet and wipe my eyes, I open the door and there Anthony is standing with his head c
With tears falling from my eyes I said this to him hoping he would give me at least this. I can't leave the pack unless I'm mated outside the pack you've mated so your mate comes to our pack. I'm asking you to know that my heart won't be mended and every day I get to see on repeat my heartbreak again and again 💔. He sighs and looks at my eyes reading me to see if what I'm saying is true and I'm sure he sees it. I Anthony Johnson of the Dakota Sunrise pack release you, Lynette Childs. He says this and I release the breath I've been holding and nod. I look up and he has a single tear that has escaped as he steps past me. He turns and says no matter what Lil lady I will always love you. I couldn't let him finish I turned away and he walked out. The door closed and my heart broke into a million little pieces. I clutched my stomach and bent down onto the ground it was a searing pain ripping through me. I min
Three days later and I'm standing in the dinning hall.Seeing that I can't train anytime soon I've been helping with cooking duties and pack cleaning duties which is OK for now it's a welcomed distraction.Placing the food on the main table I turn around and see Anthony and his mate.Ashley tells me her name is Mia.She is pretty, she dangles on his arm as I use too.I sigh put my head down and head back towards the kitchen almost making it when our beta Joe calls my name from across the room.I turn to him and glare lifting my head I see everyone's eyes on me all this pitty in one room is depressing.Approaching the head table I smile greeting my Alpha and Luna I glare at beta Joe.What I snap kinda harshly so he knows I'm pissed.He smiles there's my girl he says and winks at me.He must know about everything.He so annoying, we are all pretty close these guys are my only family.I grind my teeth a
Alpha Thanks!I will leave immediately. Are you sure you can spend the rest of the week here and leave Friday.No I think it's better if I leave now I don't won't anyone to suspect anything it's better this way. Can you meet me here in the next hr or two I will be ready to take my leave.Ending the mind link I got up and went to pack my things.I moved into my mom room because I couldn't bear to sleep in my room. As I'm close to finishing packing I come across an old high school picture of us all.I smiled that's when life made sense, I pack the picture away it will be my reminder of how you were to come about little one patting my stomach I stand from the bed giving the room one last look over.Down stairs I make a list of things I will need once I arrive there.I write my friends letters explaining I've taken a trip and not to worry but I'm sure they will be the first to pick up and look for me.I will ask Bet
Standing straight I look into his eyes.Hello I'm Lynette Childs thank you very much for extending me this warm welcome.Extending my hand for a hand shake.I take notice that he has frown lines and his eyes are flashing that dangerous color of green and silver, he looks up and ask your mate?I look at Alpha Chris confused.He looks at Alpha Zeke and I reply I'm sorry I'm not mated is that a problem he growls and I jump in fear my Alpha pushes me behind him ready to defend.He stops when Alpha Zeke says you dare to protect my mate against me.Everyone eyes snapped back to me and then him, seeing the swirling of his eyes change color I step back until I've reached the door.Getting ready to open and escape when a strong hand gripped my elbow and stopped me.Everyone out he says in a dangerously dark voice.I try to step forward his grip tightens, everyone but you he says as his eyes flash darkly again.I mee
I wasn't looking for anything to commit to then.I was happy and still waiting to be mated we dated for three years before I let him even kiss me.My mom and dad went patrolling one night and never made it home they died patrolling our boarders doing a rouge attack.I looked for some one to console me and ease my pain. I prayed to the moon goddess every night for you but you were here and we knew nothing about each other.I decided I couldn't be alone so I decided to accept him as my mate to choose my own happiness.Laughing to keep from crying I look up into his eyes and I had it for two beautiful years we were the picture perfect couple in love happy and planning.My twenty first birthday was last Friday and during my birthday celebration the mate that I chose meet his mate.I'm here because I'm broken and I can't heal there. I've released him and he is now happily mated, which means she is now apart of my pack.Which
I look up into his eyes Alpha Zeke, yes he replies.I'm sorry he looks at me and crosses his hands over his chest.For he replies?I scratch the side of my head and sigh for all of this I'm the reason there's a rift between us upon meeting I'm the cause of all my problems and of that I am aware.I'm not asking for your forgiveness I'm not deserving of it.You've known me all of an hour but I can feel the weight that I've placed upon your shoulder.I can't have you thinking some how it's a fault of yours it's not.I'm not favored by the moon goddess and the things I love most have all been snatched from me.Pointing at myself this is all I have to offer but we are a package deal if your decision doesn't include my child it will not include me. I'm prepared to suffer the lost of losing you for my weaknesses but I can't punish an innocent child who didn't ask to be here.I know I've just said alot and we are s
I jolted awake at five am startled by the figure standing near the window. I grab the sheet tight around me as my eyes adjust to the darkness and my wolf vision kick in. Alpha Zeke, I say my breathing irregular his eyes flashing that green and silver color that draws me near. I take notice that it isn't alpha Zeke in control right now he steps into the light given by the moon he stops at the end of my bed. I swallow he looks at my head to toe and beacons me to him I move slowly but I still move. I stop at the end of the bed my hands protectively around my stomach his eyes watch my motions and he speaks mate. I feel my wolf come forward my eyes flash over and I reply mate. We stare into each other eyes not moving our wolves communicating but neither of us trying to take control back. I'm the first to break the trance. Alpha his wolf looks displeased his eyes flash over and he is back. Lynette? Yes,