Tina's POVSimonโs face turns back to bearing a look of indifference minutes after we leave the vicinity of the restaurant, keeping a straight face throughout the drive throughHe was taking this pact a little too seriously, considering the fact he was bristling with annoyance and disgust just minutes ago and now his face was back to that of someone with no care in the world surprised meI keep throwing furtive glances at him through the front mirror as I drive, hoping for a change, a crack in his perfect demeanor, but he didnโt falter, eyes fixated on the phone in his handsAfter a while he raises his head to look up at the mirror and my eyes snap back to the road hoping he didnโt notice my eyes on himI chance a glance at him again after a moments silence, I see his eyes were closed and he relaxed on the head rest, breathing evenlyHe looked peaceful, his chest rising and falling evenly like he was asleepI looked at him a little longer only glancing at the road once in a wh
Remote in my hands, I turn the TV off with a smile still on my face, I donโt miss the smile and wave Adam sends my way as he trudged out of Simonโs officeI wave back at him with a smile, regret prickling in my heart at how I had been unable to catch up with Adam for the past few days, โAt least he waved at me happily', I think, hoping he understood the reason for my scarcenessโIt's kind of hard to interact with coworkers when Iโm a preoccupied with Simon'โWhy are you standing there, smiling at the door', Simonโs voice drawls snapping me out of my reverieโWhy donโt you get on with it, thereโs work to do', I turn towards him and whip my phone into my hands, โYouโre free for the rest of today', I read out his schedule to himโGood, arrange for a press conference to take place in ten minutes'โI suppose I should put them out of their misery', a smirk makes it's way onto Simon's face, surprising me and sending my heart into a galloping frenzy at how hot it made him lookThat
Tina's POVThe eyes sweeps past me noticing nothing, and as I retreat back into hiding my heart jumps into my throat, breaths coming out in gaspsโWhat was Adam doing with a reporter, in a hidden place such as a stairwell', suspicions racked through me and I feel my trust for him slipping โI should have known, when he said he was once a reporter', I rest my head on my arms a bone racking tiredness styling into meโHe was once one of them, if course he would give them information, why did I trust him', I feel my breaths coming in gasps even as I rested thankful that I at least had not revealed that Ajax was Simonโs son.Why did I trust so easily', I scold myself repeatedlyโI should have known when he said he graduated with honors, that kind of person would not leave the profession that easilyโ, I sat still in place feeling the cold feeling of betrayal spread through me over and overWrapping my hands around myself, I sit still in that position not minding the void that told me
Tina's POVTears burned onto the edge of my vision and I force them back, blinking furiouslyโWas I asking the impossibleโ, I push the button for the elevator and wait for it to arrive raising my head up trying to suppress tears threatening to cloud my eyesโIs it too much for him to admit I wasnโt nothing to him', I blow out a breath and walk in pushing the button for the ground floor.โI wasnโt even expecting him to confess feelings for me'โAn apology was all I needed' I wait patiently, the foot of my heel tapping the floor as I wait for the elevator to get to my destination.โWas I expecting the impossible, for him to actually admit he cared for me'The door slides open and I hurry out, heading for the exit that would take me out of the building bearing Simon within it's wallsAnger and frustration fought for dominance inside me and the tears in my eyes burned bitterWalking briskly towards the exit, I almost jump out of my skin when a hand encloses around my wrist, whirli
I woke up with a start, bleary eyes blinking open to a tiny glimmer of sunshine escaping through the side of the curtainโWhat theโฆ.โ, I bolt upright in bed, reaching for my alarm and wondering as horror spread through my insides the reason why it had not rangโWhat am I doing in bed when the sun is already up',I clammer to grab the alarm at my bed post bringing it to my half lidded eyes and peering at it.โ8:15โ, โShitโ, my eyes blinks wide open, jolted from my half asleep state by the timeScrambling out of bed, my leg tangles with the sheets and I land smack on the floor bruising my pyjamas covered kneesโOooww!!, damned blanketโ, I curse, trying to free my leg from the twisted blanket,Turning and reaching upwards, I turn trying to grab hold of the blanket that held my leg in a vice like grioBlinking in pain, I see Ajax still curled up in bed, holding tightly to the blanket I was trying my hardest to get out ofI blink again, โstrangeโ,โEven on the days I slept thro
โRepeat after me', I stare at her, incredulity crossing my face as she points two fingers in the air, beside her face, she grabs my arm and makes me do the same after few moments of staring,โI solemnly swear', I repeat her wordsโTo put myself first, above assholes who refuse to make their intentions clearโ, I couldnโt help it, a laugh bursts from my lips and she mock glares at me.I repeat after her stifling a giggle,โHe hates me, so I hate him all the more' The giggle burst forth, and I feel lighterโThis is a serious matter', Bella bumps her fist on my upper arm, pursing her lipsI nod enthusiastically raising my fingers higher.โI donโt care if he's treated worse than dirt', she used my earlier words and I repeat after her againโI matter more', after I repeat it, she drops her arm,โLet that mantra keep playing in your head', she glares at me again and I nodโUntil he says otherwise, and proves his words with actions, he remains the cowardly asshole who condemned yo
โYouโre late', Simon says immediately I entered, his eyes on his computer, not even sparing me a glance,โJustโฆโโAgain!!!', he interrupts my prepared excuse.โIt's just 10 secโฆ.โ, โWhat's on my schedule for the rest o the day', he interrupts me again, dismissing my excuse,โAsshole', I curse in my mind as I look through my phone for the next appointment.โMeeting with the PR department in 30 minutes and after that youโre free',โGood', I hear the mirth in his slightly elevated voice, surprise filling me.It quickly turns to disappointment and the change in his tone,โSo you wouldnโt have remembered that if you didnโt look at your phone', his voice drawls out, eyes still glued to his computer screen,โWhโฆwhatโฆโ, I splutter out.โDo your job properly', I stand there, mouth slightly open at this new direction he's coming from.His tone of voice and the fact that he had not even looked at me since I entered had me minutes from cursing out loud,I raise a fist and shake it i
One could hear a pin drop from the silence that reigned in the room after the presentation,As Simon smiles, the presenter goes paper white, hand gripping the podium for dear life.โOops', the quiet sound drops from my lips in a whisper as a scoff passes through Simon's lips.Standing up suddenly, the pin drop silence is only interrupted by the sound of raucous clapping,A manic smile on his face, an icy glint in his eyes, his hands hitting each other in a mocking clap, the temperature in the room drop further.The sound stops suddenly, as quickly as it had started,โNo one goes home until you fix this nonsense', โOops', the sound falls from my lips in that whisper again as Simon speaks in that bone chilling voice.He turns and walks towards the door and I stand up hurrying at his back, At the door, he turns back, eyes fixated on Miss Debra,โFix it', she visibly gulps at the stare and voice in her direction nodding her head like a broken doll.I hurry after him as he exi
Then Iโm marching away from him, stomping back inside, away from cool evening air and the ellipse pool that reminded me of our stolen moments together,With relief I find that Simon doesnโt follow as I hear no footsteps from behind me.As I move back up the stairs, my stomp gradually reduces into a walk, red clearing from my vision,My shoulders are slumped again when I get to the room that had my son in it,Unbelief crowds into my head, realization dawning on me.I push open the door, to see Ajax occupied with one of the numerous action figures on the shelves, โLetโs go home', his face falls, but he gets up, lifting toy Spiderman with him,I walk in, picking up his bag, and hitching it on my shoulder then I hold his hand in mine,โArenโt we going to say bye to dad', Ajax pauses and looks up at me as we walk out of the room,โI said bye to him alreadyโ, I pull at his hand and he follows nodding.We walk down the stairs and my heart stops when I see Simon standing at the foo
โYour son', I scoff loudly, repeating his words.โAnd what gave you the notion that he your son',โWhat makes you so sure', my soles scuff tiles as I start pacing the length of the yard, letting some of my pent up anger leak out through my steps,โReally Tina', he calls my name, and the displeasure in his words match mine,โAre we really going to sit here and debate Ajax's paternityโ, his voice is gruff, dropping lower with each word,โHeโs not', I shake my head from left to right as I pass Simonโs front repeatedly in my pacing,โYou told him yourselfโ, it rises again, โAjax confirmed it', he grabs my hand again, forcing me to look at him.โEven a child!!โ, his face is all hardness, jaw clenched and grinding, as he punctuates the word,โEven a child can see that we're father and son', his voice is gruff, as he finishes and his eyes darken, stormy orbs in a face of fury.I try to turn away from him, to turn away from his fury that infuriated me further, and continue pacing.
The door swings shut behind me, The noise of my sneakers hitting cement as I rushed along the driveway echoed in my ears,Drowning out the sound of the grass swaying gently in the evening breeze, louder than the sound of birds chirping from the trees,I side step the water fountain without so much as a glance at its sculpted glory,My eyes rests on those large double doors, that separated me from my son, willing it to disintegrate,Instead it does something different, swinging open, parting slowly, revealing Simon as I stomp up tiled steps.The large smile on his face was nonexistent to me, his arms open wide in greeting a momentary confusion as I sidestep him, pushing into the mansion, My heart was beating too fast in my chest, my footsteps echoing too loud in my ears for me too even regard him,To even do the simple task of asking his reason,So I ignore him, turning laser-like focus on finding my son and getting out of this largeness that had me feeling like I was drowni
Air got sucked from my lungs, like I just received a strike to the gut,โNo', I shake my head as my grip on my phone tightens,โThat canโt be true', my head keeps turning from left to right in unbelief as the click of the call ending sounded.I take the phone off my ear, bring it to the front of my face,โThat canโt be possibleโ, my brain felt waterlogged, my ears clogged as the noise of school children fades out.The only sound around was my heart, beating like the tick of a clock, resounding in my ears, echoing in my head,โNo', I shake my head again and call his school teacher,โSheโs probably mistakenโ,โThere was no way he could be with Simon', My fingers shake against my screen as I scroll through my contacts,The first call goes to voicemail, โPick up for Christ sakeโ, I swear under my breathe, dialing her number again,โCould it be Adam?โโBut he would never refer to himself as Ajaxโs fatherโ, my mind swirls as the phone rings on, no sign of it being picked up.
By the time it was lunch my head was on a spin, on a whirlpool of frustration, I sat still, my hands folded in my lap,but my heart was on fire, my mouth burned like I was chewing on hot gum.The heat bled onto my palms, drawing sweat, that I wiped repeatedly against ash-gray pants, โAt this point, I will never be able to tell him', I mused as I stared at the dark streaks my hands created, the creases from repeatedly fisting it's fabric in my hands.โIf only he didnโt smile those face splitting smiles whenever our eyes metโโIf only he didnโt look at me with such affection in his eyes'โMaybe it would be easier to tell him if I wasnโt riskโฆ.โ,โWhere should we eat todayโ, my musings get interrupted and I look up at him.Weโd been so absorbed with each other the last week yet anytime my eyes met those ones shining with affection, a wave of unfamiliarity courses through me, a war between elation and fear ensues.โLetโs just order in', I hide my surprise, the battle raging in
Time moved slowly, sluggishly, like my heart,It's sound, a turbid rhythm in my chest, like wading in mud water, dragging my head through varying degrees of shock,Of all things I anticipated, expected, planned for, this was the least of them.I didn't even think it possible, it was not a scenario I saw happening, My eyes watch, sluggishly, same as my heart at the teardrop that track Ajax's cheek trailing onto his lap.โHe's dad, isnโt he?โ, he says it again, and my head rears back in a whiplash.The fact that he repeated it, a statement this time, proved the extent of the situation, it was a testament to how much of a mess I was in.โWhy is he not here with us?'โDid he do something bad?', โIs dad a bad man?โ, with each question, his voice raises, bordering on hysterics, fat tears rolling down his cheeks.โWhy donโt you want me to meet him?', he asks again, yet my mind travels, trying to pinpoint what could have given it away,I had been very careful to never mention the
For a moment I considered coming clean, telling him the truth of a son he never knew about, but the fear in my heart was stronger,So I chew slowly, bidding my time to formulate something believable, something that wouldnโt allow the serious expression his face had taken into something darker.I tried to formulate something that would allow me to keep this warm bubble we had built around ourselves,A bubble I was not keen on letting go off so soon.My head was a mess, strung between telling the truth and fumbling for lies,I had thought I was over this, relief had filled me when I found that he didnโt hear Ajaxโs name fro Lisa's lips.I finish chewing and keep the smile on my face, deciding on the easy way out,โHeโs no one you should be bothered about', it was hard, dismissing my son as someone unimportant, yet it was easier than risking him taking Ajax away from me.I hoped it would be enough for him, my reassurance would be enough to quell questions he was suddenly keen on
Relief floods my insides and I let out a breath I didnโt know I was holding in as the bell jangled, signifying their exit.โIโll be back in a minute', standing up, I head to the table they just left, clearing the pile of coloring books and crayons.Head chef had been so nice, allowing Ajax and Lisa in the restaurant for as long as they liked, but it wonโt be fair to hog a table after they were gone, so I clear them up heading to the back room and placing them with Bella's things.I catch a glance of Cathyโs befuddled expression as I enter, knowing she would have pelted me with questions if she wasnโt attending to a customer.Stepping out, sheโs done and I take a deep breath waiting for the maelstrom to begin.โThatโs Simon Valero right, theee Simon Valero', she draws closer to me and I stare, patiently nodding as she fires,โOnly son and child of Alicia Valero?, heir to SM group Simon Valero?โ, her voice pitches with the last question and I finally use my words.โYeees', โTo
โYou know you have to stop looking at the door whenever a customer walks in, youโre no longer a waitress', the sound of Bella's voice trickles to me, sounding at the back of my mind,Her statement was inconsequential in comparison with the drop of my heart to the pit of my stomach, the look of horror making a home on my faceโYou're aโฆ..โ, she trails off as she follows my line of sight to the source of my predicament,โUh oh!โ, she exclaims,Simon had walked in and was currently looking about the restaurant, a relaxed air about himI drop my head between my hands, hiding behind my hair, hoping he hadnโt seen me.โThatโs very fruitless, he has seen you already', I glance up again and my eyes meet eyes that lights up immediately they meet mine.โWhat in the world is he doing here?โ, I whisper yell, asking Bella and she shrugs,I quickly smoothen out my face, wipe horror off it as I face a smiling Simon sashaying towards me.My eyes turn towards the corner where Ajax and Lisa we