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12TH HEARTBEAT
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2023-02-07 03:50:34
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The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 13TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSโNo effinโ way!โ Nikki exclaimed expressing her utter shock when I got to lunch with them. The first thing I did was to reveal to them that Iโm paired up with Xavier Rockwell for our sex education assignment.โUgh, can you fucking believe that I was paired up with him of all people?โ I trailed off.โDid you at least asked Mrs. Harding for a switch?โ Jane inquired. Her bag of flour was just sitting idly right beside her food as if it was an actual baby but really, it was just a bag of flour.I lazily stared at my own food. โI did and she wasnโt budging at all.โโWell, thatโs unfortunate.โ Nikki chimed in. โYou are definitely going to be a punching bag, Jordi.โ Nikki added and perhaps sheโs forty percent right about that. I donโt think this new Xavierโs planning on poking fun at me which was hard to believe but thatโs what Iโm seeing right now. Forty percentโs still a huge number if we are going to talk about percentage rate and math shit but Xavierโs acting weirdly differe
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-10The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 14TH HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLThe pang of embarrassment finally took its toll on me and I ended up running away from the house party. This was the very first time that I declined a very consensual offer coming from a fuckable chick and Iโm surprised about that. Nixon knew my type when it comes to a woman and Iโm pretty sure thatโs the reason why Nixon introduced me to her. Francine was really hot and wild. I would totally smash her down but I donโt know what the fuckโs wrong with me. When she pulled me upstairs, I was under the impression that I was into the moment. And then I just realized that Iโm not even having a simple hard-on even when sheโs already jiggling her bosoms in front of my face.When I finally got home that night, I found my mother and Hector having their very own intimate session inside the one bedroom that we all share. Luckily, the door was shut closed that I didnโt have to accidentally witness both of them touching each other. My motherโs a screamer and Hector really cuss a lot
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-11The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 15TH HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLStriking a conversation with Jordi alone was insanely difficult even when the odds essentially paired me up with him. Not only that Iโm feeling a sense of tension every time Iโm looking at him but I also feel like heโs itching to slit my throat or probably disembowel me or maybe push me off a cliff. I most probably deserve all of that.I sat with him right after we got our little bag of flour and everything seemed awkward between us. He doesnโt even want to talk to me, let alone smile at me that I had to take a few seconds to muster enough courage.โAhem...โ I donโt have any sort of phlegm or lump in my throat but I purposely cleared my throat loud enough just to gain the confidence that I needed in order to begin this conversation. I already knew I had his attention since heโs been looking at me dead in the eye for quite some time.โWhat?โ He spat.I couldnโt even look at him straight in the eye for a hot minute. Maybe because I was afraid that I might just make thing
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-13The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 16TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSThings happened way too fast that I wasnโt given the chance to react or even budge. Xavier pinned me against the locker and the next thing I know; he was already kissing me. Xavierโs wet tongue skillfully slithered all the way inside my mouth. In the depths of my head, I was critically thinking of resisting him yet my body doesnโt seem like it wants to exhibit some sort of resistance. Am I starting to become a slave of this?To be perfectly honest, I havenโt kissed a lot of people before mostly because I havenโt met anyone whoโs truly interested in me. As a matter of fact, Xavier was the only person that Iโve kissed so far and I will say, heโs got the skills. His mouth and tongue were aggressive and yet gentle at the very same time.He sucked my lower lip and I am just letting him devour me as if my mouthโs a sweet and slushy mango fruit. It seemed that I am losing oxygen and I donโt know why Iโm starting to feel like Iโm into it again. Apart from gasping for air, I feel
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-13The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 17TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSAm I in a hazy fever dream or everythingโs happening in reality? Is Xavier really apologizing for all of the shitty things that heโs done to me? Is he really regretting making my life a living hell? I have never thought of that kind of scenario, not in a million human years but here he is, sitting all calm and serious right in front me.โIโm going to start by saying Iโm sorry. I really want to apologize for making your life a living hell.โ The words echoed back and forth inside my head. Although I should feel good that he had decided to swallow whatever bull crap his having and finally stepped down from his asshole high horse, Iโm still in great shock. I couldnโt bring myself to grasp the situation. I donโt know exactly if Iโm more than willing to forget that I wanted to slit his throat, that I wanted to feed him to the lions, that I wanted to just pop him off to existence.โI donโt exactly know how could I make up to you but Iโm really really sorry for every single horri
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-15The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 18TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSOh boy, was it undoubtedly worthy saying yes to Xavierโs simple favor. He just wanted to talk and yes, the reason why Iโm not initially willing to budge in was because I detested him that much. I didnโt realize that me waking up in bed with him fully naked would eventually change the course of our relationship. He just admitted to me that he liked kissing me and should I be flattered? Am I a good kisser even though Iโm aware that heโs the only person Iโve kissed so far? Should I feel like Iโm a special person for that?Xavier motherfucking Rockwell have had the biggest character curve ball in less than a month and Iโm super gagged to the core. One day he was just beating the shit out of me and the next thing I know; he was begging for a kiss. Isnโt that wild? It is really wild and to think that what happened earlier was like some sort of a freaky Friday but itโs on Tuesday was unbelievable.It took me more than three hours before drowsiness visited me and thatโs mostly be
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-16The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 19TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSXavierโs smile was just bright as the sunshine. I wasnโt expecting that such serene curve hanging on his quite dashy face would make me go insane on the inside. His eyes seemed like they were glistening and his overall aura brought a different energy to the table.I have never seen him like this but yes, I secretly admired him and the seemingly drastic changes. I love that a simple conversation without any certain malice would bring out this bright and friendly looking Xavier.โXavier!โ Janeโs voice echoed subsequently pulling me back to reality.โAhem... Yeah, that seatโs not taken.โ I could feel my chest pumping faster like Iโve been running for quite a mile. I tried to be calm.โThank you.โ Xavier gently placed Billie right next to Janeโs very own bag of flour.โAwww, your baby looked cuuutee.โ Jane squealed the instant she saw the face drawn on Billie. โDid you draw that Xavier?โโYes, I did.โโYes, he did.โ Xavier and I both replied in unison.โOoookay?โ Jane gave us
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๋ฐ์ดํธ : 2023-02-17The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 20TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSWhatever happened to the hate that I have amassed for Xavier was slowly being drained by his simple apology. And somehow the weirdest part of this plot twist was all me becoming weak on my knees around Xavier when Iโm clearly aware that itโs not healthy. Whoever thinks that being all sort of forgiving towards the person who bullied them for quite a long time is an insane person. Thatโs exactly me, I am an insane person and honestly, Iโm okay with it. This seemed to be leading to something that would change the course of my life and to be perfectly blunt with myself, Iโm ready for an adventure.I just donโt have any idea if Jane and Nikki would really understand me. Maybe theyโre okay with it, maybe theyโre not okay with it. Itโs really up in the air. If theyโre both trying to be their own woke selves, then Iโm horribly fucked.I may have my own reasons for accepting Xavierโs apology and Iโm going to stick by that. The hate that I used to have for this ginger head was slow
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The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย THE 100TH AND FINAL HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSThe stars have gone out their way to align just for Xavier and I. Thatโs how Iโve been thinking for the past week ever since he agreed to be my prom date. Recovering our relationship wasnโt as easy as eating a slice of a fraudulently healthy carrot cake or travelling a path where you have already traveled before but it did happen. Xavier just lost his mom but it ended up becoming the reason for us to reconnect and come back even stronger. We bonded over losing one of the person that we love the most in the milky way.For him, it was his own mother and for me, it was my own grandmother. Itโs clearly not a similar situation but thereโs a clear path where it converges at the very center and it a very endearing moment where we just talked about how life is short and that you should live like thereโs no tomorrow. Live like thereโs no tomorrow, love intensely as if you donโt have anything else to give and laugh hard to your heartโs content; thatโs what Xavier taught me.โOh my
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 99TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSEver since the unfortunate passing of Xavierโs mom, he has been such a fun type of lad to hang out with quite surprisingly. It was initially difficult and confusing for me to adjust from this new whole new Xavier but I will admit, I am loving it as much as how I fell in love with the old Xavier.When my grandma passed away, I was in the longest state of shock and sorrow but eventually, I ultimately I learned how to recover from such loss. Xavier on the other hand, while Iโm aware that he had cried a lot during his motherโs passing, he bizarrely took a hard left in probably the most positive way that Iโve seen of him. He said heโs going to live his best life and I donโt even have anything bad to say about his decisions in life.I took the ride with him and it has been the most fun and carefree adventure that Iโve ever had in my life. Initially, I had lots of doubts and confusions about Xavierโs intensely positive behavior but ultimately, as time passed by, I ended up falli
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 98TH HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLThe day of the funeral came just as quickly as I lost my own mother and honestly speaking, I wasnโt, in any means, ready to get up from my bed and slip unto something somber and black. I only had a two hours of sleep because I spent the entire night quietly sobbing inside my room. After all, it is the only time that I could cry and cry and really cry hard without thinking about nobody.I couldnโt stop thinking about my mom and how I shouldโve been present for her. I am absolutely aware of the lingering fact that she was struggling and I was entirely glad that she finally decided to checked herself into a rehab. However, you donโt really know whatโs going on inside peopleโs mind even if they say theyโre fine and they say theyโre ready for a change. I donโt really have any sort of idea if my mom just gave into the temptation of the outside world or if Hector somehow managed to talk her out if or even possibly bribed her with something or if she just missed sniffing powde
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 97TH HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLHugging Jordi Adkins for the first time in a very long while was just the thing that I needed at this point in my life. At first, Jordi was clearly astounded when I first yanked him over into a desperate hug but eventually, he returned the favor and it was just as soothing as I expected it to be. Itโs the kind of embrace that Iโve been longing for and Iโm finally having it. It felt good to be here with Jordi because I donโt know if I could take whatโs happening around in my life anymore.Itโs been a while since Iโve been treating Jordi like he does not exist in my very own universe. I tried to fix it with him when I met the couple Dominic and Valentine but since then, I havenโt really had the best time to even focus on getting Jordi back. When I went to Jordiโs house, I felt super disappointed by the fact that heโs already going out with someone else just a few weeks after I ended things with him. It was mindboggling to be perfectly honest. And when I got back home, th
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 96TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSโX-xavier?โ Nikki was taken by a huge surprise just as she recognized the guy inside the yellow sports car.โOh my god, itโs Xavier.โ Jane whispered behind my ears but I was already having a lot of mixed emotions swirling up inside of me.My heart began to beat twice as fast and I donโt know if I was ready to see Xavier just as early as now. Itโs true that I missed him so badly and I donโt even want to admit that to myself because Iโm trying to get past him. Apparently, I have a long way to go now that I saw him today. I feel like Iโm about to throw up but I also feel like Iโm about to pass out at the very same time.Xavier looked amazingly different and that was the part of me whoโs still hoping that we could fix this speaking on my behalf. He dyed his hair black and he looked bizarrely different but still hot as ever. I felt a slight pang on my chest and it seemed that my tongue got cut off.โIโm sorry, Nikki.โ Xavier uttered.โOh, shit. You dyed your hair black?โ Nikki
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 95TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSI woke up with the slow golden light of midday filtering through my window. I forgot how many days it has been until I walked out of my room and then I realized today was already the twenty-fourth. It seemed to me like it was just a blink of an eye but I guess thatโs all because the days were pretty much uninteresting. Iโm doing nothing but showing up for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Iโve been sleeping for so long that it became an underlying concern for my protective mother. She said that sleeping for more than eight hours was a simple sign of sorrow that could lead to depression. I guess she was right about it. I am really that much depressed and she completely knows why. I donโt even know why Iโm getting so mopey when Iโve been trying my best to block Xavierโs unrelenting presence off of my mind.It was just a few hours left before Christmas and this year, one thing is for sure, Iโm not much excited as I was last year or the year before that and the year before that ye
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 94TH HEARTBEAT
JORDI ADKINSIt was the smell of alcohol evaporating from my body mixed with a banging headache that got me running towards the toilet when I woke up from going to that house party Nikki invited us into. I was throwing up so badly that I almost felt like Iโm going to start barfing all of my insides. I was hugging the toilet bowl as if it was the only friend I have in this trying times.I spent almost half an hour on the bathroom floor thinking Iโm dying up until the moment my mom knocked on the door. I instantly felt good when I heard her screaming out my name. There seemed to be some sort of a healing power coming from her voice that made me stand up from hugging the toilet seat.โJordi, Are you okay in there, sweetie?โโYes, mom. Iโm just throwing up, Iโm fine. Donโt worry about me.โ I yelled back.โOh, Iโm not worried about you, sweetie. Iโm just knocking to remind you that you need to clean up your mess up in there. Thatโs what you get for overdrinking. I told you to drink moderat
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 93RD HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLXanderโs birthday party was well prepared for and it was as grand as the MET gala that thereโs even a photoshoot at the gate for every person arriving. I was just taking a peek on my window but I could see everything. I donโt think Iโve celebrated a birthday like this in my life. Though, to me, the way I see things panning out, this was going to be the last birthday that Xander was ever going to celebrate in this household. Xander mentioned that heโs going to be kicked out of the house once this party was over and I felt slightly bothered and sad by that.The outfit that was given to me to wear was draped on the bed and it was just waiting for me to slip on them for the entire hour. It was a yellow suit with touches of black and a few sparkling stones. I donโt even want to be invited to this party and thatโs all because Iโm developing such laziness. Iโm very lazy to go out there and meet new people.Right after slipping on the suit that was provided for me, I looked ov
The Badboy's Heartbeatย ย ย 92ND HEARTBEAT
XAVIER ROCKWELLThe dinner with my dadโs family did not go well just as I was expecting it. The tension within the family was very much evident from the get go. I may have unconsciously observed everything.My dad and his wife Rachel doesnโt have the best relationship of husband and wife and anyone couldโve guessed that right away. They werenโt very subtle with how theyโre treating each other even right in front of their children. In fact, I do remember my dad somehow loved my mother in a very different sense than what I just witnessed between him and his original wife and the mother of his three children. In this world, while itโs very much common that patriarchy is ruling, I have sensed Rachel was also after the money.Xiomara was that one member of the family who just doesnโt know how to adjust and is charged up with built-up anger and some nasty attitude. She hated everything and everyone. Iโm personally giving her the benefit of the doubt because I donโt have any idea of the thin
