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26TH HEARTBEAT

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JORDI ADKINS

“You saw us?” I almost barked out loud. Thankfully, there’s no one out of earshot by the bleachers and I was able to make all of the shocked sound and expression that I would’ve normally do. Hearing the confession come out of Nikki’s mouth was the only thing that I needed to make an actual conclusion. It’s most definitely the reason why she called me a liar in the first place.

“Yup, by the locker. I was just on my way to find you and I didn’t mean to pry but I saw everything and when I say everything, I saw you kissing him back.” Nikki continued. “Oh my god, Jordi!!! Is that actually your first kiss?” She squealed.

“Nikki—”

“Or maybe there’s something else that you’re not telling me about. Hhmmm?!!.”

“No, it is. It is my first kiss.” I nodded in utter defeat and I just realized that I needed to tell Nikki everything. I know we just had a fight and perhaps this was also the right time to finally tell her about me and Xavier.

“Xavier’s your first kiss? That fucking bastard!
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