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Elara’s pov
I woke to sunlight slicing through curtains that weren’t mine, and for a moment—just one soft, stupid moment, I let myself believe I was still dreaming.
Then the scent hit me. Cedar and rain. A scent I had memorized from a distance for six years without ever once thinking I’d wake up tangled in it.
I turned my head, and my heart stopped.
Damian Wolfe lay beside me, his chest rising and falling in sleep, the Alpha mark dark against his throat. My sister’s intended. The man the whole pack worshipped like something carved out of moonlight. The man I had loved hopelessly, secretly, shamefully, since I was twelve years old and old enough to understand that wanting him was the most dangerous thing I could do.
Memory came back in jagged pieces—the bonfire, the ache that had nothing to do with reason, the way his eyes had locked onto mine across the fire and gone wide with the same shock that must have been written all over my face. I had just turned eighteen the night before. It had been my first shift as an adult, and the moon had handed me the truth before it gave me anything else: he was mine. We were fated mates.
My chest filled with something I hadn’t let myself feel in years—hope, real and trembling and so big it scared me. Fated mates. The rarest gift the moon goddess gave anyone. Surely this changed everything.
Surely a man like Damian, who had never once looked at me like I existed, would have to look at me differently now. I pressed my hand flat against my own ribs, willing my heart to slow down, I wondered if he would choose me instead of my sister now.
He stirred. His eyes opened, found mine, and for one breathless second I saw the desires in his eyes, the same thing I felt humming under my skin. Then it was gone, snuffed out so fast I almost convinced myself I’d imagined it.
He was out of the bed before I could say a single word, dressing with sharp, efficient movements, his back to me like I was something he didn’t want to look at in daylight.
“Last night was an accident.” His voice was flat. “The moon does strange things to people. It won’t happen again.”
“Damian—” His name felt like glass in my mouth. “We’re mates. You felt it too. I know you did.”
“I felt a lot of things last night that don’t matter now that the sun’s up.” He turned, and his face had already closed itself off completely, like a door slamming shut on me from the inside.
“Whatever the bond decides, I have a duty to this pack. Nothing that happened here changes that.”
“But…….” I tried protesting but he cut me off.
“There is no but, what happened between us was just heat of the moment” he pause and look at me dejectedly before continuing “I, Damian Wolfe rejects you Elara as my fated mate”
I felt something crack open in my chest, quiet and total, the kind of breaking no one else would ever see. I had spent six years loving a guy who didn’t know I existed, and the one night the universe handed me a reason to hope, he was already burying it. I wanted to scream. I wanted to beg him to look at me the way he had for that one unguarded second. Instead I just sat there, frozen, humiliated by my own hope.
The door slammed open.
My sister Selene stood on the threshold, beautiful and trembling, one hand pressed over her mouth like she might be sick. Behind her, our mother—Yvonne, the only mother I’d ever known, the woman who had never once called me daughter without that familiar curl of disgust in her voice—took one look at the rumpled bed, at Damian’s open shirt, at my bare shoulders, and crossed the room in three furious strides.
The slap caught me so hard my vision went white at the edges.
“You shameless creature.” Her voice shook with rage. “Your sister’s intended, in her own pack house. Did you plan this? Did you scheme to ruin her happiness because you’ve never had any of your own?”
“It wasn’t……..I didn’t—” My cheek was on fire and my throat had closed up so tight the words couldn’t get past it.
Selene began shedding tears “I know she has always been jealous of me, I didn’t know she wanted my man, I would have left him for her” I knew those tears were fake, she just enjoyed seeing me in this position.
“Enough.” Damian’s voice cut through the room like a blade. “Last night was an accident. It changes nothing about my engagement to Selene.”
I flinched like he’d struck me too. My mother’s hand dropped. Selene made a small, wounded sound and pressed herself further into the doorframe, like she couldn’t bear to be in the same room as me.
Then our father stepped into view behind her, and the room went quiet in a different, colder way.
My father never raised his voice. He didn’t need to. “Pack her things,” he said, looking at me like I was a stranger who’d wandered into his house by accident. “She’ll be stripped of her beta status and reassigned to the omega quarters by morning.”
The floor seemed to drop away beneath me. Of everyone in this room, he was the only one whose love I’d spent my entire life trying to earn—ever since I was seven and overheard a servant whisper that I wasn’t truly Yvonne’s blood, that my real mother had been someone else, someone unspeakable. I had told myself for years that if I was just good enough, just quiet enough, just useful enough, he would eventually look at me the way he looked at Selene. That hope had been the one warm thing in a childhood made mostly of cold rooms and colder silences. And now I watched it die in real time, in his eyes, in front of everyone.
“Father, please.” My voice cracked apart. “It was an accident. The moon chose it, not me. I never wanted to hurt Selene, I swear it—”
“You shared a Luna’s bonding night with my future son-in-law,” he said, “and you expect me to believe it meant nothing.” His gaze was already sliding away from me, already finished. “I should have sent you to the omegas the day you were born.”
I turned to Damian, desperate, because he knew what had happened between us, knew it had been mutual and helpless and neither one’s doing. Surely he would say something. Anything.
He watched me with the same composed, distant expression he might give a stranger’s bad luck on the street. And in that silence, in the way his eyes refused to hold mine, I understood with a clarity that hurt worse than the slap: I was completely, utterly alone.
Chapter 7Damian’s POVI have sat through a hundred dinners like this one.Political dinners. Alliance dinners. Grief dinners, celebration dinners, dinners where the food is irrelevant and everything on the table is theater — the right wine, the right seating arrangement, the right amount of laughter at the right moments. I learned how to perform them before I was old enough to understand why performance was necessary. My father taught me. Sit straight. Speak when spoken to. Never let them see what you’re actually thinking, Damian, because the moment they see it, they own it.My father was the most disciplined man I ever knew. And even he, in the end, had not been enough.I picked up my wine glass, smiled at something Roland said from across the table, and thought about Elara.I had been thinking about Elara for six days. I had a talent for not thinking about things I had decided not to think about — it was a skill I had refined since childhood, a kind of internal door I could close a
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Elara povI left in the dead of night with nothing but my bag and the little money I’d managed to hide away, slipping past the pack borders while the moon was thin and the guards weren’t watching closely enough. By morning I’d reached a small human town an hour’s walk from the territory line, anonymous among people who had never once heard my name spoken with contempt. It should have felt like freedom. Mostly it just felt like falling, with no idea yet where I’d land.I was sitting outside a bakery, doing the math on how far my coins might stretch, when a voice I half-recognized said my name.“Elara?”I looked up into the face of an older woman, gray-haired now, and something in my memory stirred—she’d kept house in my father’s residence, years ago, before she vanished from it without explanation when I was still a child.Nessa sat down across from me without waiting to be asked, and her eyes moved over my split lip and the bruises shadowing my jaw with an expression that needed no wo
Elara’s povThe room they gave me in the omega block was barely big enough to breathe in.A narrow cot with a mattress that had been slept on by too many people before me, springs that groaned when I turned over in the night. A single shelf bolted crookedly to the wall. A window so small and so high that the light it let in was more of a suggestion than anything useful. The walls were thin….. thin enough that I could hear the women in the next room as clearly as if we were sharing a bed, and they had no shortage of things to say.She slept with the Alpha to steal her sister’s place.She should be grateful she wasn’t thrown out entirely.As if a bastard like that could ever be worthy of him. Only the pure-blooded sister deserves a Luna’s crown.I lay awake in the dark with my knees pulled up to my chest and my arms wrapped around them, listening to strangers construct a version of me I barely recognized, and I was too exhausted and too hollowed out to argue with any of it. That’s the t
Elara’s povMy parents left first.Selene lingered. Of course she did — Selene always lingered when there was something left to take from me. She stood in the doorway with her arms wrapped tight around herself, mascara smudged in dark half-moons beneath her eyes, looking for all the world like the one who’d been wronged here. Like she was the one whose whole life had just been folded up and handed back to her in pieces.“Selene.” I hated how much desperation bled into my voice when I said her name. I reached for her anyway, because I was stupid and I was terrified and she was the last person in that house who might still look at me like I was worth something. I knew what she was capable of, I knew exactly how much she enjoyed watching me scramble. But I reached for her anyway, because when you’re drowning you’ll grab at anything — even the hand that pushed you in. “Please, talk to Father. Tell him I would never do this to you on purpose, I don’t want to leave home, Selene, please……”







