SamanthaThe store was busier than usual, but I wasn’t complaining as I hurried around restocking shelves. It kept me busy and distracted, which was all too welcome at that point in time.I was rearranging one of the middle table displays when I heard the store bell ring for about the fifth time in less than an hour.Smiling, I turned to greet the new customer, but I tensed and frowned when I realized it was Ryan.He looked at me with a determined expression as he practically marched toward me.“Sam, I need to speak with you,” he said in a low tone..I glanced around the store, taking note of my other customers before telling him, “I’m sorry, sir. As you can see, it’s a rather hectic day today. Do you need help finding a book?”“You know that’s not why I’m here.”I shrugged. “Showing up at my place of work to demand a conversation on my employer’s time? Sorry, no can do. I’ve got a little mouth to feed, remember?”He clenched his jaw and appeared to want to argue the point, but to my
She had to be the most stubborn, most infuriating woman I’d ever met.It was early evening, and I was still stewing from my encounter with her earlier that day at the bookshop.I paced through my house, a glass of bourbon in my hand that I’d been nursing for nearly half an hour at that point.I couldn’t stop thinking about our conversation, or the fact that I’d almost kissed her again.She’d have let me if we hadn’t been interrupted. I’d seen it in her eyes. There’d been blatant desire and want swimming in her gaze.I knew it was a bad idea for us to become entangled with each other at all, yet with each encounter we had, I seemed to grow more and more obsessed with her.I couldn’t seem to stay away from her.Along with my growing desire and fascination with Sam was irritation and frustration that she had refused my offer to help her buy the bookshop.She’d dismissed my assistance so easily that it actually had pricked my pride.Whatever the cost of the shop would be barely a dip in t
Samantha“Three, two, one, shoot!”I lifted my shot glass and tipped it back into my mouth. The tequila burned as it slid down my throat. I shivered before sticking the lime into my mouth to suck.“Woohoo!” Mandy exclaimed, already well beyond tipsy. “Another round!”Letting out a laugh, I grabbed her hand, tugging her away from the bar.“Let’s take a breather,” I said. “We don’t need you passing out before midnight.”Mandy blinked at me and nodded. “Oh! You’re right! Thanks for looking out for me, Sam.”I led her to a table and sat her down before turning back to get her some water from the bar.The other bridesmaids made their way over to the table to gather around her, but Jessica stayed back and met me as I reached the bar. She was part of the bridal party as well, though it wasn’t surprising.We lived in a small town, after all. Everyone was pretty much friends with everyone.“How’re you feeling?” she asked me with a grin.I chuckled and sighed. “I’m good. It’s been a while since
Ryan I felt oddly angry as I glared at Samantha.It hadn’t taken long upon arriving at the bar to realize the women were there as well.They hadn’t noticed us at first, and Jason and I had broken off from the rest of the bachelor party to sneak up on the ladies and surprise them.My eyes had been locked on Sam.I hadn’t been able to tear my gaze away from her, but as we drew near, I could hear what she was saying.She’d rather be celibate than ever sleep with me.Ouch. Why did that sting so bad?She spun around and looked at me with wide eyes.“Jesus, Sam,” Jason declared, though I could hear mirth underneath his scolding tone. “Do you have absolutely no filter? Super classy.”Her face turned bright red, and her eyes darted around nervously.“I-it was a joke,” she muttered, averting her gaze from me.“Bullshit,” Jason scoffed.Sam licked her lips and scratched at her cheek. The awkwardness in the air was palpable.Deciding to take some pity on her, I said, “I want to talk to you. Alo
SamanthaWhen I woke up the next morning, I briefly wondered if I’d died and gone to hell.That’s how shitty I felt.My head was throbbing, and my stomach churned.I thought I was going to be sick, and I struggled to build up the energy to even get out of bed.At length, I forced myself to open my eyes. Flinching at the muted sunlight coming in through my thin curtains, I slowly pushed myself so I was sitting upright. Slipping my feet to the floor, I sat on the edge of the mattress for a moment as I fought not to vomit on my floor.After several seconds, I felt stable enough to stand, and I staggered to my bathroom. I reached the toilet just in time and emptied my stomach into the porcelain bowl.It took me a while to feel stable enough to push back up to my feet. I washed my face and brushed my teeth, then went back into my room and got dressed.Feeling somewhat normal again, I made my way downstairs to the kitchen and started brewing a pot of coffee. I needed to finish sobering up b
RyanI heard the sound of little feet and a child’s voice rushing toward the kitchen.Sam shoved me away with wide eyes.Henry was home, and I was still there. It was not what I’d planned, and it was definitely not what Sam wanted. I watched as her shock quickly turned to panic. She grabbed the front of my shirt and shook me.“You can’t say anything,” she insisted in a hiss, her gaze a little crazy. “You can’t say anything to Henry about who you are, okay? Please, Ryan. Promise me!”I was stunned by how anxious she was. It was almost fearful.Not wanting her to lose her shit completely, I nodded.“Okay, I promise,” I assured her. “I won’t say anything.”She closed her eyes and released a breath of relief. Opening her eyes again, she pushed away from me and slapped a big smile on her face.At that moment, a little boy came barreling into the kitchen.“Mama! Mama! Grandpa and I went fishing yesterday! I caught three!”The boy, Henry, stopped next to Sam and I. He beamed up at his mother
SamanthaI watched as Henry led Ryan out of the kitchen. My chest tightened at the sight, and once again, I found myself trying to push away any thoughts about what could have been if anyone had known that Henry was Ryan’s.It didn’t matter now, though, as I couldn’t go back and change the past. I knew the best thing for everyone going forward was for me to let those thoughts go and focus on the here and now.My parents didn’t stay much longer and didn’t ask me any questions about Ryan, which I was thankful for.Once they’d left, I made my way upstairs. I was curious to see what Ryan was like with Henry. I could hear my son chatting as I neared his bedroom door, and when I peeked inside, I couldn’t help but grin.Henry had Ryan sitting on the edge of his little, twin-sized bed and was holding up one of his trucks to show it off as he explained every single feature of it in detail.“When you back it up, you have to say beep, beep, beep, so everyone knows, okay?” the little boy said in
I wanted to believe him. I really did, but the wound he’d given me was soul-deep, and I wasn’t sure how to heal it completely.However, I didn’t want to completely shut the door to any opportunity for Ryan to have a relationship with Henry.After seeing him interact with my boy all day, I couldn’t deny that Ryan was good with our son. He might deserve a chance, but I had to figure out how to forgive him for the past first.“I need to think about it,” I told him at length. “I’m not saying no, but there are things I have to work through before I say yes.”I glanced up at him, and my heart thumped in my chest when I saw the hope shining in his gaze.“Okay.” He nodded. “That’s fair enough. Thank you, Sam. Even that much means the world to me.”I was feeling overwhelmed with emotion as he spoke, and his touch was doing funny things to me. Part of me wanted to take my hands away from his, but another, stronger part wanted him to touch other parts of me.Holy crap, what was I thinking? I tol