PROLOGUE
"Stop."
But I didn't dare to. From the moment I hear him plead for me to stop, I continued further unto my plan. Besides, my position is rather comfortable and beneficial for my part. I won't trade anything as pleasant because of a word.
"Elle, NOT TODAY..."
His words made me stop, staring at him for a moment. I can feel my lips quirking up into a smile.
"Elle. Not now..."
I stared back at him, disliking the way his eyebrows were furrowed. Now I have to deal with the snappy old Gabe again. I get off his desk and strut around his chair, earning another groan from him.
"Elle--"
"Okay, Okay. I'm going out now." I stated in a nonchalant tone, shrugging my shoulders. But before I completely went out, I gave him something to remember.
I lean down on his seat, a smile plastered on my face. I grabbed his cheek using both of my hands and kiss him. I pulled his lower lip with my teeth, hearing him groan, "El-"
"Elleana Cassidy!" Oops, almost full name. Oh, well. I still won't stop, Mr. West.
I grin. No one really knows Gabriel West as well as I do.
It was all a misunderstanding. People thought he was heartless and a git, I thought so too when I married him. It's not like we marry because we fell in love. It was all just a partnership - a partnership that has created a very powerful company, Greene-West Holdings Inc.
This dog's dinner has all started a year ago.
When my father called me from Paris to get my ass back here in New York right at that very moment, I know something's up. I am worried sick because he won't tell me the reason. I thought it was my mom or something that concerns my past but as I step down from the cab, I know, that the reason why I'm here has nothing to do with my family. Or even me.
It was for the freaking company.
The memory was so vivid that I have to smile every time I reminisce that day. The day that I and my husband met back at his father's office. We both have gone mad when they announce the agreement but we did nothing to stop it.
We are born to comply.
The craziest thing is that we even have to marry before the end of the month. Not to mention the fact that we had only two weeks to prepare, not enough time to plan for a very grand celebration.
The wedding was simple and closed to the paparazzi. It happened inside a chapel in Italy with only our relatives and close friends witnessing it but the privacy is not maintained. Soon, a couple of paparazzi came to our reception, spoiling our supposed to be the first dance.
Of course, a billion worth of marriage is breaking news! Two rival families joined as one is a century worth history.
It was that kind of cliché - the not so normal billionaire cliché.
But the fact that Gabriel had actually moved to his penthouse after the reception had finished was insane - for me at least. Not to mention the week-long honeymoon vacation spent by only me in Miami. Only me, swimming on the beach while he types away on that piece of metal they call 'laptop' somewhere inside his 'cave'.
Yet the assumption of us not going to have a chance on this marriage change the moment we got back to New York.
It was all because of that chocolate cake I gave him for his birthday. If I only knew that a chocolate cake was the key to our relationship, I would have acceded to making pastries and offer him all the chocolate cakes I can ever bake.
I did not expect that he will open up to me right after he had his first bite. I guess I'd never get the chance to possess his heart if I didn't choose to bake the blasted cake. it was an effort not wasted, indeed.
I was so engrossed in reminiscing about our past when I hadn't realized that I am now sitting on his lap, again. My hands raking his hair as I moan, grinding myself against his John Thomas.
"Elleana...oh Dio!" He groaned, crashing his head on my neck as he took a whiff.
I was about to start undressing him and let him do the DID to me as I am currently up for it when his phone rang. "MIO DIO!" He spat, pulling his phone from his pocket.
"West," he answered his eyes not leaving me as his lips flattened themselves into a line. A slight frown developed on them as he listened to the voice from the other side, his expression growing gloomy. I sat there, feeling awkward as I slip my blouse on and fix my skirt. Gabriel raised an eyebrow at my action and turns his attention back to the call.
I sigh, getting up from his lap only to sit on his desk. I watch him as he talks on the phone. He was speaking in Italian so fluent that I haven't had the chance to understand a single thing. I wish I have taken a liking to it rather than my French class, who knows that I will marry an Italian someday?
I am almost ready to give myself to him completely but, I guess now is not a perfect time. I was taken aback when he stood, ending the call before looking down at me, his eyes wild with emotions.
Fear, anger, loss, and guilt.
"What happened, Gabe? Tell me, Bello..." I tried to grab his arm but he pulled away, raking his hands on his hair. "It's Papa..." He stated, his voice breaking before he ran out of the door.
"Gabriel," I ran down the stairs, following his steps but his strides are longer than mine
"Gabe!" We were out of the house now. He swiftly entered the garage, the lights switching on their own accord as he goes farther, taking his keys and clicking a button, to unlock his car.
"Gabe..." He abruptly stopped and stare back at me before he made a move to open the car door. "Gabriel," I latch myself on him as though my life depended on it. We stand there, looking at each other with so many words unspoken between the two of us. Gabriel shakes his head before he kisses my forehead and says "Ti Amo..."
I know then, that everything will change.
"We've done all that we could, but we cannot save him."
"There's too much blood lost."
"We found him in his office, already dead."
"The gun is nowhere in sight."
"The company needs you..."
"You are the appointed heir, you cannot escape this, Gabriel."
"We need to process the documents as fast as possible."
"The company depends on you now,"
I was lying down on our bed, sheets tangled on my feet, mourning someone that hasn't really left me. I silently cried, holding tight to the sheets as I folded myself in a fetal position. The dusk has settled and slowly, the night begins to capture my surroundings as though it were a thin blanket being draped over the land. I sniffled and sigh.
I am almost there.
I've never seen this coming and I never expected this after all that had happened from a couple of months ago. I thought everything was going alright, that everything I have worked for and cultivated over the months will finally bear fruit. I've never imagined that something like this will change everything; that this kind of happening would alter the current "US".
I thought that everything is perfect.
I thought he finally accepted me, that he is willing to risk the chances and be with me. I thought that we are going to have a chance in this relationship but, I'm wrong. So wrong, I haven't seen this coming.
Now, Gabriel's beyond my reach; a billion miles away. He's so cold, so rude. He doesn't care, nor would he even care what happens to me. He's now back to being an insensitive jerk like he was a year ago. He had shut himself off not only from me but to the world, also.
He's back to that shell of a man he once was.
Gone is the one I have fallen the most. Gone is he, to the deepest of the earth. I know that he's not going to come back, but I'm still hoping. I am waiting for him to fight and resurrect - give me his smiles, those smoldering looks that feel as though he is holding me. he'll cuddle me in, peppering kisses and he'll hug me to death. Too much wishful thinking it is for I know that it's not likely to happen.
We've had so many fights these days that I thought about giving up. It has been five months now since his father's passing. It shattered me to think that he blames me for it. He thought that it was my family who plotted the murder of his father. I thought it will change when we already found who the killer was but as the days passed, he chose to forget my presence. He dwells more on his grief and neglects the fact that he has a wife to lean upon.
I'm nothing in his eyes.
Sometimes, in a mere second, his cold mask is gone and he'll smile at me, but as fast as it came, is as fast as it fades. He'll give me that poker face again and let me suffer into oblivion. I don't understand why he blamed me for it. I didn't do anything wrong for him to suspect me and if it is his only excuse to make me guilty and leave him, that will never happen.
I really missed him and even though he's so cold to me, I still love him.
I lost track of seconds, hours turning to days, days transitioning to nights. Those memories we've had from the past few months faded in the background and my lips trembled as I tried so hard to hold unto them.
I twisted my body and stared up at the ceiling, my thoughts running. He always made me feel alone and empty every time he leaves. I frown. it would have been nice to have some company.
a small smile tug at my lips and the feeling it brought me is so bizarre for I haven't felt this happy before. He won't like the idea of it but I decided right then and there that I want something he doesn't want.
I'm determined to have my way. I would do it one way or another.
©S A F I ECHAPTER 1ELLE"So, Gabe, Elle...when are you going to give us something like her?"Mom carried my niece up on her arms as she gave us that look. My face felt like someone has set it on fire and I felt Gabriel's arms tensing around my waist as he cleared his throat.We are currently at a party thrown by my mother for our first anniversary. Yes, it's been a year since our wedding; a year since all of these started. This is the first party after the conflict that has happened. It was also the first one which Gabriel has agreed to go with me.I am startled when my dad suddenly piped in, "We're so old. We still wanted to play with our grandkids, see them grow...you know?" Dad muses as he snatched the baby from mom, "Oh, you little pumpkin. Don't you look a lot like your grandmother?" He laughed making my niece cry. I sigh, scratching my forehead as I pull away from Gabriel, surprising him."Dad, let me take her back to Cassandra. I'm sure little Cece here wanted to be with her
©S A F I EChapter 2ELLEI woke up in haste.I could feel the cold wind hit my back as I stretch out, feeling sore and tired as I turn, groaning. The sun is burning my eyelids and I raise my arm to shield my face from its glare. I'm closed to sleeping again only to hear the devil speak,"You're awake now..."I open my eyes and realize that the affectionate man I've slept with last night was again possessed by the devil. What happened last night made me blush both in embarrassment and anger.Why does he need to be so cold and heartless now when I feel great? he loves to ruin my precious moments.Without looking at him, I muttered in a small voice, "Yes, I am."I waited for another minute for him to just go and let me sleep but when I open my eyes, I still saw him there - sitting on the couch watching me like I was some dirt on his carpet."Why are you still here? Don't you have to go to your office?" I chance a glance at the clock at my bedside table and huff, "It's 9 in the morning,
©S A F I E CHAPTER 3 ELLE It wasn't a usual occurrence that I find myself lying on top of someone else's chest - much more when it was the devil himself, my husband. Surprised, I hide my face in his chest, overwhelmed by his heavenly scent. I breathe in and sigh, snuggling closer to him. The morning was a pretty shade of gold and pale blue. The sun was about to wake the people up, peeking through the drawn curtains, the breeze lightly entering from the open window. I shivered, snuggling closer to him making me bite down a giggle as his chest hair tickled me. My eyes widen as I realize that he is actually naked beneath me. Does it mean that something happened last night? I quickly check beneath the blankets and sigh in relief when he was wearing some boxer shorts, his happy little friend camping inside, my cheeks flushing. I averted my gaze and stared around the room as the sun shed light to our wedding picture. I look so happy that day because even if it was an arranged m
©S A F I E CHAPTER 4 ELLE*Flashback * "Gabriel," I whispered, a bit nervous about what his reaction might be. He opened his eyes and I can't help but smile as he wrinkles his nose, scratching his head. He blinks his eyes up at me, a question apparent on them. "Happy birthday." I smiled and push the birthday cake in front of him. "Elle-" his eyebrows scrunched up as his eyes searched my face. "Why are you--?" "I want to surprise you. You are my husband and I am ought to care for you. I want to make you happy. Rise from your bed and have a bite of this, I promise you won't regret it." I push a spoon on his hand and gave him a sheepish smile. He sat there, frozen on top of the bed, a spoon on his hand. I am almost tempted to take a picture of him for he looks a lot like a model but halted as I see his brows slowly meeting in the middle and he glared down at the cake, saying. "Is this the scene where the wife finally decided to kill her husband?" His words made me smile an
©S A F I E CHAPTER 5 ELLE I open one of my eyes, the dizziness overwhelming me that I have to slowly rise from the bed and stagger towards the bathroom, the room spinning around me. It was the break of the dawn; too early for me to wake during a weekend. I rested my hands on the walls as I struggled against it, trying to reach the toilet bowl before I barfed up. Not being able to withstand, I collapse on the floor and have managed to hold the toilet bowl tighter before my face hovers on it, inches away from the water as I empty my insides. I hug it closer to my chest, heaving at it without having anything to let go. I've been like this for the past week and was getting weaker by the days passing. Gabe never had the chance to notice this because he's been away for Italy for almost a month now. I do not know the exact date of his return. Maybe next week or tomorrow morning? Tonight? It was pointless to bug him about it because he wanted to surprise me. I rolled my eyes at that, pu
©S A F I E CHAPTER 6 ELLE I was bored like crazy. I lied down on the floor, my thoughts and emotions in a turmoil. I really miss him and the way my hormones raged on, doesn't help me at all. I pulled at my hair and turn so that I am facing the balcony, the view of the beautiful Sunday morning trying to cheer me up but failing. I push myself up so that I am sitting.I've been in my studio for quite an hour now since I woke up, eating my cheerios with Nutella as I stare at the empty canvas. I couldn't seem to find the inspiration to paint or focus or even be creative. All because I miss him. He is still not here. He has promised to be back last night but it was one of his funny schemes, a prank as I like to call it. he loves playing with my feelings and I don't understand the reason behind it. I thought he will be true to his words but he did not even care to explain to me. He's on the other side of the world doing God knows what; left me here floating and cold. He didn't eve
©S A F I E CHAPTER 7 ELLE I was here again - in such precious moment where I am staring at my husband's beautiful face. I do not want to blink my eyes of fear that everything will fade and I will find myself waking up from this dream. I fear to think that, if I turn my eyes from him, he will disappear and I will be left alone again.I stared at him, my eyes not leaving his slightly parted lips, smirking at that tiny sound he is exhausting. I nuzzled my head in the pillow and sigh, restraining myself from tracing his features because he might wake up again just like he did when I was lying on top of his chest. I am trying to imprint his face in my head and hoping that the tiny bean growing inside my womb would have the same godly face. He is really beautiful when he is sleeping. Casting another glance at him, I couldn't help but frown. This angelic face was the reason I am not creative for a moment because of my irritation and disappointment towards him. He deserves a prope
©S A F I ECHAPTER 8 ELLE "I could see you are happy now," Gabriel muttered, his face shining with sweat as he collapsed on the blanket we are currently using. He snatched the sandwich from my hand and bite unto it, closing his lazy eyes and sighing in content."Cow," I muttered under my breath, the back of my neck prickling in irritation as I angrily waved a hand at him, giving him the finger. He gave me a smug smile and I cross my arms over my chest, taking another sandwich from our picnic basket. It was late afternoon but the sun is still up in the sky, furiously glaring down at us. I look around and sigh, glad that I and Gabriel have managed to fool the paparazzi's by dressing up as normal couples, him adorning a red baseball cap while I wear a fedora hat. It is not much, but it wasn't what I usually wear when I am going out. Gabriel also used the old convertible he has inherited from his father's collection, completely throwing the paparazzi's off our trail.I lean back on t