Book 2 Chapter 12

I stood in the living room, stunned. I should have been stunned because of what Jonathan told me about Gregory being in New York City and actively looking for me. But I wasn’t stunned about that. I was stunned because I wanted Jonathan to kiss me, I was certain that he was going to, and he walked away.

I couldn’t figure anything out. Deep down, I had hoped that Jonathan and I could get back together. While Jonathan had tried to sleep with others to move on past me, I had not been with anyone since I had left. Most of the time I wasn’t even thinking about sexual gratification. My mind would move to that when I would think about Jonathan, but outside of seeking out my own release, I was too scared running to even think about having a one-night stand, let alone trying to start a relationship.

Maybe I was stupid to think that Jonathan would even want to be with me again. I must have read things wrong, because when he walked away, I had a clear answer.