chapter 6

I came to the realization that I didn't know Lawrence at all, couldn't believe he had been lying to me this whole time and now that I know he is just like his cousin use women as nothing but pawns to be played with. the fact that he had a relation with someone else outside our relationship pissed me off. I mean he couldn't even satisfy me but he decided to satisfy somebody else needs.

I might dream and think or desiring of another man but I would never let another man touch me because I was in a a relationship with him for 10 years of being faithful to him and I loved him and never want to hurt him.

damn I wish he could have been considered my feelings when he ultimate betrayed me.

Needless to say now that my heart aches with anger all I want to do is go out and throw something at him make a fuss a ruckus causes a scene. but I ultimately decided not to do that. it's time for me to make a decision if I want to stay with Lawrence or get revenge in the end. now confused as ever on what to do I just turned around went back upstairs climbing in the bed pulling the sheets over me close my eyes and went to sleep.

That night I did not rest easily I tossed and turned all night.

when I woke up that morning Lawrence had already left for work. I hurry up and got out of bed got dress and went off to work myself. while at work I was having trouble focusing on project for a new business agreement that was coming up in within a week.

but I could not focus I was only thinking about what had happened last night with Lawrence

confession. I just stared at the paper in front of me sigh what am I'm going to do I said to myself.