LOGINElodie
My inconsistency at the workplace has been piling up, and today is one of those days I have to send yet another email asking for permission to be absent. My finger glides across the red button and it clicks Send. I sit quietly, staring at the white ceiling of the hospital when the doctor walks in with a file and a wide smile on her face. That kind of smile that is either too good… or about a change in everything. “Congratulations, Elodie,” she says softly, “you’re pregnant.” My heart races, skipping a beat as I blink once. Twice. Then I laugh. Not a happy laugh. A bitter, cracked sound that makes the nurse beside her shift uncomfortably. “I think you're mistaken here,” I whisper, shaking my head. “I can't be.” But the smile on her face didn't falter. “I ran the test twice. You're eight weeks along. There's no mistake.” My throat tightens, and my fingers curl around the strap of my purse, squeezing it like I’m holding on to reality. Pregnant? Me? “How?” I squint as the word slips from my lips. Dr. Lucy lets out a soft chuckle. “How? You don't mean that, do you?” My lips curl inwardly, in response to her harmless gesture. It has been barely two months since I moved down to Emberveli town—since after Mason left me. Adjusting to the new environment hasn't been so smooth to me, now this. This is a cruel joke from the universe. I’m finally carrying a child? A miracle I prayed for endlessly to save my marriage but it never came. Why now? After all I've been through? My eyes burn, threatening to unleash flow, but I blink fast. No tears, not here. “So now, Dr. Lucy says, breaking the silence, “you’ll need to level up the care you give yourself, knowing there's a life growing inside you.” “Yes, Doctor.” I nod, forcing a faint smile that doesn't reach my eyes. “Here,” she says, handing me the test results. “Ensure to go through it and follow up all the instructions there. Congratulations once more Elodie.” “Thank you.” I say and swallow hard. I walk out like a ghost, clutching the paper with trembling hands. When I get to the major road, I wave for a cab. As it pulls to a drive, I lean my back on the soft leather seat, speechless, except for the rustling sheet of my lab test breaking the silence. In less than an hour, I’m back to my apartment. I pay the driver and step out. I rush inside, slam the door shut and stand there frozen, still holding the result. “I, Elodie…Pregnant…?” I stagger backwards until my legs find the edge of the couch, and I collapse onto it. My hands quiver as I place it over my flat stomach, the same stomach my ex and his mother had mocked. “You're barren. Useless. A disgrace to our name.” Those words still echo in my head like a cruel chant. A single tear rolls down my right cheek. Another follow. Then a loud, broken sob racks my body as years of shame and rejection come crashing. I weep for years I spend begging God for a child to save my marriage, and now when no one expects it, life blooms inside of me. A wave of happiness and confusion washes over me at the same time. How am I going to survive? I barely feed properly. “I'm finally going to be a real mother? I whisper through my sob, squeezing joyfully through my teeth. “But for who?” “For a man who treated me with no respect like I meant nothing?” I close my eyes against the rush of pain that fills me. “I'll keep you safe, my baby, away from Mason.” I said and move my hands across my stomach. “I promise.” Just then, my stomach churns violently as a sudden rush of nausea sweeps past me. I rush to the bathroom, holding my mouth with one hand and pressing the other against my belly. I lean over the toilet bowl and gag, my body shaking with the force of each heave. A Bitter bile and remnants of my meal surges up my throat, leaving a sour taste in my mouth. When it finally stops, I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand and let out a weak bitter laugh. “So… it's real after all.” I murmur. … Five years later… Oh my God. It's almost 5 p.m. I’m late again. Hurriedly, I grab my handbag and dash out to the busy road. I wave down a cab. “Main and Elm, please,” I pant as I hop in. “Quickly!” The driver nods and speeds off. But barely ten minutes into the drive, rain starts, pouring heavily. Suddenly, the road clusters and I get stuck in traffic. I tap my foot nervously. “Please…go faster.” He sighs but doesn't answer. I stretch my neck, trying to see past the sea of cars ahead. Just then, my phone buzzes with a message from the school: "Liam is waiting safely at the drop-off point” I exhale deeply. I feel relief and whisper a soft “Thank you Jesus.” I put the phone back into my bag. Shortly the road clears. The cabbie speed forward as fast as he could, but nothing prepare me for the scene I meet when he turn the corner. A silver car divert sharply at the school drop-off point. And Liam. My Liam is right there. My eyes bulge as I watch it speed towards him. Panic crawls through my veins. My pupils dilate. “No. No, no.” My scream catches in my throat. “Stop, stop, stop. I slap the front seat, praying my fears were wrong. The moment it slows, I fling the door open and dash out. My bag spills onto the wet road but I don't care. A small crowd is gathering. Hazard lights blinking. And then I see him. His small body…lying still on the wet ground. There, a man in a soaked dress shirt is already kneeling, performing a frantic CPR. My heart nearly stops. “Liam!” I scream, as I push through the people. My legs gave out when I reach them and see his pale face, blood smears on his temple, and one of his shoes had flown off. I kneel closely beside him, my heart drops. “No! Liam!” Voices were muttering words from behind but I could barely hear them. My entire mind zeros in Liam. “Baby… Mama is here. Please…open your eyes.” Tears blur my vision. My hands tremble as I cup his face. But when his body gives no response, my fear grow stronger. “The ambulance has arrived." A voice speaks. “Help my baby! Please!” My words hang in the air like a challenge as EMTs move in swift motion.ElodieMy face brightens up as my eyes fall on her. Vivian.She’s standing not too far from me, blinking like she is unsure if It's really me.I gasp, as a warm relief wraps around me.At least… It's her. Of all people, it's her. “Vivian,” I breathe out, forcing a tired smile. “Why of all people?!”“Elodie? It's really you. What do you even mean?” she says, her voice shifting from surprise to excitement. Then she rushes forward.We fell into a hug. She wraps me tightly with joy. “You are the last person I expect to see here.” I answer, holding back the tears pressing up in my eyes.“It's been ages!” Her warm voice echoes. “You disappeared, girl. Without a word…”I smile exhaustively. “It's not what you think.”She pulls back from me a little, her eyes scanning me with that same old knowing look. “Then what is it?” She rolls her eyes playfully.“It’s been almost ten years since I last saw you.” She draws closer and hugs me again. I've missed you so much.”“I missed you too,” I whis
Elodie“God, Please…” I whisper shakily. “Don't take him from me.”I glance sideways at the man behind the wheel. The idiot who hit my son.His face remains pale, and there's blood near his temple. He holds tightly to the steering wheel.But it doesn't move me at all.I press my trembling hands in my chest, trying to steady the storm. This is his fault, his exact act of recklessness.And now I'm back to this city, this one place I swore I'd never set my foot in again.I can't run into Mason. I can't run into his wife.They must never find out about Liam.Not now. Not ever.To them, I must remain the barren ex. The woman they threw away like trash.Tension grows thicker in me, I grip the edge of my blouse in my fingers.Liam, I'll protect you. Even if I have to fight the devil himself. I will keep you safe.“Can you drive any faster?” I snap at him. Frustration rises within me the more I look at him.He blinks hard. “I apologise ma, I didn't mean to…”“Just drive.” I cut him off.“I
Travis“Any news yet?” Nathan's voice drifts from the other side of the phone, “Have you heard from…?”I shrug, swirling the wine in my glass. “Not yet.” “But it's been years, Travis,” Nathan says. “You don't even remember her face. Or her name.”“But I remember how I felt,” I murmur, a sad smile creeping onto my lips. “That night was the only time I've felt that way with another except Serena.”Nathan sighs. “Who chases an unknown shadow for Five years?”“A man who has nothing else that makes sense." I answer with a lower voice now.He softens, his tone calmer. “There are still good women out there. Women who'd treat you better, if…”“If I just let go?” I cut in, a bitter chuckle slipping through. “I already did that once. You saw how it ended.” He fell silent for a beat. “Serena betrayed you, yes I'm aware. But not every woman is like her.”My grip on the glass tightens. The pain is still there, buried under ambition and denial. “I know. But I can't fake closure.”Nathan groans l
ElodieMy inconsistency at the workplace has been piling up, and today is one of those days I have to send yet another email asking for permission to be absent.My finger glides across the red button and it clicks Send.I sit quietly, staring at the white ceiling of the hospital when the doctor walks in with a file and a wide smile on her face.That kind of smile that is either too good… or about a change in everything.“Congratulations, Elodie,” she says softly, “you’re pregnant.”My heart races, skipping a beat as I blink once.Twice.Then I laugh.Not a happy laugh. A bitter, cracked sound that makes the nurse beside her shift uncomfortably.“I think you're mistaken here,” I whisper, shaking my head. “I can't be.”But the smile on her face didn't falter. “I ran the test twice. You're eight weeks along. There's no mistake.”My throat tightens, and my fingers curl around the strap of my purse, squeezing it like I’m holding on to reality.Pregnant?Me?“How?” I squint as the word s
ElodieNow, here I am again… back at this monter’s home. My head is buried beside my neck.Words that cannot be uttered remain in my mind, pounding my heart as a pestle does to a mortar.Loud music fills the air, but somehow, it is no match for the voices screaming in my mind. I sit in the farthest corner, nursing down my third glass of tequila to dull the pain. I haven’t say a word. I just keep hearing the same three words over and over again:“Saviour… Pregnant…Married.”“Saviour…Pregnant... Married.” I keep on repeating the same thing.What do they take me for?A stinking, barren bitch?Really?I let out a deep breath. I shouldn't be drinking.Not after how badly it embarrassed me the last time, four years ago.He saved me that night… and wh..what did he make of it?He strips me of dignity and ruins me again.How could it be so easy for him to be done with me?Just like that.After three good years of my life?Mason used to be my safe place. My last resort, my only constant.What
Elodie“Happy anniversary bab—” The words die in my throat at the person who walks in behind him …The door has flown open with a loud thud, making me raise a hand to my chest, soothing my frightened heart.My eyes lit up, filled with smiles the moment my husband walked in, but then it faltered at the sight of her. “Serena.” I frown, taking in my threat of a step-sister.I blink to make sure I’m seeing very clearly.She grins, wide and malicious. “Elodie.”She’s truly here then, it’s not a figment of my imagination.“What are you doing here?” I snap, brows dipping in both confusion and irritation.I turn to my husband. “Mason, babe, what is she doing here?”He rolls his eyes. “Who gave you the right to question me or whoever I bring into my house?”“Serena.” I face my step-sister again, my patience wearing thin. “I asked you a question!”Before the words even land, a hand cracks across my face. Pain sear up my cheeks. “Are you out of your mind? Questioning my guest?” Mason roars.I f







