Findings

While Dad was carrying me to the car,all I felt was numbness. I could not even begin to fathom what the next few days would be like. When will it start? How will it happen? Who will survive and who will not? These and many more questions were running through my mind. But the most important one that I had always tried to deviate from is "will I even help them get through this?" I was so angry at my mother for doing this to me and somehow I felt that if I actually helped this family through this crisis,that I may be supporting the decision she took and I was not in support of such absurd decision in anyway. I tried to keep calm and not think about the pain she put me through for so long. But now that I know that this is an inevitable situation that I have found myself in because of her,I could not help but freak out.

As I continued to think about it,the feeling of numbness soon paved way for the drowning feeling of anger to wash over me. I was so angry at everyone and everything. Why d