Amanda's POVI went with Rebecca to her room and that was where I saw my mother. She was talking to Becky's parents. When I walked in they turned to me and Mrs. Jail was the first to speak. "I thought you went to get your mom. She has been here for a very long time and we did not see you. What happened?""Well I went to the parking lot to call her just like I said I would but on getting there,I did not see her. So I started heading back to the room hoping that she was already here and that was when I ran into this friend of mine. We talked for a while and I sort of lost track of time. I am really sorry.""Oh that's okay. Becky isn't back yet so we are just waiting for her." My mom told me. I was in a rush to get back home so that I could sneak out to go see Samantha. I knew that would be difficult if we did not get back home on time. Mom always checked up on me before she went to sleep and she did not have a particular time so it was hard to keep tabs on her when it came to that. "Mo
It was a beautiful July morning. The air was silent,the birds sang a symphony and the trees coated with soothing colurs swayed to the rhythm. While I sat down on the pavement,I saw a little girl. Despite the heat of the scorching sun,she still managed to ride her pink bike with a smile on her face ringing her bell with much enthusiasm. It was hard to not smile at her. It gave me a slither of hope that there is still happiness in the world. It went with her and my eyes darted to see my father packing our things to the front lawn. I didn't want to leave California seeing as it was the only connection I had to my mother, well that and the lovely crescent necklace she gave me before she passed on. The events that led to her passing are still as clear in my mind as if it happened yesterday. "Dad watch out!!!" I screamed as I saw a bus heading directly towards us. Dad was too occupied with shouting at my mother for not making lasagna as he wanted,to see the incoming vehicle.
A sleepless night was the best thing I had hoped for because I was still traumatized from my mother's death. It was perfectly normal for a kid my age to be worn out after witnessing her mother's death but my friend back home,Bonnie, did not agree. For some reason she was really angry when I told her that I could not stop crying. Most people didn't really understand her, unfortunately I was among them. She always kept her feelings locked in. I tried telling her that it wasn't the best way to live because when those walls are opened and the feelings start rushing out,she will be a mess. But no matter how hard I tried,she just never listened to me so I eventually had to leave her to her fate. I just hope she will have a shoulder to cry on when it happens because now, all thanks to my father, I will not be around. She did sound friendly when I told her about Derek. Oh,just the thought of him makes me smile. We did not get to talk for a long time but I truly believed that we are go
The hooting of the owl could be said to have a calming effect on a troubled mind but all that seemed to calm my mind was the evening breeze which slowly erased the sting from my skin. It felt wonderful to soak in the rays of the full moon, and few minutes later,I fell asleep on the front porch. The night was traumatizing. Reoccurring scenes of the event that took place swamped my dreams. In my head the scene was replaying over and over again. I was so crippled by the nightmares that I could not wake up from it. I have always heard of the termed sleep paralysis and getting to experience it was twice as bad as all the doctors I know have explained it. After a lot of struggling I finally awoke to the meowing caused by our neighbor's cat and I lifted my half numb body off the resting chair and dragged myself inside. Looking through the doors to my father's room,I saw him lying scatterly. I hated the sight of it. I suddenly had the imagination of taking his bedside chair and bang
I forced my eyes open and blinked a few times to regain my ability to see. The environment had an ambience to it that was difficult to explain. Soothing yet alarming at the same time. It offered you peace but left you feeling dizzy. I felt strange, disoriented. I shivered at the thought of where I possibly could be but I knew I wouldn't find my answers lying on the floor. Nevertheless, my present surrounding made me feel stuck. I could see my body but somehow it felt like it wasn't me. It felt like a part of me was missing and nothing I could do would ever bring it back. It felt like I was a leaf flowing through the wind. At that point,I didn't know if it was as the result of the breeze blowing the autumn leaves smoothly around the void environment I had found myself in but I felt wonderful.I turned slightly to my left and my beautiful mother was staring at me with a smile on her face. I immediately knew that I was home and safe. I walked towards her and she engulfed me in a hug. I w
A completely normal young girl would have been totally angry and perturbed with the present situation I had found myself in, but I guess normality becomes just a phrase when you've died twice. I was a little bit fascinated with the fact that I was in another time and age. I was excited to learn about their culture. Nevertheless, a part of me was begging for an explanation. Screaming for answers from someone I wasn't sure could hear me. Just hoping that I would get what I earnestly desired but when that wasn't forthcoming, I decided to at least stay alive.I looked at the food that was placed in front of me and the sight of it was disgusting. I was sure the food would taste as bad as it looked but considering the fact that the hospital I was placed in didn't look like a "semi-prison", I wanted to give them the benefit of doubt. I glanced at the nurse who brought the food and she smiled gently at me. Her action urged me to carry the spoon and start eating. I was hugely disappointed at t
The shock I experienced was not seen on my face. It felt like a bucket of cold water was poured on my bare back. My brain was going on an overdrive and yet my body felt numb. I finally understood that you can be alive and still be dead. My life was taken away from me and a sham of a new one was handed to me. They erased me from the surface of the earth and left me with absolutely no one to pour out my emotions to. That was the worse part of this dilemma, I had absolutely no one to talk to. I had to find some trustworthy people that I can talk to or maybe they did give me a companion and all I needed to do was find her. I immediately put my mind towards finding this person.I didn't really have enough time to collect ponder on where they must have kept this person or to even hear myself think or process my feelings because Becky's parents were always walking into my room to see if I am still breathing. I couldn't blame them though. I remembered when my mother died, I wished earnestly f
On a beautiful Sunday afternoon with the warm summer breeze blowing in and out of the hospital room, I found out that Becky's best friend,Amanda,was my great grandmother. I wasn't angry, I was just shocked. My parents never told me anything about my grandparents. I wasn't even allowed to go visiting during the holidays. We always spent all the holidays together in our rickety old house. I enjoyed spending time with my parents back then because they were lovely and kind to each other and also to me but a part of me still yearn to know who my grandparents were. I knew they weren't dead because I could hear the phone calls mom made with them once in a while. It hurts that whenever I would bring up the topic of meeting them, my parents would get a angry and toss it aside like it means nothing to them. I wondered what God was upto. Was this supposed to be an exciting turn of events for me? At that point, I desperately wanted to get into His mind and know what He was thinkingEven when I co