Chapter 5

Kash' POV

"You're still an angel Kash. You and Mia are still an angel. Lucifer just cursed you--"

"And the highest ups didn't even bother to help us. They just let us burn in this place, live with the curse and that's it! I have been living this way, suffering as if I did something so bad in the Kingdom." I shook my head with my chest tightening. "Mia? She always dies... repeatedly." I took a deep breath as I remembered what was soon to happen. "Angels don't die, Claire. We are not angels anymore." 

I accepted that fact for a very long time. I was tired of being punished for something I had no idea what. If only I could kill myself. I mean I tried, but fucking Lucifer cursed me to live forever.

"You sound like you're questioning the highest ups." 

"I'm just stating facts, Claire."

"You're stating what you believe is right. Why can't you just trust me? I'm here to help, Kash. I'm here to help Mia and you." 

I laughed sarcastically as I shook my head. "You can't help us. You don't know how much power Lucifer have. You just can't." I sighed as I turned my back on him. I was done talking about nonsense things.

"Maybe I can't, but God can. The highest ups can! Trust them. They have a better plan." 

I kept walking away while shaking my head. I was done hoping and eyeing for a miracle. I was tired of it. If they were gonna help. They should have helped us before we became so damaged, that we couldn't even think right anymore. 

Mia's POV

I was finally home after a tiring school day. Hana visited me, my only best friend. She was the person with whom I share my weird dreams. She was the only one I trust plus my parents. 

"You dreamt of that mysterious guy again?" Her eyes widened. "Mia, that's, oh my... I feel like your dreams have meaning like it was telling something to you."

My brows crossed. What meaning then? That it would happen to me in the future? That's absurd; very impossible.

"I don't understand." I puffed a breath. "Why am I dreaming of a guy I don't even know who."

It probably happens to people but in my case, I didn't know him although something in my heart felt like I know him for a long time. As if we had a very deep connection that no one could ruin. There was a feeling of bliss when I was seeing him in my dream, even if it was just blurry.

"She might be your future." Hana giggled. 

I shrugged. "I don't think so."

"Think about it, maybe your dreams are sending you messages. It may mean something, big time." 

I gasped. He kept on messing up with my brain, I didn't like the feeling of being confused and curious. 

"Let's just not talk about it." 

I've been frustrated these past few days. I would turn twenty soon but I felt like I still don't know myself; I don't know who I was or what was my purpose in living in this world. 

"Hey! Earth on Mia." Hana flickered in front of my face which brought me back to reality. "Are you sure you're okay?"

I was fine. My brain wasn't. It was annoying cause I wanted to make peace with my mind but it didn't wanna stop bothering me about the stuff I kept on overthinking.

I nodded to her. 

"I should get used to you. You're always floating." She chuckled and shook her head. "But seriously Mia, if you have a problem, I'm just here, okay?" 

I was lucky to have Hana in my life. I was a boring person. I didn't even except Hana would choose me as her friend. J was weird and lost and...

"You're quiet again. Tell me about your new school." 

New school... Damn, I remembered Ken. The way his eyes stared at me. I remembered him again, suddenly my chest felt heavy. Every time he was passing by me, he looked like he was melting every piece of me. 

"It's good." Just like a normal school. 

"What about the people, are they good too?" 

I remembered the assholes who talked shit about me and how Ken defended me then suddenly hurt me with the way he rudely approached me like he never really wanted to talk to me. 

"Yes," I answered shortly. 

"You sure about that huh." 

I just nodded. I remembered again how Ken saved me. How our eyes met too closely. How his warm breath felt on my lips while he was on top of me. How I felt his body on mine. How heavy my chest was. 

I nodded again. 

Hana asked me more questions about my new school before she decided to go home.

"All right. I'm gonna go. By Mia! Don't forget to call me if you need anything. Love you, friend."

I smiled. I was thankful for her. She accepted me for who and what I was. She loved me like a sister and I was very thankful for that. 

"Thank you. Love you too."

She nodded as she kissed me on the cheek and waved her hand goodbye. "Bye!"

"Bye," I said before she got out of our house.

Then I was alone again and every time I was with no one, I couldn't stop my mind from overthinking. I could Imagine Ken while I was staring at the wall; his perfect olive eyes, his natural reddish lips, the way his hair was neatly brushed, fuck! Everything about him was bombarding my mind.

I felt kinda sad cause he was acting like he didn't like me like he was avoiding me. He didn't even mutter any word when he saved me. He didn't bother to ask if I was okay, he just left me dumbfounded. Seriously brain! Would you stop thinking about him? 

Another day of seeing Ken, really made me damn crazy. It was like he was eating my mind by occupying it the whole time. 

I walked around the cafeteria with a tray in my hand. I felt something spike in my stomach when I saw him eating alone. My eyes wouldn't look away. He was such a mystery that my heart was wanting to solve. 

I walked towards his table. I couldn't control myself. I wanted to ask him questions; my heart was dying to get to know him. 

"Hi," I sat on the opposite side of where he was sitting. 

He stared at me for a moment; his eyes felt so strange. It was sending a tingling sensation to my stomach. His firm gaze was sending butterflies in my stomach. I didn't know that phrase could be real.

He looked back at his food and continued eating like he didn't see or hear me like he didn't care about my existence and like he was annoyed that I went near him. My heart flinched.

"You seem familiar to me. I feel like I know you." I took the courage to speak. 

His stoic eyes met his mind. "That's not possible." His voice made me more curious. His manly voice was familiar like I heard it before; live I already had a conversation with him in the past. 

He was just staring at me and I was melting, I lost my words. I looked away as his cold eyes were starting to freeze me. 

"I need to go. Excuse me," he said and disappointment ate me. He stood up and so I did. Before he could start walking, I blocked his way. 

"Wait," I said as I looked at him. 

His height made him more appealing. He has the perfect height perfect for a man. 

He just looked at me with no emotion, only cold eyes. 

"Can you join me?... For a while." I managed to gather my braveness. 

"I'm busy," He said before walking. 

"Maybe next time," I suggested as he kept walking away from me. He didn't bother to answer me. I just found myself staring at his back until I couldn't see him anymore. 

I felt like I was left behind. That cold-hearted man! I just wanted to make friends. 

I puffed a breath as I sat again and started eating alone. 

"Hey." A man sat where Ken was sitting a while ago. 

My brows crossed as I was trying to remember where I saw him. Right, the creepy man who blocked my way and said weird things like I should avoid someone or else I would regret everything. The emerald eyes him were creeping me out again.

"It's you," I said, making sure that I was right about where I first encountered him. 

His lips formed an ominous smile. "I warned you, but it seems like you don't care at all." 

"What are you trying to say?" I asked with a flustered face.