Cara
A shiver ran through me. The wind was harsh and the sweater I wore hardly helped but I was still here. I wouldn't leave.
The forest had become one of my favourite places to be, specifically the spot where Ivan and I first locked lips. The place had changed slightly, now it was colder and the flowers were not in bloom but I still liked it.
It reminded me of a time when I was happy, when Ivan was the wonderful man who rescued me in the woods and not...not a vicious monster who I'd watched rip a vampire to pieces.
The memory of his hands on me, his weight pressing on my body came back as the wind blew the forest's peaceful scent into my senses.
I no longer feared this place. My love of it strongly overpowered my fear.
I saw on the ground with my back pressed up against a tree trunk and my knee pulled up to meet my chest. This was my comfort position.
This cannot be avoided any longer ,I tell myself. I was quite the procrastinator. For weeks I had managed to avoid reading the letter my mother wrote to me, simply because I did not want the image I had of her to fade into something else, something possibly worse.
Pulling the letter out of the large front pocket of my hoodie, I opened it up. The penmanship was unfamiliar but beautiful nonetheless. The f's resembled my own, curvy and long, just how I had been taught to make them.
Dearest Cara,
My sweet beautiful daughter. It is through tears of guilt that I write this to you, my first words to you since we last spoke.
I have never stopped loving you. In fact, my love for you grows more and more with each passing day.
My, you have grown. I only know this through the pictures your father sends me monthly, a promise he made to me when I left. I have kept them for you.
You are beautiful, with hair like your grandmother's, long and stunning. I imagine it is very soft.
You are kind, loving, warm- everything I could never be. It is hard to believe that you carry my blood in your veins. You truly are a blessing.
You have questions, I understand that. You must hate me. God knows I hate myself more, for leaving you, so young, so innocent.
It was not my wish to abandon you like I did, I pray you know that. The last thing I wanted was to leave you but circumstances gave me no choice at all. For your safety.
You will understand in due time. Hopefully, you will find it in your heart to forgive me for what I have done.
I pray to the gods that I may see you soon. Once we meet -on your terms, of course - I will explain everything.
Till we meet, know that I love you, my dearest, Cara.
Mom,
With love.
It was as if I had stopped breathing. The tears blurred my vision, preventing me from seeing. It was suddenly so cold.
With shaking hands, I ran the tips of my fingers across the surface of the paper, over the words : Mom, With love.
So many questions were left unanswered. The weight that ever pressed on my chest remained. Now I was even more curious, more anxious to know the woman who wrote this letter.
The words, they were hers, to me -for me.
For years I had felt abandoned by her. She had instilled in me a fear that everyone may leave me if I was not careful and now she was telling me that it was not her wish ?
Uncertainty hung in the air like a thick moist gas. There was so much I was not sure of, so much I did not know. I felt like an idiot, like a newborn child, discovering the cold, loud, cruel world.
Suddenly I heard a sound behind me. Instinctively. I reached for the lacrosse stick I had carried for 'protection'. A stupid move, I admit, the only thing this stick could keep away was a squirrel and a small one at that.
My heartbeat quickens at another sound, this time it was closer, like its source was right behind me.
I hastily stood up. Taking one last breath, I twisted around swinging the stick in an effort to hit whatever was behind me.
"Ahh! Shit! "Someone cursed. I was able to see just who I'd attacked.
I knew him. I had not forgotten him even though it had been months since I last saw him but I never forget a face or a name.
"Jasper?"
The youthful looking man rubbed his head where I had hit him. A pang of embarrassment washed over me. Then I became suspicious. What was he doing here?
"You're fast. Impressively fast."
Ignoring his compliment and the surprise in his tone, I asked, "what are you doing here?"
"Am I not allowed to be in the forest?" The blonde answered my question with a question. I was now more suspicious of his intentions here. He was hiding something.
"Were you following me?" The accusatory words abruptly left my mouth, never to return. I found myself holding up the lacrosse stick and in a rather defensive manner. He stared at it blankly, a smile tugging on his lips.
"I wasn't," he threw back, "you're the one in our territory."
Suddenly something struck me, I was on private property." This is Ivan's property," I mutter to myself.
Before I can longer dwell on the thought, an even scarier thought strikes me. Jasper knows Ivan and Ivan is a werewolf or whatever Kogo called him.
"Are you... like him? Like Ivan?"
He smiles.
"In a way."
At this point, I can hear my heartbeat in my ears like a loud thundering drum. It's almost deafening.
"Relax. I won't hurt you. Ivanov would rip me to pieces." He held his hands out, almost touching me but I stepped away.
Rip me to pieces. Rip me to pieces. Rip me to pieces, the words played and replayed in my mind like lyrics from a broken record player.
The last memory I had of him flashed in my head. He was holding Mr.Hoff's broken, mangled form just about to throw it across the room.
I think that the only thing that was keeping me from running the other way as fast as I could was the fact that though Jasper was like him, never before had I seen him act as viciously as Ivan had.
Jasper's eyes and voice screamed 'danger!' ,'run away' but he was also alluring. Something about him called you to him, same as Ivan. They were clearly dangerous and at the same time magnetic, attracting you like a moth is to a flame. Perhaps that is what made them so deadly.
"So is this supposed to defend you?" I hear him ask, eyeing the stick that I gripped so tightly. I did not respond.
He laughed loudly, mockingly proving my earlier point, this could not defend anyone against anything unless it was a cowardly squirrel. It wasn't even a long-stick.
The sound of rustling leaves diverted my attention away from the laughing man. Behind him approached a short boy who was about my age, height too, with only what seemed to be a torch in his hand.
His hair was strikingly dark, falling over his face in curls. He was not handsome like the man he now stood next to. Mean as it may sound, it was true, he was not handsome at all, just ordinary and plain.
Now that he was so close I realised that he could have actually been shorter than me.
"I clearly told you to remain behind!" Jax snapped at him, his tone rebuking and harsh.
The boy was quiet, taking a short step back and casting his eyes down.
"Who's this?" I inquire feeling the need to defend the strange and clearly defenceless boy.
"His name is Aeren." The name was a little strange but nice anyway. It fits him perfectly.
"Aeren. Ren. Nice name. "I flashed him a smile as he raised his head up. His stare met mine. There was something about him... Starting into his green orbs I felt as if I'd known him forever and I would know him for the rest of my life. The boy just carried a feeling of familiarity with him.
"You are Cara. I have longed to meet you," he suddenly spoke. His voice was refreshing, not deep like Jax's. It was soft and it sounded wise and a little curious.
His eyes shined with child-likeness.
He was easy to read. I could tell he was not at all like Ivan and Jasper or even like Hoff -a vampire. He seemed human but special nonetheless.
I nodded, confirming to him that I was indeed Cara but I wasn't sure how he knew my name.
Jasper stared at him down and the boy looked down fearfully.
The contrast between the two males was great. One was short; the other was tall. One was big; the other was painfully small.
"I want to tell you that as much as you fear him, Ivan truly cares for you. He desperately cares for you... He is as close to a brother as I will ever have again so I beg you on behalf of him to open your heart to him. He has waited far too long for you, Cara."
***
CaraThere was a draft in the house, like a cold wind had blown past. I chose to ignore it, I had probably left a window open.Entering the kitchen, I shut the back door, making sure to lock it. Who knew what else was out there? Something could easily enter the house and rip me apart....as much as you fear him, Ivan truly cares for you... Jasper's words were stuck in my mind, echoing inside it over and over again.I thought them through, calculating over and over again as if it wasn't such a simple statement, Ivan truly cares for you...Yes, he cared about me, he'd once -long ago -said he liked me. He attacked Hoff to keep me safe, if it weren't for him... if it weren't for him who knows what would have happened? The vampire would probably have drained me of all the blood in my body.Deep inside I was very grateful and thankful that he showed up when he did. Deep inside I cared for him greatly, what we had before, that doesn't just go away. It stays with you.There was no night I sle
JasperAbsent-mindedly, I listened to the clock ticking, eagerly waiting for the hour hand to strike midnight so that this wretched day may over.TickTickTickIt was now half past eleven. Thirty minutes left of this agony.The room was cold and empty. It was dark too. The only light that was on was the one on my desk, the one I was currently pretending to use.The walls were thick, thick enough for me not to be able to hear past them. They were made that way on purpose as were the walls of all the chambers on the South and North wings of the castle.The desk was filled with documents that I had to look at and papers I had to pass to Ivan. In the King's absence all his work fell on my shoulder, as his right hand man...practically even his own right hand. He was currently dealing with the hunt for Zoladie, a sorceress as old and as cruel as time.The woman was...slippery. She left no tracks, using powerful, ancient, untraceable spells to mask her paths and ways. As far as we knew she
CaraAs the months faded away, I did too.I felt like a completely different person now, a ghost of my true self. This was weird considering that I had lived this exact same life before...before Ivan came along, before everything happened.As I stared at my reflection in the mirror I felt oddly bored. I should have been happy, but I wasn't. I felt like I wasn't doing what I was meant to do. I felt unfulfilled.The long black gown flowed down my legs, falling nearly at my feet, only inches away. My two inch, silver stilettos matched the diamond studs I wore. The earring were a gift from my father and the gems on them were real too, a few carats. I had been overjoyed when my father gave them to me just the night before, saying I would have to wear them on this day.My light brown hair poured out from under the graduation cap, cascading down my shoulders like a waterfall and reaching my waist. It had grown longer, I hadn't trimmed it in a while.My lips shined with cherry red lip gloss,
KogoBright light surrounded me as my body left the comfort of my boutique. It was as if I was floating in an empty space. I actually was. There was nothing around me. I was surrounded by heavenly colours. The kind of colours found above the clouds with blue, purple, magenta and black. This had always been my favourite portal.A lethargy began to take over my body as the portal asked its carrying charge.That's what a portal did to you. It sucked the life force out of as you moved throw it. Everything had its price, even magic, especially magic.For every spell there is a toll. This is to keep the balance of life, the balance of nature.I was not so sure my body could handle this task any more. I was getting old and age also has its toll. If I had it my way, I would never leave my house or my liquor cabinet. Sadly, I had to attend the stupid meeting. One day -soon- I would tell the other Princeps to go screw themselves.Screw you all! Fuck your godforsaken meetings.A smile tugged at
CaraGod, he's handsome ,I think, staring at the man before me. I had forgotten how breath-takingly handsome Ivan was. It was striking -his beauty. It never failed it amaze me how attractive I found him.Did everyone else see it or was it just me? No, they must have seen it too. Who couldn't?Ivan was handsome in a way that was different from the modern definition. Yes, you could describe him as 'hot' but that would not suffice. His beauty was old-fashioned and nothing like the kind seen in today's male models.The beauty he displayed was a dominating and mature kind. It took over your senses and it was not too boyish -not meaning that he looked old, there was nothing old about him.A cold wind blew past us but I hardly felt it, the warmth he radiated shielded me from it. The trees swished and I was reminded of my location and why I was here.How could I have forgotten? Ivan had distracted me from the matter at hand. Liza was missing and possibly in grave danger. A panic filled me aga
CaraI was sat on the couch using my laptop, checking college admissions, so far I had gotten three, none of which I really wanted. To be honest, I had only applied to them in case I did not get into the one I really wanted, Balor.Balor was my dream school and I really wanted to get in. Sadly the application process was a whole thing. First you send in your credentials followed by a few assigned essays and then an interview.All I had to do was attend the interview on Saturday. Saturday because they like to see if the applicant is serious enough to attend an interview on a weekend. A good way to weed off the jokers.Dad was at work and my friends had left after breakfast that morning.Hanging out with them had been nice but Liza had been a bit off. It was probably because of what had happened the night. Maybe a hangover. A hangover was nothing the girl could not handle so I did not worry too much about the issue.The house was pretty much empty. I liked the peace and quiet.There was
JasperThe fire burned furiously in front of me in an icy blue flame. Unlike an ordinary fire, it was as cold as Greenland's icy mountains, freezing you with its touch. It made the atmosphere similar to that of a crypt. Cold and unnerving.An unburning arrow stuck out from the flame. The arrow had been used to light the fire. By my calculations, it had from travelled beyond the castle walls, past the large opening where there should have been a wall and landed right onto the spot it currently was. The work of a skilled marksman. Or markswoman.Below the cold waves was a sign. A sign with an unmistakable message. It was as old as time itself and everyone knew what it meant. Revenge. Vendetta.The sharpness of the points of the star-like sign chilled my bones.This was the work of powerful magic.I stared across the room. It was evening now. Night was approaching. Ivan would soon be here. I greatly anticipated his reaction to this. He would either lose his tempter and break something l
CaraI dropped down, pain shooting through my knees due to the impact, but I did not care. I barely even noticed.Liza's form was cold. Freezing. I pressed my palm on her temple. She shivered under my touch. I was actually thankful that she did. It assured me that she was still alive.My breath caught as I took her in. She was covered in soil and grass. Her clothes -the same one she had worn the other night- were dirty and torn up. Her blonde locks were a mess. She was barefoot. Dry blood covered her hands and feet."Oh my God!" I exclaimed, my palm covering my mouth.How had this happened?Who did this?She was fine yesterday.What shocked me most was the gory cut on her left wrist. A deep anger accompanied my astonishment. I wanted to know whoever had done this to her.Was the work of a human or something else? Probably the latter.I felt defensive and protective of my friend in that moment, feeling a strong urge to find whoever it was that did this and exact a painful revenge on th