Chapter 32

Lillian

I was a hot slippery mess. Zayden knew how to use his tongue, exploring places I didn't know were sensitive.

I grabbed his thick hair, pressing his face against my pussy as I arched my back in pleasure.

"Ahh, Zayden!" I cried, my mind blurry with ecstasy.

"Slower!" I moaned. My hips jerked as he hit a spot.

My toes were curling, my eyes rolling back into my head as my whole body convulsed.

The orgasm hit me like a tornado, my body trembling violently. I watched with half-closed eyes as he pulled away, licking his lips like a hungry beast.

His eyes were filled with lust. The next thing I heard was the unbuckling of his belt.

My eyes roamed his body till they went below his waist. His hands were moving swiftly and it suddenly occurred to me what was about to happen next.

I suddenly panicked as he grabbed my hips and spread my legs apart.

I can't do this. I can't, at least not now.

His zipper came loose and he reached inside his pants. I could already picture how big he was from the way his length was straining behind the piece of clothing.

The next second I snapped my legs shut, sitting up properly and scooting away from him a little.

He eyed me, pulling his brows together in a frown." What?"

I shook my head."I ..I can't." As much as my pussy ached in need, I can't give myself to a man I'm not committed to. It was a policy I set for myself a long time ago, and ever since, I haven't broken it.

He raised a brow." What do you mean you can't?"

I swallowed, suddenly aware that I was completely naked before him." We can't do this. I don't want to."

He scoffed and grabbed my hips pulling me close till I slammed onto his broad chest." You don't want to? Are you scared?"

I met his piercing gaze." I'm not scared but I won't have sex with you."

There was amusement in his eyes, a smirk dancing on his lips." Really? Are you sure about that?"

He slipped his hands inside my wet entrance; I didn't even realize it when a moan escaped my lips.

" Your body says otherwise." He growled.

Shameless little me rode his fingers, anticipating the next orgasm. I wanted it; damn, I wanted him.

I won't give in. I have remained a virgin for 24 years, and I plan to let it remain so till I find my prince charming, that's if I'll find any.

And Zayden wasn't a prince from my perspective.

He didn't stop and continued to stroke me till I lost all my senses." Say you want me." He growled in my ears, trailing kisses down my neck.

He bit down on my flesh, making me shiver." Say it !"

I grasped." You say it!"

He chuckled deep and powerful." Oh, you don't know how much I want you Lillian. From the first day you walked into my office, I've been craving your taste. I've wanted to fuck you since that day in my bathroom."

I jerked as he added another finger and increased the pace. His words were like electricity, igniting a fire within me.

I was sweating and panting like a whore. Moaning so loudly I thought I'd lose my voice. He kept the pace till the pleasure washed over me in a satisfying bliss.

He brought his fingers to his mouth and sucked on my juices, his eyes never leaving mine.

Grabbing my hips again he freed himself from his pants. His dick bounces free, hot, hard and throbbing.

" You are going to get fucked, right now!" He snarled.

I wanted it; I wanted him to take me in all ways unholy until I was a shattered mess. But I had my dignity to uphold. I wasn't going to let him have me, not until I was certain of my place in his life.

I stifled a moan as he grazed my entrance." I'm...I'm not having sex with you."

He paused, staring at me long and hard before speaking."why?"

"If I had slept with every single man that touched me, wouldn't that make me a whore?" I asked Instead.

He frowned." You let another man touch you?" His voice was stern.

I shrugged." Just once or twice."

His hands were around my neck the next second, gripping them not enough to stop the flow of air but enough to make my pussy pulse.

" You let another man put his finger in your cunt!" His voice was dangerously cold.

I clawed at his hand around my neck but he wouldn't budge." Christ! That was years ago; nothing more happened. It's none of your business who I've been with, why do you even care? What's your problem?"

He was angry now, from the way the veins in his neck were popping out, he was mad.

"It's my fucking business because this cunt is mine, and I hate sharing, whether it's with your past boyfriends or not!" He snarled finally letting go.

I grasped for air, disbelief all over my face. How can he even be jealous of someone he hasn't met? How can he be jealous of my past life?

I wanted to say I never had a boyfriend, or rather, I did, but it was a complicated relationship. I threw the thought out of my mind immediately before I had a trigger and then an episode right here.

The last thing I want is to let Zayden find out about my condition.

"Past boyfriends or not, I'm not sleeping with you," I told him, attempting to get down from the counter but he stopped me.

He scoffed." So you'd rather I finger fucked you and sucked your cunt, but you give nothing in return?"

My eyes fell to his erection. I suddenly felt selfish. He has needs, too, and I was about to deprive him of that after what he did to me.

" I could help you out," I spoke softly, reaching for his dick.

He grabbed my hand before it could reach him." I don't want a blow job."

"Then what else?" I sighed, I heard an unattended erection could bring discomfort or pain in some cases to men. At this rate, he'll have blue balls, and from the looks of things, he was growing impatient.

His eyes roamed my naked body.

I shook my head." I'm not giving you sex even if you beg for it."

He chuckled." I don't beg but I'll make you."

I raised a brow." Coming from a man who is halfway on his knees." I joked.

He frowned again." You have no reason to refuse, not after everything."

I opened my mouth to speak, but a thought suddenly occurred to me.

"After everything? Wait ...is this what you wanted?"

He ran a hand through his hair." What are you talking about?"

I swallowed, realization suddenly dawning on me." Is this your end of the bargain? The reason you helped me was to make me your whore."

He remained quiet for a few seconds before speaking." Yes, partially."

I bit down on my lips, my stomach roiling." So you took me shopping and gave me a house and money because you wanted my body. Is that your end of the deal?"

"Yeah, partially." He stated plainly.

All lust that I had had disappeared. Why else would a man be over-generous? I should have known. I should have known he would demand something like this even if I had expected something different.

I swallowed the lump in my throat." so you..you did those things because... because." I couldn't complete my statement, painful realization piercing through my chest.

He zipped himself back up." I've spent a lot on you, Isn't that much more than people usually pay prostitutes?"

I gritted my teeth in anger, my palm connecting with his face immediately. I slapped him again, taking deep breaths to calm my breath.

My chest hurt, not because I let myself get manipulated but because he thought of me as a prostitute.

His grey eyes darkened." Did you just?"

I slapped him again and went for his cheek a fourth time when he caught my hand mid-air. " Do that again and I swear I'll break your wrists."

Silence followed.

The only thing that could be heard was our breathing.

A shiver ran down my spine. The man before me wasn't Zayden. The look in his eyes wasn't the Zayden from two minutes ago. The aura he emitted was terrifying and I knew better than to push his buttons.

I whimpered; his grip on my hand had tightened, and it hurt.

"Let me go," I mumbled, trying to bite back the tears.

His grip tightened, and he twisted my wrist, bending my palm backwards till I heard a low crack." the next time you raise your hand to me, I won't be this lenient."

I groaned in pain, disbelief clouding my vision." Stop, let go. Please."

I tried clawing at his hand with my free one, but he remained still. I had an idea that Zayden was the temperamental type but I didn't think it was to this extent.

I met his cold gaze."Zayden, please." I Whispered, the first tear escaping my eyelids.

He caught sight of the tear and immediately let go, his eyes widening like he just woke up from a trance.

I stared at him as more tears followed.

" Lillian, I ..." He reached forward.

I stepped back, picked up my dress, and ran out of the kitchen.