Chapter 33

Zayden

Fuck!

Fuck!

Fuck!

  I'm an idiot, I messed up big time. I saw the look on her face before she left. Anger, disappointment and fear. I knew them all too well.

       First I had called her a prostitute when I was clearly the one seducing her, then I had hurt her. Maybe I should put a leash on my tongue and my temper since I had no idea how to control them.

    

    She did not come out till morning, and then the next two days were a living hell.

She avoided me like a plague. It was goddamn frustrating.  She didn't talk to me; she always stayed in her room till the sun rose, and she ignored my calls and texts. She refused to let me drive her and she always stood at least three feet away from me. When I tried to go closer, she'd move ten steps away.

I was losing my mind. I hated it, I did not like the burning feeling growing in my chest each day.

  Today wasn't any different. She came in today with Aiden. I didn't want her to get more angry at me so I remained calm as I watched Aiden flirt with her right in my office.

   She was doing this on purpose because her laugh was forced and Aiden was too stupid to notice it.

   Lillian returned to her desk and closed the blinds, it had been like this since. Aiden came out of her office with a smug smile on his face.

Honestly, I didn't have the strength to deal with him right now.

" What's up, brother? How are you enjoying the silent treatment?" He snorted.

I ignored him.

"I told you, once she's seen you behind this mask, you'll lose her. And you know the worst part?" He ranted.

I sighed." Get out!"

"It'll hurt like hell!" He chuckled. " Even if you don't have feelings for her, it'll hurt so bad that you'll lose your mind."

I was already losing my mind. I never imagined Lillian giving me the silent treatment would be this terrible.

" Are you done?" I raised a brow.

He straightened his stance." I'm going to buy a house and I'm giving it to her. She'll be moving out from your place soon before you do more than sprain her wrist."

He then strolled out whistling. I remained in my chair unmoving. I'd lie if I said I wasn't panicking every day she came home late, thinking she'd never come back.

She won't be moving out; I won't let that happen, even if it means chaining her to my bed.

I ran a hand through my hair, not in the mood to work. A knock on the door disturbed the silence in my office.

"What is it ?"

The door opened, revealing a skinny-looking sage.

She needed to step up her diet, she was as flat as a board. I still can't imagine what I saw in her in the first place. All I see now is a pack of annoying bones.

  Lillian was way more curvier and thicker, she had enough flesh to squeeze and bite. Her breast were three times the size of Sage's.

I cursed on realising where my train of thought was heading. I won't blame myself, I've had to endure blue balls twice now.

"Zay!" Sage squeaked, running over my side.

I glanced at the blinds at Lillian's office. Sage noticed and her smile fell.

"You know what to do, right?" I glared at her.

She clenched her fist." You can't make me do this! "

"Then think twice before you plan on attacking my secretary again!" I snapped, pushing her off me.

She stumbled." She's a nobody, I'm not apologising to that bitch."

I stood up, grabbing her hand and pushing her towards the door." Yes, you will. Don't make me repeat myself, Sage."

Her eyes were beginning to water. I nudged her towards the door and watched as she hesitated before stepping in.

Minutes later, she was out and fuming, staring at me like I cared if her head exploded.

Her anger disappeared the next second replaced by a sly smile.

She attempted to sit on my lap behind my desk but stopped herself when she met my gaze.

  "My father told me we'll be getting married soon, isn't that wonderful?" She beamed, rubbing circles on the length of my arm.

I scoffed but remained silent; I knew Lillian was probably eavesdropping. Sage was aware, too, from the way she glanced at the blinds every second.

"I think we should have the wedding in Paris, it's going to be spectacular. Don't you think ?" She pouted her lips.

I stared at her. I used to find her pretty, but right now, I see excess makeup on a plastic face.

"If you don't have anything meaningful to say then get out !" I snapped.

She flinched before stepping away." if you don't marry me, you'll lose the company; you have no choice." She yelled, her chest heaving up and down.

I smirked." Plenty of other women are willing to kiss my feet."

Her nose flared; I noticed she glanced at Lillian's office for a brief second." Aiden said she's living with you now, is she that cheap that she can't afford her apartment?"

I frowned." Watch your tongue, sage. You don't want to lose it."

She clenched her jaw." I'm the ambassador of this company; you need Me!"

I shook my head." No, I don't."

She gasped, her eyes turning red." I'm coming back to the US to resume my position as your secretary and ambassador; she better be out of this company before then."

"you were awful at your job ,she's better than you." I said, cooly.

Her figure shook from anger, turning around ,she stomped out of the office. There's only a fifty per cent chance that Lillian overheard our conversation.

  I sighed, opening a file on my desk. I stared at the piece of paper. I'm running out of time here.

    Why did I even think I could win her over with sex? And now she's too mad to even hear me out. I had to do something and do it quickly.

  I could ask her today, but she'll probably refuse since she's still mad at me.

I spent the rest of my day working, mostly pacing my office trying to think of a good way to apologize.

  This was harder than the last time because I had hurt her. I fucking almost sprained her wrist when we barely lived together for a week.

   I stopped a few feet from the glass door, contemplating whether to wait till we got home or talk to her now.

Twisting the doorknob, I stepped in. She was smiling at her phone but as soon as she saw me her smile fell.

I had a bitter feeling she was texting Aiden. My jaw tightened, I should block his number on her phone.

"Can we talk?" I asked standing a few feet away from her.

"Is it work-related?" She asked Instead.

I dipped my hands in my pocket, suddenly feeling defeated." No."

" Then there's nothing to talk about." She snarled.

She was still angry from the tune of her voice. Usually, I wouldn't care if it were someone else but this was Lillian.

She was the only one who had the guts to look me in the eye and challenge my authority. The only one that had the guts to speak to me indifferently and damn me; I couldn't do anything about it. Rather, I don't want to do anything about it.

"I'm sorry." I sighed." I ..umm, shouldn't have said those things."

She relaxed further in her chair." Mr Kent, with all due respect. I don't want to discuss anything unrelated to work."

Her words slashed through me like tiny needles." Lillian please...."

She shook her head." If you're going to continue speaking, then I might as well excuse myself, or you can leave."

"Just give me a chance to speak!" I phrased, anger building dangerously low in my chest. It was this same anger that put me in this position.

" Please leave, Mr Kent." Her voice was stern.

I bit down on my lips. I owned this fucking building, but here I am getting sent out of her office.

My line of sight fell on her wrist, which was slightly red. She noticed and hid it behind her.

I didn't need anyone to tell me; I knew the amount of strength I used in twisting her wrist; it was enough to cause some damage.

"I'll give you some time." That was the last thing I said before leaving the office entirely.

There was no use staying if I can't focus on work.

As I drove home, I couldn't help but think Aiden was right.

I always end up hurting anyone that gets close to me.