Valentine
In the middle of the night, I had a terrible dream. I don’t know if it was a dream or nightmare, I can’t really tell the difference. It was the moment in high school when I was about to ask Dominic to be my boyfriend. I guess that’s the part where I can say it’s a dream but everything that happened afterward was a nightmare.
Valentine“Valentine is that you?” My mom asked as soon as she laid her sight on me.I stared at her and I was frozen for a moment. I don’t even know exactly how to feel. Seeing my mother for the first time since the last time I cursed her and drove her away from the house gave me mixed feelings. There’s a lot of emotion stirring up inside my fickle heart and I’m not sure how to handle it. I don’t think I can face this fiasco that I just purposely dove into at all. I’m going to say it’s pretty clear that I’m not angry anymore however, there are still some needles stuck in my chest.Looking at my birth mother now, she most definitely aged three times than my father did. I’m not trying to judge her for that but the changes on her were strikingly evident that even a youngster could notice at first sight. I stood frozen in front of her for a while long
DominicWho knew this day would be surprisingly interesting in the most dramatic way possible? I was just having a regular date with the person that I love the most, and I couldn’t believe things have just turned to a sharp curve. For the most part, I zipped and kept my mouth shut just as Valentine was striking a serious conversation with his estranged mom. I don’t know why I called it estranged, but all I know is that they have an interesting history. I thought their relationship is gone for good. Well, it kind of is, but this ongoing conversation is telling me that there’s a little bit of hope for it. Valentine used to hate his mother to death, like if the ship is sinking and can only save one between his father and mother, we all know he will choose his father right off the bat. Somehow I’m a little bit confused that he followed her from that restaurant all the way here, but that just tells me that he’s changed so m
DominicI became numb instantaneously. The written words in front of my sight seemed to have googly eyes and maniac smiles and they are more than ready to make fun of me. I’m not even hallucinating but they were all mad laughing at me. I quickly returned the piece of paper to where I picked them up and covered it with Valentine’s suit. I had to take a moment to pinch myself in order to make sure that I’m not having a nightmare. Unfortunately, it turns out everything’s real. It was all fucking real. I couldn’t think straight, I feel like my tongue just got tangled and I ended up grabbing my phone and wallet before eventually storming out of the room without even looking back. And what’s the point of looking back when everything just became blurry and painful on so many levels? I picked up my pace faster and quickly found myself out of the house before eventually walking to who knows where. I don’t have any i
ValentineWaking up to see Dominic curled up beside me was the reality that I was expecting, except it turned out to be a fantasy. The other side of the bed was cold and empty, which clearly meant Dominic had gone for several hours. I propped myself out of bed and quickly headed downstairs to check if Dominic had been down there cooking for breakfast or something. That’s what I would do for him, wake up early and prepare for our breakfast together. Maybe he’s doing what I should be doing. When I got to the kitchen, I found not a single soul, and even when I checked every single room that he could be in and yet there’s still no sign of him. I went back to my room, thinking that Dominic could have woke up early and just went home. That’s the only reason I could think of right now. I immediately checked my phone, hoping that he’d left me a message, but he didn’t. I’m unwilling to feel it, but I felt terribly c
Dominic It’s hard to accept the blatant fact that karma is finally coming for me, and maybe it isn’t the quickest karma, but it surely took time to sharpen its claws. The biggest part of me wanted to let things happen, perhaps let Valentine destroy me, but then I realized he already did. I don’t have to ask him to be my boyfriend, and he doesn’t need to reject me because I’m already crushed to pieces. When I woke up earlier this morning, I wasn’t surprised that I brought Lyndon home, but I was more than shocked to know that nothing happened between us. We both woke up topless, but we knew that nothing happened besides the casual kissing and snuggling. It was kind of disappointing considering the fact that I know how good he is in bed. Perhaps nothing happened because I was super wasted last night that I couldn’t walk straight or even unzip his pants. “Dominic,” I just puffed a smoke wh
ValentineI glued my eyes at the ceramic vase filled with colorful flowers as the nurse prepared the first aid kit. At the first look, I thought they were fresh flowers until I moved a little, and I instantly recognized them to be fake. It seemed too easy to replace fresh flowers with plastic ornaments just because they last forever.“This is going to sting a little bit,” The nurse warned as if I don’t already know that it will sting.“I know.” I coughed.I know it’s just a sting, but that’s the whole point of this damn situation. It’s just a small sting, and that’s entirely nothing compared to what I am currently feeling right now. I’ve got cuts and bruises all over my lips and face, but it’s totally strange that I don’t feel them at all. All I’m feeling right now is the sharp claws of misery scratching every inch of my in
DominicI was so physically exhausted and emotionally consumed last night that I completely forgot to turn off the alarm clock. As soon as the sun began edging its way into the horizon, it went berserk. I struggled to reach for it, but when my hands finally got ahold of the stupid box, I threw it away so that it will shut up. I quickly tucked myself back inside the blanket, just like a snappy turtle pulling back its head, arms and feet back to its shell. I was just about to get back to sleep when I heard my door open, and my sister showed up, basically killing my desire of going back to sleep. She was forcing me to wake up with her loudmouth, which triggered me to yell at her. I am not in the right mood to deal with her, or anyone, or anything. She didn’t even have the chance to tell the reason why she’s waking me up this early, and I already began telling her to fuck off. Though I’m glad she’s one tough girl, she just stare
Valentine“Hi, Nick. It’s me, Valentine, again. It’s been three weeks since you haven’t returned any of my calls. I’m just worried that something bad happened to you. I’ve been visiting you every day, but your mom and sister always tell me that you went out. I just think we really need to talk, you know. Please call me back.”I stared at the screen of my phone for a while and eventually putting it back in my pocket after it locked on its own. I gripped the steering wheel and looked at Dominic’s house one last time before finally starting the engine and driving to work. I’ve been doing the same routine every day, and honestly, I’ve never been committed like this before. I always wake up early just so I’ll have some time to drive and hopefully catch Dominic. Unfortunately, I always end up disappointed. I know Mrs. Warren and Collene were lying to me about Dominic b