LOGINDecember 3rd, 2019
(Caines, Terres Somnia)
CC's birthday was coming up. She had only recently started getting her dress ready for her birthday and planning for the next fashion show. Bart was glad to see it. The queen's absence finally seemed to be weighing on her less. CC even applied for fashion school next year.
Bart liked watching his fiancee. Shortly after they got engaged, he got himself a very comfortable bean bag chair that he placed in her office. When he dropped by and she complained that she didn't need a babysitter, he swore that he just needed somewhere to study. And he did study. He got through tons of material during his time at the fashion house. Did it take him twice as long as usual because he spent half of the time watching her work? Yes, but she didn't need to know that.
It might not seem sensible that it pleased him so much just to watch her, but then there was a time when he would have given anything just to lay eyes on her. A time when they were forbidden. Even now their families thought that they were moving too fast. “You’re too young,” his father had said. As long as she showed up two months from now to marry him, Bart didn't care. A 20 year old man had never been as sure that he wanted to marry someone as Bart was that he wanted to marry CC.
"Ouch," he heard her whisper under her breath.
As much as Bart liked watching her, he loved going to her even more. She already had the band—aid out by the time he got to her. He looked into her face as he took it from her and put it on her newly pricked finger.
"I can take care of my own needle pricks you know,” she complained, ghost of a smile on her face.
"I know, Caroline," he said, bending over to pick her up.
Caroline.
Her name out of his mouth made her putty in his hands. He knew it and she knew he knew. It made her furious. His saying her name undoubtedly meant he was going to make her do something she didn't want to and she would allow it, because really there was nothing he wanted to do with her that she didn't want to do with him.
"Time for bed, you're exhausted. You can pick it back up tomorrow," he said, taking the unfinished dress from her.
"I'm not sleepy," she protested with a yawn, her arms wrapping around his neck as she snuggled up against his chest and her eyes fell closed.
"Right, of course not," he said, as he carried her out of the office.
Bart took CC to the room next to her office. He had turned it into a bedroom for her to take naps in when she had a show coming up and didn't have time to go home. It was one of many attempts at getting her to come back to work. He probably should have gotten her something bigger than a ¾ bed. CC ended up spending quite a lot of time at the fashion house after James and Zoey's coronation. Being at the palace all the time was still too hard for her back then and she didn't want to put Bart's parents out. Besides, she liked the effort he'd put into the place. It was cozy, she'd told him.
She clung to him as he tried to lay her down.
"Stay," she whispered, kissing his cheek.
Bart swallowed. She'd been especially clingy the last few nights, insisting he stay with her. There was this unspoken agreement between them that nothing beyond kissing would happen until they got married, so he didn’t usually stay the night. He loved her and wanted her to be happy and comfortable, but damn she was driving him crazy.
Ever since the first time he saw it, the uncertainty in her eyes, it was like CC no longer wanted what he thought they agreed upon. She was finally getting back to basics and that pleased him, but now there was this. He didn’t know what to do with himself. Did they need to talk about it? But he didn't want to embarrass either of them.
He couldn't go there with her. Not while that persistent look of uncertainty left him so confused about what was going on in her head. Bart needed to find a way to make that look go away before they could consummate their love.
The moment she asked him to stay, he knew it was coming. Just like the previous two nights, she was straddling him and her warm touch alongside her eager mouth told the story of her intent. He restrained himself, giving her free reign as he fought to not to explore beyond her mouth. For all the good it did him. Tonight her fingers weren’t satisfied with feeling the buff chest, broad shoulders and rock hard core that hid under his shirt all day. As evidenced by the way she locked eyes with him, bit the corner of her lip as her shirt accompanied her arms up above her head, tonight CC wanted more.
"It better fucking always be me. I'm not like your exes, Aaron. I'm a trained killer," she said, squeezing his throat as she smashed her lips into his. Why she was still threatening him when he said everything she waited months to hear, she didn't know, but she'd never been more relieved. There was no taking back his time with Emily, but that was as much his fault as Keira's. If he could let her go, let everything go, for their beautiful life together, so would she. "If I could choose how to die, it'd be between your thighs. I am never going to want anyone else ever again. We're going to be so stupid happy," he said, chuckling at the threat before he slid his fingers into her hair and deepened the kiss. "There's something I need to tell you," she said, as he picked her up and carried her through the house. "Tell me after I've been inside you," he said, enjoying the little kisses she left on his neck while her limbs wrapped around him as he entered the bedroom. "It's you
Her presence on his lap surprised him, but he welcomed it, laying hands on her hips instantly. Her murderous rage had desire flooding his ocean blues. There was that damn way he looked at her even when she was pissed and had her hands around his throat. Teach me to let you love me again. "You said the ones who came before you were the wrong women, but that's not true. They were the right women. They were safe for me. Too safe. I went from woman to woman desperately looking to be understood, but unable to show them everything. You're the wrong woman, Keira. Baby we're born enemies. We don't make sense on paper. You make me feel so out of control. It's like I'm in a trance when I'm around you. My brain doesn't work. You make me rebellious and reckless. Everything I was raised not to be. Even so, I call you my hope and peace, because that's what you are. You're not safe at all, because you see right through me, but with you, that's okay. I feel fucking crazy around you, but without y
"You obsessed over a dead man for over a year and you're asking me if it matters? Yes, it fucking matters," she said, raising her voice, cutting him with her words. "You hated me. After she left, I knew you'd fuck me though. Tell me what she said that night that made you fuck me, Ron." "She said she loved me. That she wanted to be with me," he admitted with a sigh. "But she's not the one I took home that night, Keira. You are. I chose you," he said defensively. "You keep saying that, but you didn't choose me, Aaron. You got stuck with me. If your father and Troy didn't force us together, I would have been just another random fuck. Someone you used to feel better so that you could go home to her," she said, slamming her hands into his chest to push him away, unable to remain in his arms anymore. She turned away from him, sat herself down on the couch and buried her head in her hands. That wasn't fair. Keira wasn't exactly over Ethan at that point. That started changing the moment
The moment she stepped through the door, he picked her up in his arms and carried her to the living room, gently setting her down on the couch before sitting down next to her. "All I want to do is rip your clothes off and make you feel good. Not hurt you. At least not in a way that you don't like," he said, giving her a small grin. "We can't pretend the pain isn't there. We can't pretend I didn't run. Push you into the arms of another woman. Keep secrets. Fuck everything up. Break both of our hearts," she said somberly. "What do you want me to do, Keira? I'm so damn pissed. Is that what you want to hear? I just want to scream at you. You kept my very identity from me. Didn't let me help you when it mattered most. I'm not Mary, Keira. I didn't kill your mother. It's not my fault that she did," he said, becoming more and more defensive as he continued on. "I did what I did to protect you, not because I blame you," she said softly, taken aback that he thought any of this was his
"Get up there. On your knees," he ordered, slipping his hands up her dress and yanking her panties down to her thighs the moment she complied, taking charge for the first time since she agreed to the condition. Moments later, he was sinking into her, groaning openly as her body accepted him. "Are you sure that's what you want, Keira? We will have less time to do this," he said, kissing the back of her neck while he waited for her to adjust. He may not think much of granting her request, but she was over the moon. Hopeful despite all the sex, intimacy and marked attention coming with one caveat: they weren't talking about how she left him. "Somehow I think we'll figure it out," she said, bracing herself for the first thrust as he pulled back. The back and forth about who was the better marksman between them took on a life of its own. They competed every day, drawing a fierce crowd every time. Each time a winner was declared, a dispute was raised as to why things had been unfa
After the fuss at the shooting range, they retired to their bedroom early. It ended up being too close to call, so they had plans to do it again tomorrow. "Where are you going?" he asked her, watching her gather her things. "I need to get ready for bed. I'll be right back," she said, heading for the bathroom. He cut her off on the way and laid a hand on her back, sliding the zipper down her dress as he looked her in the eye. "You're not going out of your way to avoid me, Keira Dormer. Get ready for bed like you do every night," he said, letting the dress pool around her ankles. "I'm not getting naked in front of you with the lights on," she said defiantly, not ready for him to see her without her make up on. "You're already halfway there. I've seen everything and you're going to show it to me again anyway when you ask me to fuck you tonight. So get over it," he said, picking her up and walking to the vanity table. He set her down, then took the accessories out of h







