We chattered and bantered through the remainder of the afternoon, called out for pizza – as none of us was fit to drive – and slovenly lazed about my new home.
“You know, Sade?” Amy began, “You seriously need a vacation.” She cut her eyes in Carrie’s direction, where Carrie sat harboring an anxious grin.
I looked back and forth between the two of them. “What are you two up to?”
I took a big bite of the greasy pizza and another sip of the wine to wash it down as I eyed the two suspiciously.
“I want to tell her,” Carrie piped up, staring at Amy with a daring gleam in her eyes. Amy nodded.
“Well you know that little cabin that Amy and Chuck went to this past summer?” Carrie brimmed. I knew where this was going. I couldn’t be angry with them. They had seen the hell I’d been through the past couple of months. I would’ve done the same for them. And they knew I’d never do anything for myself.
Amy cut in, “Carrie and I knew you’d never do anything for yourself,” she started, reading my thoughts, “So, we went in together and got you a weekend retreat. It’s not much, but at least you can leave all your worries behind and go to the middle of nowhere and…well…regroup.” We all laughed at Amy’s little speech. Regroup. Yeah, I did need to do that.
Before long it was late, as the sky had pulled its dark blanket over the sun many hours ago. With our buzzes long worn off, Carrie and Amy decided it was time to go home to their families. Amy adamantly hounded me about how she didn’t mind sleeping over if I didn’t want to be alone as I all but shoved her into her car.
“I will be just fine,” I slammed the door to her car and blew her a kiss as I marched back up the gloriously fragrant walkway that led to my front door.
I actually wanted to be alone.
I picked up around the sofa and tables which were now littered with the aftermath of our little mini-party. It was nice. Cleaning up my house. My house. I walked into the kitchen and ran water in the dishes before putting them in the dishwasher, poured myself another glass of Moscato, and went to the stereo to put on some soft music, keeping it low so it didn’t irritate my ears. I never got to listen to my music in the house when Peter and I were married. My music annoyed Peter. But I did not want to think about Peter. Not now. I held up my hand as if the gesture would physically push the thought out of my head. It seemed to work.
I strolled to the living room and collapsed on the dime store sofa. It was the most comfortable sofa I’d ever owned. Hell, it was the only sofa that I’d ever owned. The only one that had ever been just mine. It was a vivid shade of red, and the fabric was almost like corduroy. I laid my head back and stared up at the ceiling fan and watched it rotate, its circular movement lulling me. I closed my eyes listening to the quiet hum of the fan and the calm crooning of Norah Jones. I may have dozed for a moment, but a strange sound from outside the window jarred me wide-awake.
It was a slight yet peculiar sound and would’ve been undetectable by most people, but it roused me. It was a sound almost like a bird’s wings but from what I could make out there were footsteps also. Heavy. Much too heavy for a bird. I started to walk over to the opened window that I had left partly open to allow the light breeze of the warm early autumn day to drift in. I could then hear breathing, a heartbeat quickening, but once I reached the window the sound was gone. The azaleas rustled as though something had just beaten a path through them, and in the dim light cast by the lamppost, I could see nothing. I sensed movement above me and heard the slight whoosh of wings. I opened the window farther and stretched my neck out to peer up into the deep darkness of the night sky. If anything had been out there and taken to flight, it had been swallowed up in the blackness of the starless sky.
I shuddered. I couldn’t determine if it was because I’d been spooked a bit by the strangeness I felt at the moment or because the crisp night had turned cooler and the air had chilled me. It was probably a little bit of both. I couldn’t shake the feeling that someone had been watching me.
Silly. I tried to blow it off just as easily as I had the thought of Peter and his aversion to my music, but I felt it building. I was frightened, and I really didn’t know why.
I closed the window and turned the lock. I went to check all the doors and windows just to be safe and curled back up on the couch. I would’ve turned the music off and the television on just to deafen the resounding fear that was escalating in me, but I had not yet purchased one. I picked up my drink and took a stiff swallow. What was wrong with me? Scared of a stupid bird! I was getting a bit miffed at myself. Here I was spending my first night in my new home, and I get terrified of a stupid bird. Seriously? I chided myself. All I’d wanted to do was bask in the liberation I’d felt all day; just sit in my living room, drink, listen to good music, and just absorb the newness of this fresh life I was beginning today.
I nearly jumped out of my skin when my cell phone rang. It was Carrie. She just had a feeling and felt an urge to call. Strange. I assured her I was fine, but it was nice having someone on the phone. A connection to someone outside of the unsettling feelings the noises had set off in me, the unease I was having about being alone. Really alone. Maybe that was all this was. Aloneness. So what if a big bird was outside my window? Images of Sesame Street invaded my mind with the thought, and I laughed out loud. I was going to be fine, I thought to myself as I went to the kitchen, poured yet another glass of Moscato, and walked over to the stereo.
“Ha! Screw you, Peter!” I said to the empty room as I cranked up Norah. I didn’t care if it made my ears bleed. I did it because I could!
I had to grip my goblet. I felt as though I might drop it. That was the last thing I needed to do. Injure myself again. I sat the glass down firmly on the table and glared at Ben. “Why? Why would you say that? Why would you put that off on me? Stevie and Paulo were with Carrie way before...” “For about four months before you were sent to Yarber Heights.” Richard interjected. I whipped my head around to look at him. “About the time your parents had started to consider sending you there. Honey, we can project into the future within reason. However, sometimes humans can change their mind and throw the projection off course but not in this case. Your friend Carrie did have problems. She was a manic depressive and mildly schizophrenic. She had contemplated suicide. So, her parents had her placed there because they were afraid she would follow through with it. But it wasn’t until George and Sue decided to send you there that Stevie and Paulo attached themselves to Carrie.” I didn’t unders
“So, you have lived many times before? Do you remember any of those lives? Isn’t that kinda the same as reincarnation? But humans can be reincarnated too, can they not?” I knew I had just bombarded him with a host of questions, but there were a multitude of them coursing through my mind. I had just started with the simple ones. “Yes, I have lived many, many times before. I don’t know exactly how many. But we all live and die and are reborn. And we all have a way of finding each other. It’s like we’re linked somehow. This link does have its drawbacks. The Corrupt can find us just as easily as we can find each other and believe me, we don’t want to be found by them. Since the beginning of all of this and the separation of the Fallen angels, into the Virtuous and the Corrupt...” “We align ourselves with the Virtuous, by the way.” Richard interjected. Ben nodded and repeated. “We were divided into the Virtuous and the Corrupt. The Corrupt have determined to seek out the Virtuous and kil
Ben began. “Long ago, before man was ever created...” I squirmed a little. He had managed a sentence, and I was already uncomfortable with how this was starting.He sensed my discomfort. “Please, just hear me out. It is important that you hear this. I really shouldn’t be the one explaining this to you now...and at your age.” I backed away, slightly offended and wholly confused. “I’m only twenty-five!” I barked. “And what does any of this have do with me? What is happening to me?” He tightened his grip on my arm where his hand had rested. “I wasn’t saying you’re old.” He suppressed a laugh. “I will clarify. I am not the one who was supposed to be teaching you, um, explaining these things to you.” He looked over at Richard who was now looking at us but still smoking his pipe. “We all had this explained to us at a very early age. And unfortunately for you, I am not a very good teacher, but I will do my best to explain it to you as it was described to me.” I sighed. I didn’t understand.
I was shocked. Stevie. How did he know about Stevie? He could've read her mind. Although it was crazy, but not any crazier than anything I’d experienced this weekend. Deep down I knew he could read minds, and that was an insane thought. This whole situation, my life, had just became one insane thing after another. But I also remembered Stevie. I remembered how dark and scary Stevie was. Did I want to leave Carrie here alone, knowing that Stevie could do this to her? Knowing that there was a very real possibility that Stevie was actually real. “She will be fine. I promise.” Ben said as he forcefully lifted Carrie's head and lifted me from the swing at the same time. He carefully laid her on the swing and covered her up with the afghan. He then yanked my arm and started dragging me from the porch me to the car, walking in wide strides. I was staggering in pain, punching his arm all the way. Richard sat his coffee down and coolly strolled to the Jeep. I started crying. I couldn’t kee
Evie had fallen asleep in the backseat, so, Ben rolled down all the windows, and we decided to leave her there to sleep. It was a mild, early fall day, and Carrie’s front porch was less than ten feet away from his vehicle, so I felt she was safe. I got out of the car and waved at Carrie, and she came storming off of the porch towards me. I saw her jaw drop when she saw my injuries. “What the hell, Sadie?” she said looking at my foot and staring at the strangers who accompanied me. “You gotta lot of explaining to do.” She said as she eyed the two darkly handsome but unfamiliar men and turned to walk with me back to the porch of her house. It was chilly but sunny. Not so cold that one would need a coat. Leaves were all about the yard. Barney, her dog, came yapping around the corner of the house as Ben and Richard walked up to the porch behind us. I had already explained some of what had happened, at least enough to clarify the presence of Ben and Richard and the injuries on my leg.
Peter looked momentarily frightened as he dropped the rake and backed away. “No. Peter is my ex-husband.” I stated. His expression softened as I got out of the car. No sooner had my foot hit the ground, I heard the beautiful high-pitched squeal of my sweet girl. She came peeling out the front door letting it carelessly slam behind her. “Mama!” she screamed as she came running to me and crushed her body into mine. I yanked her up and held her tight. It had seemed like an eternity since I'd last seen her. I wanted to just hold her forever. To take her, hop in the car, and yell to Ben, “Drive!” But I knew I couldn't do that. I could feel her tiny tears rolling down my neck. She missed me too. “Where have you been? You haven’t called me.” She was hurt. And I was mad. Mad as hell at Peter. “I did call, Honey.” I cooed, gently pushing a loose strand of hair behind her tiny ear. “Daddy just forgot to tell you.” Fucking douche bag. Evie stared at the car that pulled in behind us. My car.