Evie was at Peter’s again. School had just begun only two short months ago, and this was Fall Break. The first weeks of school had been harrowing. I was at a classroom maximum, and the students I had inherited this year were challenging, to say the least. I hoped this was the worst of it, or I was in for quite a year. I decided to set off on my little weekend excursion to “regroup” as Amy had so aptly put it since Peter had Evie this weekend and after the past few months I’d had, I desperately needed a break.
Bob Marley was singing about three little birds as I maneuvered the Jeep roughly through the bumpy terrain of the seemingly abandoned dirt road. However, here and there throughout the dense forest, other cabins sat nestled in the tranquility that surrounded me. They all appeared to be vacant, void of any vehicles that would indicate otherwise. It really did feel good to be here. Away from everything.
The cabin appeared as though it had been unoccupied for some time. I checked the trip odometer. 5.3 miles I had traveled down this little dirt road, and I passed maybe five cabins. The road continued and vanished up the mountain, into the thick trees past the cabin, but I had no idea for how far or if there were any more homes deeper in the woods. I got out of the Jeep and stretched and reached over the console into the passenger seat to grab my duffle bag. I would only be here for three days. So, I had packed a t-shirt to sleep in, clean underwear, three tank tops, three pairs of shorts, and a sweater and sweatpants to protect me from the cool bite of autumn nights.
Georgia is notorious for days that consist of 70-degree weather during the day, with drops into the 40s at night. The rest of the contents of my bag consisted of cds, liquor, and more liquor. And of course, I brought some bologna, cheese, and loaf bread. Sustenance. I had to eat, and I had no plans whatsoever of leaving this place, and it was very doubtful that I could get a pizza delivered way out here.
I surveyed the simple, rustic cabin. It was small and made of weathered wood. I wasn’t sure if the wood was truly that worn or had been deliberately battered so as to appear distressed. It had a tin roof that had rusted in places. I hoped it didn’t leak. I didn’t anticipate rain, and I didn’t really care if it did, but I didn’t want to get wet while inside. The place was completely encompassed by massive trees all around despite the fact that it sat proudly atop a steep hill. There was a gravel walkway that led to the steps going up to the back screened-in deck and another walkway, also made of gravel, leading to the stairs that twisted up to the front door.
I climbed the many steps leading to the deck of the cabin. This is where the owner told me I would find the key in a lock box. She’d given me the combination to unlock it, and I had to write it down. I knew I’d never remember it. I took the steps two at a time and reached the top of the steps in no time flat. I looked around the screened in deck. There was a small bistro table with a tray and a vase containing freshly picked flowers. In the center of the deck, a tree was growing. I stood there for a minute gawking at it. I had never seen anything like it. Too cool. The deck had been erected around the tree. In the corner of the deck butted against the cabin was an enormous hot tub. It looked like it was made for quite a few people. Nice. I’ll be seeing you real soon, I thought, smiling goofily at the tub, as I walked over to it to remove its padded cover. I folded it and placed it in the corner of the porch and turned the machine on. I was going to be hitting that ASAP.
I dug into my shorts pocket to retrieve the piece of paper on which I’d written the combination. I entered it into the lockbox, freeing the key. As I unlocked the glass door to the cabin, sliding it open, the smell of apple cinnamon invaded my senses. I looked around. The place was so clean and cozy. To my left was the kitchen, with its small stove and little refrigerator. Not a mini-fridge but just a smaller version of a normal-sized ones. And there was the bar. I gently flung my bag onto the counter and began emptying the drinks and food. I immediately poured a glass of vodka. Straight. I drained the glass almost instantaneously and quickly refilled it, sitting it and the opened bottle on the bar beside the glass doors to the deck.
After I’d placed the food in the fridge and the booze at the bar, I walked back into the main area where I had entered. It was a living room with a lavish couch, a coffee table, a cushy chair with an ottoman, a rocking chair, and a stereo. On the other side, directly opposite the sliding doors, was the front door. A small television with a DVD player and a VCR with an assortment of movies in either form was centered in front of the coffee table. There was Blazing Saddles, Somewhere in Time, Total Recall, some kids’ movies, some unlabeled VHSs (hmm), and The Matrix. Quite the variety, I mused. There was a fireplace in the far right corner of the room. Right beside it sat a large basket accommodating the wood and a small bucket of what the owner had called “kindling” on the phone.
I immediately started a fire, knowing that the nights get pretty cold up here in the mountains. On the coffee table were flyers of nearby attractions, a phone book, a few magazines (fishing mostly…ugh), and a stack of racy novels. I sauntered across the room and to my left, just past the kitchen area was a door to the bathroom, and just past that was the bedroom. Quaint. I walked into the bedroom, tossed my duffle bag onto the bed, and dug out my cds and my t-shirt, pitching my tee onto the bed. I marched out of the room, went directly to the cd player, popped in Imogen Heap, put it on repeat, and turned it up. I slid out of my clothes, leaving them in a pile on the floor in the middle of the living room. I strolled to the bathroom and grabbed the two towels that were folded neatly and lying in a basket beside the tub.
“I have a hot date with the tub outside. Sorry little guy. Don’t take it personally.” I raised my eyebrows up and down as I whispered to the bathtub.
I giggled at myself as I sauntered, bare-ass and naked as the day I was born, across the living room, grabbing my glass of vodka and the bottle from the bar as I passed it, and headed out the sliding glass door.
I lay in the water. My mind was aroused with so many thoughts, I could not even attempt to slow them. Despite the sound of the soothing jets desperately attempting to calm me, beating the hot cascading water all over my body, soaking me until my fingers and toes were all pruny, I could not shake the anguish that consumed me. I stared out into the twilight of the cool mid-fall night, looking for nothing, thankful for the emptiness I saw there. Nothing but columns of trees, looming in the shadowy light of dusk; giants enclosed all around me like a fortress. I pushed back tears that threatened to burn through my faux ambiance, my fingers tightly twisted around the vodka bottle like it was a pacifier. I was past this, wasn’t I? I shut my eyes tight against the onslaught of painful thoughts and allowed the crickets to lull me with their night song. Perhaps I would fall asleep here, in this hot tub, in this cabin completely out in the middle of nowhere. No one would find me until I was goo
Peter said I had been so distant from him over the course of our marriage. I had been too busy with finishing my degree and getting a job to support us while he wrote his novel, which he'd been working on for as long as I could remember. Me, trying to find a means of supporting my family while he made empty promises for years of “just wait till I'm published.” Meanwhile, we had to eat. We had to have a roof over our heads. Granted he'd worked briefly, at a grocery store, when I first discovered I was pregnant. Looking back, I now believe he only did that so he could get out of the house and away from me while I was on bed rest. It wasn’t like I ever saw any of his wages. He always spent it on gas, his car, or groceries, which never seemed to be there. There was always something. I had always worked. I had worked so he could stay at home and pursue his dream. When I found out I was pregnant with Evie, I knew that my salary as a medical clerk would not be enough to sustain Peter and me
I squinted, trying to make out the dark form but could tell nothing, just an enormous large black winged creature sitting there, so black that it almost blended with the night. As I backed away from the doors, I reached forward and down with a free finger in the hand in which I was still holding my empty glass, and pushed down the lock on the glass doors. Cautiously, I leaned toward the doors and held my hand up to the glass door in order to block the reflecting light of the fire. All the while still stealthily balancing the empty glass and the two remaining bottles of vodka. My heart was racing. What was I looking at? I couldn’t tell. Fleetingly, the memory of a night from about a month back when I’d first moved into my house came to mind. These were the thoughts going through my head as the dark figure suddenly came at me, slamming itself hard against the glass door, causing me to jump back and drop my glass. I stood there for a minute thinking I pissed on myself. Lovely. I looked
I opened my eyes. I was now lying entirely on the floor. I didn't recall going all the way to the floor, but I either did it or I fell there. Either way, here I was completely sprawled out on the floor. The cold tiles felt so refreshing against my naked body. My body was like an inferno. I was burning up. Just beyond the bar, I could see the fire I had doctored just moments earlier. It was raging now. My eyes scanned the room, and I thought I caught sight of a person standing next to the sliding glass door where earlier I’d been thinking only of returning to the hot tub in an effort to drown out all thought. This wasn’t exactly the way I had intended to do that. Nonetheless, I thought of nothing, except the dark figure at the door and the throbbing in my body. I blinked and the image was gone. I shifted my eyes to the lower part of my body that was caked in blood despite my efforts to clean it. I stared at the huge holes in my foot and leg and allowed my heavy eyes to close again. I w
I buried my face in the downy softness of the plush pillow. Little edges of feathers poked through embedding themselves in my cheek. I wiped the tiny amount of saliva from my mouth. It took me a minute to remember where I was and what had happened. When it did all sink in, I was startled. Last I recalled, I had been lying on the floor in a puddle of my own vomit, bleeding, and in immeasurable pain. I slid my hand under the cover and reached down to feel the inside of my leg. It had been sutured. Slowly, I opened my eyes to look around me. The room was still spinning and everything was a blur, but I could tell I was clean, wearing clothes, and I was covered with the cushiony, down comforter that went with the pillow on which my head was gently resting. I could see the floor where I’d trudged a bloody trail from one end of the cabin to the other. It had been cleaned. The shadow of the flames from the fireplace licked the wall beside me. I was lying on the sofa in the living room, cleane
…Had I dozed again? The room was still vaguely alight with the fiery shadows cast by the dim glow of the fireplace. Someone had added more wood to feed the flames. No lamps had been turned on, and the stereo continued to softly play Imogen Heap. I heard dishes clanking in the kitchen. He was still there. How long had it been since I injured myself? I thought, just wait till I tell the women Amy and Carrie how peaceful my calming mini-vacation went. They will definitely get a kick out of it although living it was not funny at all. I mused at how wrong this weekend had gone. To think…I could’ve died. “You awake again?” He smiled down on me as he came back into the room wiping his hands with the rooster dish towel. Perfect teeth. And he was a doctor. Shame on you. I looked at his ring finger. Nothing there. “You up for a ride?” he questioned. Seriously, I’m almost comatose and he wanted a ride? It took me a minute to realize he was talking about riding in his car - not riding him. Sa
The nearest hospital was in the neighboring county. Although it was about an hour away from the cabin, the drive there didn’t seem very long. I had slept most of the ride and had felt rude for it. I was sure since he was a doctor that he understood. It wasn’t that I hadn’t wanted to carry on a conversation with him. He’d tried talking to me, but I was only able to churn out the occasional yes, uh huh, or hmm. I just couldn’t seem to stay awake long enough to muster up the strength to talk. I only caught fragments of what he’d been saying to me. He was from Atlanta. He’d never been married. He’d asked if I was married? And not to be personal, but why was I up here in the mountains all alone? Now, that was a loaded question thatI definitely did not have the mental energy required to answer. To that, I just shook my head.They were waiting with a stretcher when we arrived. I hazily recalled him calling to let them know we’d be arriving, giving “doctor details” of my condition. No, he’d
I had awakened several times during those wee hours of the morning with my IV neatly pulled from my flesh. The nurse scolded me as if I’d done it on purpose. Yeah, sure, as if I enjoyed the excruciating pain of having it reinserted time and time again. When I woke for the final time, I had worked up the nerve to call into work. In fact, it took all the energy left in my reserve to muster up the courage in me to make that call. Of course, no one would be at the school on the weekend, so, I had to call Mr. Thomas, the principal, at his home to inform him that I had been injured on my trip to the mountains and would be unable to be at work Tuesday. I don't know. I may be ready to go back before Tuesday, but any excuse to stay out of work at this point in my life I was going to take it. He was displeased to say the least. Geez, as though I’d done it on purpose. Mr. Thomas was probably in his late fifties, though he could’ve been younger. I wasn’t sure. He was tall and large. Not fat but j