Don't do it.

Zeno

I've always struggled with my emotions, especially when my father mocked me for my inability to hide them. He loved to remind me how easy it was to read what I was feeling just by looking at my face.

But now, once the panic seizes me, and I remember the pain I used to feel because of the lack of medication, I don't think about pushing Nero away. Instead, I allow him to cradle me, hold me close and comfort me in times of need.

I'm no fool; I can feel how tense his body is and how desperately he holds onto me.

Isn't that funny? It feels like we've known each other forever as if we spend hundreds of hours talking about everything and nothing. In reality, we just met, got married because of a stupid business deal, and now we seek comfort in each other's arms.

As a grown man who holds the title of an Alpha, it's hard for me to admit when something scares or hurts me, so once the tears start streaming down my cheeks, I try to hide them.

If it were my father who saw me in a moment