chapter 1

~ Mira's POV ~

I tapped lightly on the marble coated glass, but no response. I narrowed my eyes, my hands trembling as I turned the door knob. 

It's unlocked? Maybe he left it unlocked since he knew I would be stopping by. I took a heavy strides into Alpha Rowan's office with a file which requested signing. 

I halted my steps to the scene before me, I had paid no attention to the sounds. The unmistakable moans that had reached my heightened ears at the doorstep. 

I refused to breathe for a minute, my fingers were numb and the files dropped on the floor. I should walk out, I should leave the file and go but I couldn't move, my legs were jelly and he might lash out at me for leaving too. 

I had to freaking watch. 

Knots swarmed in my stomach, the bile rising in my throat at the sight. Did he call me over to see this? I trembled taking shaky steps forward but my mate wouldn't even look over at my face, almost like my presence hadn't been noticed. 

“Alpha, I need this signed", I whispered, my voice barely audible for me to hear. It felt absurd, saying those words, holding out the file, while he was still buried inside her. My mate. The man I was bound to by the Goddess herself. And he didn’t even blink. 

I dug into my palms, my breath heavy as I tried to steady my breath, tears glistened in my eyes but it wouldn't break me. I have swore his betrayal won't get to me. 

“Leave it there… I am close”, Alpha Rowan grunted, tightening his grips on her hips. His eyes shutting tight as he makes a final thrust emptying his release into the Omega’s cunt. 

The brunette looked over at me panting, her lips curved into a smirk as she adjusted her dress. Recognition slammed into me, she was from the finance department and the bitch was having an office wreck with my husband, my mate. 

I balled my fists walking straight to Alpha Rowan's desk, slamming the document onto it. I rested my hands on the desk, my fingers digging into my palm beneath the table, the sting grounding while I pretended I was fine. 

Heaven knows I wasn't. I was trembling all over. My husband was whispering to the bitch's ear and she took a final look at me, tilting her head sideways laughing at whatever shit my husband had whispered to her ears, she nodded and scurried off while my mate smacked her ass, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction.

They made me a fucking audience, the scene where I had watched him fucking her rewinding in my head. Wild thoughts buzzed in my head, it could have been me. It could have been me he had bent beneath the table, but he has never casted a longing glance at me before. 

We have never seemed like a couple or fated mates with the bond ordained by the Moon Goddess, I have stopped wishing for his love. It only hurts this much when I expected more, I should have known better. But hope– it's a cruel thing that maybe they wouldn't let you down. I had kept hoping he would come around the fact we are fated mates and love me wholeheartedly as a loving husband and mate should do. 

It's quiet, heavy–

He snapped his fingers onto my face, his gaze darkening. “What the hell is this? I had told you to change these terms, I am starting to think you are deaf and dumb”, Alpha Rowan lashed out at me, throwing the files at my feet and I flinched, his voice echoing in his large office. 

“I-I", I stuttered in a brittle voice, my head facing the ground. 

“Cat fucking got your tongue, I told you to change the terms, we aren't working on a tight budget proposal. We aren't short of finance, just what the heck is wrong with you. Can't you ever get a thing right in your life?"Alpha Rowan spat at me.

“Get the fuck out of my face", his nose scrunched up as he sized me up. 

“And one more thing, I have told you severally to knock on my door, don't you get simple instructions instilled in your dumb-ass piece of brain. But you get to watch the show, at least you know I fuck better with other people”, he snarled, his eyebrows dipping and he waved a hand dismissively at my face. 

I swallowed hard, blinking back the tears that had formed in my eyelid. What have I ever done to deserve such cruel behaviour from my mate?

It was closing time, I grabbed my bag entering my car, my knuckles pressed tightly on the steering wheel as I saw a glimpse of my mate's car parked at the entrance of the packhouse.

He has never been home early. My heartbeat raced in my chest, I knew trouble was brewing. I tiptoed into the house, not ready to make my presence known. He could be here with one of his flings and claimed I was disturbing them. 

I turned the doorknob of my room, silently hoping the devil incarnate wouldn't know I am home. 

My bag crashed to the ground, my jaws parted.

Not again. In my bedroom. 

I fought back the tears shutting my eyes tightly, at the slamming of skin and moans reaching my ears. I moved my legs out of the room, my knees going numb as I fell down to the cold floor, tears streaming down my cheeks. 

I don't want to do this anymore. I clutched my chest tightly, silent sobs racking through my body. I stumbled on my feet, heading to the kitchen to clear my head. 

I gulped down a bottle of water feeling lightheaded, tears streaming down my cheeks. The brunette darted past me, a lingering smirk evident on her lips, daring me to do something. 

I am in no power to do nothing? Watch my mate fuck another woman and the worst of it all, on my bed in my fucking bedroom. I had no idea how it had gotten to this?

I clenched my fists, striding to my room. I walked in on him, grabbing his stuff. Alpha Rowan walked past me, his shoulder grazing mine.

“Wait–” I uttered, blinking my eyelashes. 

" What's the meaning of this?,” I muttered under a low breath.

“What?”He arched his brow, tilting his head sideways.

“You have your bedroom, there are guestrooms. Why do you have to do this in my room? Why do you have to torment me every moment of my life,” I screamed, tears pouring out like a volcano eruption of emotions in me. 

“Why?,” I choked. 

“Because it's the closest room. You got your answer. Right?. Deal with the shit.” 

“I am meant to torment you, Mira", he growled, his voice echoing in my small bedroom. 

He's meant to torment me? What have I ever done to deserve this? All I ever wanted was a mate who truly loved and saw me for who I am. 

“Alpha, I have tried– I have fucking tried dealing with it every day of my miserable life–” 

“Walk away. Nobody tells you not to. I didn't sign up for this shit. When would you realise that–” Alpha Rowan said, his intense gaze so cold that it makes me shiver.

“I want to make this work for us. We are fated–”

“There's no freaking us”, He rushed at me, slamming me against the wall, I gasped for breath, my legs thrashing in the air struggling to get away.

His amber golden eyes flickering to that of his wolf. He released his grip and I coughed out, holding my neck.

“There's no us, the sooner you get to realise that. The better for you”, he stated, turning his back on me and walking away.

If only… I had the nerves to walk away. I broke into loud sobs crawling, arching my back to the wall.