MasukThe weekend went by in a blur, but it was not the kind that fades easily. It was the kind that sits in your chest, so badly that it refuse to leave no matter how much you try to distract yourself, That was how this weekend that I had hoped to be my escape made me feel …It was worse . Everywhere I turned, every little thing I did, it all somehow led back to one person. I just couldn’t get him out of my head, like he had some invisible thread tied to me…it just felt as though he could feel where I was It didn’t make any sense. And that was exactly the problem. I sat on the edge of the bed in my room , staring at nothing in particular, my bag lying open beside me. I had been “packing” for almost an hour now, but nothing was actually done, I was carrying some of my old stuffs too . I just kept thinking. Overthinking to be specific . . “Lily…” Maltilda called from the doorway. I didn’t turn immediately. “Hmm?” “You’ve been folding the same dress for the past five minutes.” I b
“I was wrong.”Maltilda ran her hands through her hair, pacing a little before stopping in front of me again. She looked confused, I could tell she didn’t even know where to start.“You…” she exhaled. “You have feelings for Rex?”I nodded . There was no point denying it now. Not after everything I had just said. the way my heart had been acting all day, it was crystal clear to me Maltilda looked away for a second, pressing her lips together ,she was trying to process it.“I don’t even know what to say,” she admitted .I sighed and moved closer to her.“Are you angry?” I asked, it would be normal if she was , I had just done the opposite of what I was supposed to do .Stay away from Rex not fall in love …She snapped her head back to me immediately. “Angry? No…no, Lily, I’m not angry.”“I’m just…shocked.”I let out a weak breath.“I knew something was off,” she continued. “I could feel it…every time you mentioned him, every time you tried to act like he didn’t matter. There was tensi
Rex stood under the hot shower, letting the water run down his face and body , The steam filled the bathroom, clouding the mirror, but it did nothing to clear his head.He exhaled slowly, pressing his palm against the tiled wall.“Get a grip…” he muttered to himself.But he couldn’t, His mind kept going back to Lily.All the moments from earlier from the way she had looked at him earlier to the way she pulled away from him like he was the problem.She had even said she didn’t want to be his friend, He shut his eyes tightly ….Why was she acting like that?One minute they were fine, the next she was shutting him out completely. And the worst part was that he didn’t even know what he did wrong.He turned off the shower abruptly and stepped out, grabbing a towel and drying his hair roughly.“This is not working…” he said under his breath.He needed something else, Something that would actually calm him down, And there was only one place that could do that His painting room.Rex threw
I couldn’t sleep.No matter how many times I shut my eyes or turned on the bed, it just wouldn’t come. My mind refused to rest, replaying everything over and over again like it was stuck on a loop I couldn’t escape from.Rex’s voice, His eyes, The way he looked at me in the car.The way he said my name.I groaned softly and sat up, dragging my hands down my face.“This is so frustrating…” I muttered.I couldn’t stay here.I couldn’t stay in this room, in this space, knowing that he was somewhere around, breathing the same air, existing too close to me.I swung my legs off the bed and stood up immediately.“Fine… I’m leaving,” I whispered to myself.If sleep wouldn’t come to me, then I would run from the thing keeping it away.Him.I walked straight to my wardrobe and started packing without thinking too much about it. A few clothes, my essentials, my books… I didn’t even care if I was forgetting something important.I just needed to go.I zipped my bag and carried it, heading downst
The moment the realization hit me, it didn’t sit quietly in my chest the way I thought it would.It didn’t come slow, It crashed my mind .I stood up so fast from the bed that it almost made me dizzy, my head spinning as I stared at nothing in particular. My heart was beating too loudly, too fast, like it was trying to break out of my chest.“No… no, no, no…” I muttered under my breath, dragging my hands through my hair.I started pacing.Back and forth.Back and forth.I couldn’t even stay still.“How… how is that even possible?” I whispered, my voice shaky.I tried to think.Tried to go back… to trace it.When did it start?Was it when he first defended me?No… that couldn’t be it.Was it when he started being nice to me?Or when he looked at me like I wasn’t invisible?Or when he held my hand?Or when he…I stopped pacing abruptly.I couldn’t place it.And that scared me even more.Because if I couldn’t even tell when it started, then that meant it had been building… slowly… withou
“Did I do anything wrong?”Rex asked as he parked the car. I couldn’t look at him and say what—that I was feeling so much guilt it felt like I was suffocating? I couldn’t tell him that. I couldn’t say anything to him.I hated that I had to lie to him. My heart ached so much because of it, but I couldn’t say the truth either. It could cost me a lot. Amber warned me about getting close to Rex, and now I could see why. It was no good.I used to be so comfortable with lying to him. It didn’t bother me, but now I was bothered, and I knew that wasn’t good for my plan.“I just don’t want to do this anymore… I will take full responsibility and even drop the course if I have to. I just want to go back,” I replied, facing the other side. I couldn’t look him in the eye.“You can’t just cancel a trip we have been planning for days… I do not understand why you would do that. Is it because I found out you used to stay at Centervile? I also apologized for yelling… Why are you being difficult, Lily?
Nightfall was already approaching, and Lily was still nowhere to be found. She had promised to return before nightfall. Amber was seated outside, waiting for her. “Should I go over to the house?” Amber said, pacing around the front yard. She had been counting down to when Lily would walk in. Amb
The walk back to our room after Maltilda left was a little bit awkward. Amber held my hands so tightly while I walked behind her calmly. I wanted to say something… anything to break the silence, but I couldn’t find the perfect words. “I uhm…” “Lily…” We both spoke at once. She stopped and turne
“What did you just say to me?”Amber stepped away from me, but I grabbed her hand, my lips trembling.“What did you just say to me?” I repeated, my voice demanding answers while my brain refused to process what I had just heard.“How did I give birth to someone so stupid,” she repeated, yanking her
Rex just stared at me. His lips parted slightly, like he wanted to say something, but no words came out.“Just leave me alone… please,” I pleaded. My voice sounded painfully weak, even though I tried to steady it.“You should go back inside. You don’t look so good.” He reached for my hand.I pushed







