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Hope
It's always exciting when a new Alpha takes over a pack. Nearly a year ago one of our allies, Alpha Richard, took over Shadow Falls pack from Alpha Liam. In a few months, Alpha Emerson will take over this pack, Safe Haven, from Alpha Eli and Guardian Grace. Then, about six months later, Alpha Cohen, another ally, will take over his pack, Canyon Ridge, from his father, Alpha Rik.
Alpha Eli and Guardian Grace have been wonderful as our leaders, but I know that Alpha Emerson is ready to take over his position as Alpha of the pack. He is a stoic Alpha, always ready to take on the responsibilities that the pack requires as their Alpha. He doesn’t laugh as much as Alpha Richard or Alpha Cohen, but I know that he will be an incredible Alpha to our pack and continue the legacy that his parents started.
Our three packs are not only connected by borders, but we’re also connected by the Guardians who live in each of the packs. Luna Cara was the first Guardian to be born of two Guardians. Luna Angel and Luna Grace are Guardians who have wolves that were blessed by the Moon Goddess herself.
The Guardian line flows through the female line. Guardians are the strongest, most powerful wolves in any pack. They make their mates stronger, which is why they were forced into mate bonds with their Alphas for centuries. The generation before me was the first generation where Guardians found their fated mates and in creating true mate bonds, the Guardian line has begun to pass from the mothers to their daughters.
Alpha Eli and Luna Grace have three children, Emlyn, Emerson, and Riley. Both Emlyn and Riley are Guardians, and I’d be surprised if they weren’t mated to the Alphas in our allied packs. While the male children of the Guardians don’t have the strength and gifts of their mothers and sisters, they are stronger than most Alphas. Even though they aren’t stronger than the Guardians, it makes sense that a strong woman would need a strong man as her mate.
I know all about being a strong woman. Before I was conceived, my mother was captured by hunters and scientists who wanted to find ways to destroy the werewolf population. My mother was experimented on, impregnated through in vitro fertilization with an unknown male's sperm. Then, they experimented on her while she was pregnant with me. The result is that I’m a true hybrid. Unlike other hybrid shifters who have a dominant gene and develop into only one type of hybrid, I am both. We didn’t know what I was until I turned ten and had my first shift. It was then that we realized that I am part wolf and part bear. I am unique, which is to say, I am a freak. There is no one like me in the world because people like me aren’t created in nature, we’re only created in laboratories.
When my mother escaped from the scientists' laboratory, she found my step-father, a wolfless Alpha named Carlos who was the Beta of Safe Haven pack. He immediately recognized my mother as his mate. When she accepted him, he took me in as his own. He didn’t care that I wasn't his biological child or that I was created in a laboratory.
When I shifted for the first time and began training, everyone realized very quickly that I was stronger than most wolves. Most of the pack members shied away from me, not comfortable with how different I am from other wolves. At school, I was frequently bullied, but never in front of the Guardians. They do not tolerate bullying of me or anyone. If anyone in our packs is caught bullying, they are disciplined or ejected from the pack. However, that didn’t stop other packs’ members from bullying me.
My step-father, the only father I’ve ever known, may not have a wolf, but he’s one of the strongest warriors in our pack, which is why Alpha Eli made him his Beta. He trained with me from an early age, helping me to learn restraint in fighting so I didn’t accidentally kill my opponent. He taught me how to effectively throw a punch if I actually DID want to kill my opponent. By the time I was in my teens, the only people who could or would spar with me were the ranked members in the packs, the Alphas, the Guardians, and my only true friend, Levi.
Levi is Guardian Grace’s half-brother. When Grace didn’t get her wolf as a child, her father banished her. Unwilling to let her young daughter leave the pack alone, Grace’s mother left with her, protecting her. However, her father ended up taking another mate, even though he never ended the mate bond with Grace’s mother. That relationship resulted in two things: Levi, and Grace’s mother’s death.
Levi was meant to be the Alpha of his father’s pack, until the day that Grace arrived and challenged their father, defeating him in a battle of strength. She gave the pack the option of joining her pack with Alpha Eli or going rogue. Thankfully, Levi’s mother had asked to join their pack.
He and I have grown up together, both of us misfits in our own way. He’s a strong Alpha, strong enough to be able to fight against me. He’s also kind and understanding enough that when I’m bullied, he not only stands up for me, but he’s there for me. He’s held me when I’ve cried and wiped the tears that no one else has seen.
I’ve been in love with Levi since I was a little girl. He’s the only one, other than my family and the children of the Guardians who truly accepts me for who I am.
However, I know that Levi isn’t for me. Even if the Moon Goddess were to put us together as two misfits, I could never chain him to someone like me. He’s an Alpha. He deserves to live his life and to have pups, pups that aren’t mutant children like the ones that I’m sure I would breed. No one knows what would happen if I were to have pups with a wolf, or children with a human, but I know I don’t want to find out. I don’t want my children to suffer the way I’ve suffered in my life, being bullied for being different.
And so, even though my birthday is coming up, even though Levi has already told me that he would love nothing more than to find out that I’m his mate, I already know that I can’t accept him.
He deserves so much more than someone like me.
LeviAfter going back to Nunavut, back to New York to see Vasile Northway, and back to Tanya’s house and still not finding Hope or Tanya in any of those places, I went back to the packs.I met with Betas Carlos and Amber who said they also haven’t seen or heard from Hope.“We did try calling her a couple of weeks ago, but she didn’t answer and she hasn’t returned our calls,” Amber says. I can tell she’s getting worried about Hope now too.“Where could she be?” Carlos asks.“I don’t know, but I’m not going to give up until I find them.”I told them what Bjorn left for me on the wall of his den. I don’t know if something is wrong with Hope, or if he just knows that we’re mates and she’s avoiding me.‘Alpha Levi, Alpha Cayden is here visiting with his mate. He asked to see you,’ the gate guard links me.“Did you know Alpha Cayd was coming to visit? And when did he find his mate?” I ask.“He met her right after the twins’ birthday, but I didn’t know they were coming to visit,” Carlos says
HopeLily stayed by my side while Dr. Traeliorn set up a sheet to keep me from being able to see what he’s doing.“Okay, here we go, Hope,” he says. “Qadira, I need you to refrain from healing Hope until I tell you.”“Yes, doctor,” she says.While I don’t feel pain, I feel the tugging as Dr. Traeliorn makes his incision. I can feel Qadira struggling to hold her healing back, wanting to heal me right away.“Okay, we have baby one. Here you go, Momma,” Dr. Traeliorn says, holding my son so I can see him.He’s obviously the bigger of the two.“Can I hold him?” I ask, desperate to feel his warm body and beating heart against mine.“We need to clean him up quickly and take his vitals, but yes.”“Is he …?” I can’t bring myself to ask if he’s deformed.“He looks perfectly normal,” Dr. Traeliorn says.I huff out a sob and watch as the nurse takes him across the room to clean his eyes, nose, and ears before rubbing him until he begins to cry.“He has a healthy pair of lungs,” the nurse says, wr
HopeLevi not returning my call hit me hard. I guess I never expected him to give up on me. I think that’s what Lily meant about taking the mate bond for granted. I did and now he's gone.I broke down and tried Levi’s number again a few days later, only for it to go straight to voicemail.I didn’t want to make too much of a fuss about it, but I did ask Lily if her parents had seen Levi recently.“They went away after Grandpa Anders and Grandma Calista passed away in that pack war. They’re only returning now for the twins’ birthdays. I know that you said you don’t want anyone to know about your pregnancy, but do you want to come with me? Maybe you’ll see him and you can explain why you left without telling him.”“No. Everyone will want to know about my pups and while I’m so thankful that both my twins are still living, I don’t want to have to face their pity if I lose one or both of them.”“I understand. I won’t say anything to anyone about you being here, unless you want me to.”“No, p
LeviWhen I realized that the scientists did more than we ever realized to Beta Amber, Hope, and her sisters, I knew I had to go searching for the others. Maybe that’s not where Hope went, but it’s the only clue I have as to where to find her.So, after letting Alpha Xander know that I’d be taking more time off to hunt for the hybrids, I started my search.I started in the mountains north of where we live. The Alpha wolf would have been more likely to find his daughters than Bjorn. That had been lucky for both Bjorn and the triplets, first because Bjorn found them at all, and second that he accepted them. Bears aren’t as familial as wolves and as an Alpha, I know that if there were ever a chance that I had pups out there, on their own, whether I sired them on purpose or not, I wouldn’t stop until I found them and made sure they were safe and well cared for.I also know from experience that the wolfpacks aren’t very accommodating to hybrids. Hope was one person and she was protected by
HopeI was shocked when my dad walked into the castle one morning mated to three sprites. They huddled around him, hugging him, and loving on him like sprites do when they’re mated. They love with their entire being, with their whole heart. Bjorn had already started to look and act different after Lily healed him. Being pain free had taken some of the gruffness away. But after mating to not one, but three sprites, the man actually started to smile.A part of me was thrilled to see it, while another was jealous. He found his happiness and I still need to wait for mine.“You’re an idiot, you know that?” Orsa says. We’re on our way to WoodLily, King Dominic’s kingdom, to see Tanya. Bjork and Artis stayed behind. Artis has taken a liking to the very extensive library in Araphyra. The leprechaun, Buppig, who basically runs the library and is quite the scholar in elvish and other supernatural history, was thrilled. He was happy to show her anything she wanted to read and discuss any question
BjornDuring the day, King Dominic and Samlael, along with several other elven warriors, have tried to convince me to spar with them. There’s another Alpha wolf here who is past his prime, Alpha Christopher. He’s the father of Queen Anastasia, King Ailduin’s mate and, I found out, he mated to a sprite and has four sprite daughters who are mated to four leprechaun brothers. He also wanted to spar with me to test his strength against mine.I’d finally given in and taken on Alpha Dominic first. He’s the one who encouraged me to believe in Queen Lily. Doing so had given me a life I never expected to have again. When you live so long with constant pain, suddenly being free of that pain makes you feel years younger and like a huge weight has been lifted off you.We started in human form, but I could tell he wanted to go against me in my bear form. So, we shifted. It was a tough battle. I’m out of fighting shape, and King Dominic isn’t as strong as my bear, so the discrepancies made us more e
LeviMy life is perfect. The only thing that would make it more perfect is if Hope would have agreed to let me mark her. But I know my mate. She never expected to be worthy of a mate, even if I knew she was.I carry her out into the water, partly because I want to feel how Qadira responds in the wat
LeviOh goddess she tastes even better than I thought she would. When I feel Hope give in to our kiss, I deepen it, needing to taste more of her, needing to possess her, needing to claim her. I want her to know that I want her, love her, and need her in my life.I have no idea how long the kiss last
LeviSomething that my mother, sister, and Alpha Eli have taught me as I was growing up is that, as an Alpha, you always face the consequences of your decisions. You do it honestly, openly, and you listen when someone tells you that you are wrong. I may not agree, but I'll never know if I am wrong u
HopeI know my family loves me. They’ve always been very clear about that. They love me no matter what. But Levi? Levi understands me. It’s a subtle difference, but it speaks volumes about why the Moon Goddess chose him to be my mate. It also speaks volumes about why I think he’s too good for me.‘H







