Masuk
Hope
It's always exciting when a new Alpha takes over a pack. Nearly a year ago one of our allies, Alpha Richard, took over Shadow Falls pack from Alpha Liam. In a few months, Alpha Emerson will take over this pack, Safe Haven, from Alpha Eli and Guardian Grace. Then, about six months later, Alpha Cohen, another ally, will take over his pack, Canyon Ridge, from his father, Alpha Rik.
Alpha Eli and Guardian Grace have been wonderful as our leaders, but I know that Alpha Emerson is ready to take over his position as Alpha of the pack. He is a stoic Alpha, always ready to take on the responsibilities that the pack requires as their Alpha. He doesn’t laugh as much as Alpha Richard or Alpha Cohen, but I know that he will be an incredible Alpha to our pack and continue the legacy that his parents started.
Our three packs are not only connected by borders, but we’re also connected by the Guardians who live in each of the packs. Luna Cara was the first Guardian to be born of two Guardians. Luna Angel and Luna Grace are Guardians who have wolves that were blessed by the Moon Goddess herself.
The Guardian line flows through the female line. Guardians are the strongest, most powerful wolves in any pack. They make their mates stronger, which is why they were forced into mate bonds with their Alphas for centuries. The generation before me was the first generation where Guardians found their fated mates and in creating true mate bonds, the Guardian line has begun to pass from the mothers to their daughters.
Alpha Eli and Luna Grace have three children, Emlyn, Emerson, and Riley. Both Emlyn and Riley are Guardians, and I’d be surprised if they weren’t mated to the Alphas in our allied packs. While the male children of the Guardians don’t have the strength and gifts of their mothers and sisters, they are stronger than most Alphas. Even though they aren’t stronger than the Guardians, it makes sense that a strong woman would need a strong man as her mate.
I know all about being a strong woman. Before I was conceived, my mother was captured by hunters and scientists who wanted to find ways to destroy the werewolf population. My mother was experimented on, impregnated through in vitro fertilization with an unknown male's sperm. Then, they experimented on her while she was pregnant with me. The result is that I’m a true hybrid. Unlike other hybrid shifters who have a dominant gene and develop into only one type of hybrid, I am both. We didn’t know what I was until I turned ten and had my first shift. It was then that we realized that I am part wolf and part bear. I am unique, which is to say, I am a freak. There is no one like me in the world because people like me aren’t created in nature, we’re only created in laboratories.
When my mother escaped from the scientists' laboratory, she found my step-father, a wolfless Alpha named Carlos who was the Beta of Safe Haven pack. He immediately recognized my mother as his mate. When she accepted him, he took me in as his own. He didn’t care that I wasn't his biological child or that I was created in a laboratory.
When I shifted for the first time and began training, everyone realized very quickly that I was stronger than most wolves. Most of the pack members shied away from me, not comfortable with how different I am from other wolves. At school, I was frequently bullied, but never in front of the Guardians. They do not tolerate bullying of me or anyone. If anyone in our packs is caught bullying, they are disciplined or ejected from the pack. However, that didn’t stop other packs’ members from bullying me.
My step-father, the only father I’ve ever known, may not have a wolf, but he’s one of the strongest warriors in our pack, which is why Alpha Eli made him his Beta. He trained with me from an early age, helping me to learn restraint in fighting so I didn’t accidentally kill my opponent. He taught me how to effectively throw a punch if I actually DID want to kill my opponent. By the time I was in my teens, the only people who could or would spar with me were the ranked members in the packs, the Alphas, the Guardians, and my only true friend, Levi.
Levi is Guardian Grace’s half-brother. When Grace didn’t get her wolf as a child, her father banished her. Unwilling to let her young daughter leave the pack alone, Grace’s mother left with her, protecting her. However, her father ended up taking another mate, even though he never ended the mate bond with Grace’s mother. That relationship resulted in two things: Levi, and Grace’s mother’s death.
Levi was meant to be the Alpha of his father’s pack, until the day that Grace arrived and challenged their father, defeating him in a battle of strength. She gave the pack the option of joining her pack with Alpha Eli or going rogue. Thankfully, Levi’s mother had asked to join their pack.
He and I have grown up together, both of us misfits in our own way. He’s a strong Alpha, strong enough to be able to fight against me. He’s also kind and understanding enough that when I’m bullied, he not only stands up for me, but he’s there for me. He’s held me when I’ve cried and wiped the tears that no one else has seen.
I’ve been in love with Levi since I was a little girl. He’s the only one, other than my family and the children of the Guardians who truly accepts me for who I am.
However, I know that Levi isn’t for me. Even if the Moon Goddess were to put us together as two misfits, I could never chain him to someone like me. He’s an Alpha. He deserves to live his life and to have pups, pups that aren’t mutant children like the ones that I’m sure I would breed. No one knows what would happen if I were to have pups with a wolf, or children with a human, but I know I don’t want to find out. I don’t want my children to suffer the way I’ve suffered in my life, being bullied for being different.
And so, even though my birthday is coming up, even though Levi has already told me that he would love nothing more than to find out that I’m his mate, I already know that I can’t accept him.
He deserves so much more than someone like me.
HopeAfter the tour, Tanya went home to pack and I did the same. I almost forgot that Levi had moved me into his apartment and when I walked in, I realized just how much he’d done to make this place feel like ours.I close my eyes. I made a promise to Levi, and I really intended to keep it, but I don’t want him to suffer knowing our child was born deformed. And if our child dies, I don’t know if I can see that kind of pain in Levi’s eyes, knowing that it’s my fault that his pup didn’t survive.I call my parents, letting them know I’m home and I’m coming for a visit.“Actually, they’re having Alpha Cayd’s going away party tonight in Shadow Falls Pack. Do you want to meet us there? You’re welcome to come,” Carlos says.The timing couldn’t be better. I wanted to talk with Guardian Emlyn and now I have the perfect excuse to do it.“I take it everything is better between the packs now?” I ask. I’ve only gotten bits and pieces of the story over the past year while I’ve been away.“Yes, ever
HopeThis year with Tanya has been a lot harder than I expected. Her anxiety has gotten worse instead of better. When it’s just us, she’s fine. It’s the large crowds that she can’t handle any longer.At every concert, I have to stand where she can see me. When Levi would come to visit, he’d have to stand backstage with me. Having two of us there seemed to make her feel even more safe.I didn’t know it until we arrived in Bucharest and Matthew contacted me on the radio before the concert, that Vasile Northway came to see Tanya perform. Apparently, his family, or most likely he, is originally from Romania. And here I thought that was just part of the tales developed for Tanya’s movies, but no, vampires apparently did originate in Romania.When I told her he was here, she had Matthew invite him backstage. I guess a vampire who killed her tormentor makes Tanya feel safe. He, of course, was happy to come see the concert backstage and it was honestly one of her best performances.Afterward,
LeviWhen Hope agreed to join Tanya on her tour, I had no idea that they would want me to drop her off at an airport in New York so she could fly out right away. However, that’s exactly what happened. Mr. Russell sent Tanya’s private jet and the next morning, I said goodbye to her. Tanya was scheduled to play in Wembley Stadium that night and they wanted Hope there to hopefully get her through her anxiety.I kissed her goodbye and told her to call me when she arrived.She did as she was rushed to the stadium. They were on the verge of cancelling another night but Hope apparently got there in time.I only found out about that the next morning. Rather than stop for the night somewhere, I drove straight through until I got home. Then I slept until noon and went to meet with Alpha Liam.I told him about meeting Hope’s father and that we need to keep our eyes open for hybrids that might be around needing help. Then, I went back to work.I didn’t see Hope for two months. While we talked ever
HopeWe spent the next two weeks with Bjorn and my sisters. While Orsa wasn’t openly hostile to me again after Levi talked to her, she wasn’t as warm as her sisters either. I definitely got a feel for what it’s like to live this primitively. While it works for them, I was ready to go when Levi and I finally said our goodbyes.“Will we see you again, girl?” my father asks as I hug him goodbye.“I’d love that. If I’m welcome …”“You’re always welcome here, girl. You’re mine, even if I didn’t know about you until now,” he said as I hugged him.After the first day of sparring, my father pushed me harder. His fighting style is so different than the wolves that I learned a lot about how to protect myself against animals that are considerably larger than I am. While he went easy on me, he was tougher with Levi. The Alpha in Levi loved every minute of it and I’m guessing Bjorn did too. Each day after the two of them were done, they both had big grins on their faces, even though their bodies we
LeviAfter Hope and the others went to swim, I cleaned up the remaining bones. Then I stripped down and let Malcolm pull the shift before digging a hole deep enough to keep from attracting scavengers.He dragged the bones and inedible parts of the elk into the hole, before burying it all back again.When he was done, I pulled the shift, shaking the dirt from my hands.“You know, it’s rude to stare,” I say, looking over my shoulder at Orsa. She’d come back while Malcolm was digging the hole. She hadn’t said anything, she’d just watched.She steps out of the shadows and approaches me.“Why didn’t you go with the others?”“Wolves aren’t the excellent swimmers that bears are,” I say, turning to get my clothes. When I stand, she’s slowly looking over my body. It’s not uncommon for she-wolves to look at me. I’m an Alpha, and most females are attracted to me. Orsa and her sisters are no different. However, the flash of desire I see in her eyes, has me pulling my jeans on quickly.She walks to
HopeIt was early to mid-afternoon when I finally woke up. I could hear the others rummaging outside the den and I could smell the smoke from a fire just outside. Rather than shift, I stayed in Qadira’s form so I could go outside and find a place to pee. This isn’t the kind of place that has running water.I leave Malcolm sleeping and when Qadira walks outside, Orsa is stoking the fire while Bjork and Artis clean two elk. Based on their broken necks, I’m guessing Bjorn caught them and brought them back.“Don’t go too far, girl. You’re still ovulating and there are a lot of bears in this area,” my father says as I look around.Qadira chuffs at him, before sniffing the air. It seems that they have a certain area that they use as a bathroom, so I head that way.Once I’m done, I head back, continuing to sniff the air around us. I can smell the other bears. They aren’t close, but they’re close enough to smell me and my sisters. However, I can also smell that my father has scented the area,
HopeI wake violently, shooting up in bed and vomiting everything in my system.“There you go. Get it out of your system, Hope,” Luna Grace says.I want to answer her, but I can’t, since I begin vomiting again. I’m mortified that I’m throwing up in front of my Luna and a Guardian.“She still has sil
LeviI finally got a lead on Hope’s father. I found an abandoned building in the area that Carlos and I had decided I should search. The place looked like it had been empty for years, and whoever had been here had just walked out and left everything behind.When I stepped into the building, I notice
LeviAs soon as Tanya called me, I told her to put me on speakerphone.“Hope, can you hear me?” I ask, getting dressed quickly. My mate needs me.When Tanya tells me it’s Qadira, I already know there’s a problem. Qadira would have shifted back if she could.“I’m coming, baby. Hang on.”“Levi, I thin
HopeThe moment she walks on stage, the crowd erupts. A part of me wishes I was just here to enjoy her music. I really do love her songs, and she’s singing two of my favorites in her set.While she’s on stage, I mouth the words along with her, bouncing to the music, while still watching the crowd an







