Mag-log inThey stood on the porch as their father hugged Finn. His duffel bag had been packed for the last week, and he'd been waiting for this day anxiously. He was attending a 5-day rodeo clinic in Colorado, and he’d been bouncing with energy for the last few days.
“Come on, we need to get going or you’ll miss your ride,” Blair said.
Their father let go of Finn reluctantly. “Listen to your instructors and do what they tell you to do. I don’t need a half-broken son coming back to us.”
“I will, Dad,” Finn said, his grin so big, his cheeks had to be hurting.
“We’ll miss you,” Eden said, as she hugged him next. “Go show them what you’re made of.”
Colt and Dylan patted him on the back. “Show them how a Fitzgerald does it.”
Ten minutes later, Blair finally drove down the dirt road toward town and shook his head. “Don’t go acting like you’ve done this before. Bull riding is dangerous.”
“I know, Blair, that’s why I’m going to the training camp. They teach us technique and safety tips, and all these guys are former bull riders.”
“Still, be careful,” he said.
Another fifteen minutes later, he watched as Finn got in the ranch truck with Cam McPherson, his eyes bright with happiness and excitement. He waved one last time as the truck drove away and he sighed. Finn had been dreaming about rodeo and bull riding since he was ten. He wanted his brother to be happy, but the idea of bull riding made his skin crawl.
The entire way home he was plagued by images of Finn’s broken body lying in the dirt, a large bull trampling him, and he shuddered. He slowed the truck when he drove past Madeline’s house and he smiled when he saw her sitting on the porch with a book in her hands. She looked up, smiled, and waved as he drove past.
Back at the ranch, he parked the truck at the side of the barn and took the reins of his horse. Billy, the old ranch hand, gave him a nod and chewed on a stalk of grass. “Your Poppa said to tell you that the eastern boundary fence needs to be checked.”
Billy had worked on their ranch since before Asher was born and the man had to be near retirement age, but he still kept going and most days, Blair wondered if the man ever stopped. He was always busy with something, but he had taught all five of the boys everything they knew.
“Thanks, Billy,” Blair said and set off down the field.
He spent the day under the hot sun, mending the fence and checking the boundary. They couldn’t afford to lose any cattle. They weren’t rich, but they survived. They never went to bed hungry, but they weren’t living in the lap of luxury either. Still, they never had to go without anything they needed.
By the time he was finished, the sun was setting and he knew he was already late for dinner. Racing across the open field on Black Moon’s back, the wind whipped through his hair, the sweat cooling on his face. It was a freeing, exhilarating feeling, his heart thundering in his chest by the time he reached the barn. He unsaddled his horse, rubbed him down and fed him.
By the time he was showered and headed back downstairs, everyone was just finishing up dinner. He sat down without a word, the day’s exhaustion catching up with him. He dug into his food, aware that everyone was looking at him.
“Asher called,” his father said. “He was sorry to miss you.”
“How is he?”
“He sounds okay. Says he’s been pulled aside for sniper training, whatever that entails.”
Blair nodded his head. They watched the news and read the papers, so they were all aware of how dire things were over there. They prayed every night for Asher and his friends, all the men and women deployed overseas. There were too many of them coming home in caskets. It was one of his biggest fears, losing his brother to someone’s bullet.
“He’s always been a good shot with the rifle, it kinda makes sense,” Blair said.
Thomas just nodded his head and looked intently at Blair. “You look beat, boy.”
“Billy had me up at the eastern fence all day,” he said.
“Don’t push it too hard. You don’t need to kill yourself mending fences,” Thomas said.
Blair chuckled. “I won’t, Dad.”
“Well, something’s gotta give. You’ve been eating dinner and going straight to bed for the last week. It feels like we hardly ever see you anymore,” Eden said.
“Unless…” Colt gave him a sly smile.
“Unless what?” Dylan looked confused and Blair shook his head.
“Why don’t you take on Asher’s duties tomorrow and then we’ll see how tired you are,” Blair challenged.
“You don’t have to be mean about it,” Colt said.
Thomas grinned. “That sounds like a fine plan to me.”
“Aww, come on, Pops. I have that thing tomorrow,” Colt said, trying to look the picture of innocence but failing completely.
“What thing?” Blair goaded him. “Sitting on your behind and watching the ranch hands do the actual work?”
“I work!”
“Yeah, on my patience,” Thomas finished and they all laughed as Colt grumbled something under his breath.
“I’ll come out with you tomorrow, Blair,” Dylan offered. “We can all do a little more so it’s not just on you.”
“You’re a good boy, Dylan,” Thomas said with a smile.
Eden cleared her throat. “Pierce Romwell asked me to the movies on Friday night.”
All three brothers’ heads snapped in her direction, but it was Blair who spoke up first. “No.”
“What do you mean, no? You can’t tell me what to do!”
“You’re fifteen and Pierce is sixteen… just, no.”
“It’s just the movies!”
“Movies, my ass,” Blair said. “I bet he said he’ll pick you up in his fancy new car and drive you to the movies, right?”
Eden looked down briefly but didn’t answer him. That told Blair all he needed to know. Everyone else had stayed quiet and were watching their standoff intently.
“I know Pierce, Eden. He’s not the kind of boy you want to go to the movies with. He’ll ruin your reputation whether you do anything or not. You’re too young to get involved with a boy, especially someone like him.”
Eden glared at him for a few seconds, crossing her arms over her chest. “Fine.”
“Blair’s right, Eden, I’ve heard stories from the horse’s mouth about his dates with girls,” Colt added.
“I already said it’s fine. I won’t go,” she said, her tone a little more resigned.
Colt exited the room with Thomas' bag. Blair waited until he was sure Colt was gone before helping his father down from the bed and into the wheelchair. He wanted to spare his father's dignity. It would be bad enough that his siblings would see it at the house, but at least he could wheel him out of the hospital with some of his pride left.Colt didn't bat an eyelash when Blair helped their father to stand. Instead, he just circled them, helped their father into the truck and climbed into the back. He talked about the weather and what Eden was making for dinner, all the way back to the ranch.Back at the ranch, Blair led his father to his room. His breath was careful and measured. He didn't put up a fight when he was helped onto his bed. He gripped Blair's shoulder in a tight squeeze and gave him a smile and a nod. Blair knew it was his way of thanking him."I'll come get you when dinner's ready," Blair said, avoiding saying things like he should rest and take it easy. Dylan, Eden, an
Blair couldn't help but smile when Finn stepped out of the truck and grabbed his bag. He'd only been gone for a week, but he looked different, a little more grown up. Finn pushed his hat back a little and threw himself at Blair. They laughed as they hugged and Blair could swear his brother felt a little more solid."Do I really need to ask how much you loved it?"Finn beamed. "It was the best time of my life. This is what I want to do, Blair. I want to ride bulls.""You've got plenty of time to decide what you want to do with your life."Finn put his bag on the bed of the truck and leaned against the side. "What's wrong? Your mouth's smiling but your eyes ain't.""Dad had a heart attack and he's in the hospital. He's doing fine now, but he had to have surgery," Blair said, ripping the band-aid off. It was better than drawing it out."Can I see him?""Of course," Blair said, opening the truck's door and getting in.Finn had always been easygoing and he held no anger that they hadn't to
He slowed the truck and pulled onto the side of the dirt road. Madeline stood leaning against the tree where he usually left his horse. He got out and walked up to her. She looked down briefly and tucked her hair behind her ear."Were you waiting for me?""Yeah, I figured you'd be here tonight after what happened earlier.""I hope you weren't waiting long. I was at the hospital," he said.She frowned a little and looked him over, as if she was inspecting him for injuries. "Are you okay?""My dad had a heart attack. It was pretty serious." He stepped closer to her and wrapped his arms around her. "Things will work out like they should. Everything will be okay.""Will it? It feels like the universe is working against us," she whispered."Your grandfather's an ass, but we'll figure things out.""I'm tired, Blair, just so tired of everything that's happened, what's happening now. I'm too tired to even think about it."Blair kissed her softly on her forehead. "You'll be eighteen soon, then
The sun was just starting to set when he pulled the truck to a stop in front of old man Lansing's house. He took his hat off on the porch and knocked on the door. The door was pulled open and shock filled Madeline's eyes."What are you doing here?""I want to speak to your grandfather. I need to tell him about my intentions with you. I want to do this right, Mads. I see a future with you, one where we can be happy.""Blair…" Her voice was soft and filled with sadness. "It won't help. He doesn't like you. Even if you do this the right way, he won't let me see you.""Who's at the door?" His voice was loud."Let me try," Blair said, his eyes begging her. "At least then we can say we tried to do it the right way."Old man Lansing appeared behind Madeline, a frown appearing on his face instantly. "What do you want, boy?""Mr. Lansing, I'm here to tell you that I'd like to take Madeline out," Blair said.He shook his head and swore under his breath. "No! I know exactly what boys like you wa
That night, he lay in bed, his heart and mind at war with each other. He was exhausted and the responsibilities that now lay on his shoulders felt like they had the weight of the world on them. Before he could make up his mind, his eyes drifted closed and he slept like the dead until he woke up at 4 a.m. the next morning.He quickly pulled on his clothes from the day before and made himself a quick cup of coffee in a travel mug. He wasn't surprised to find Billy and two ranch hands already in the barn when he arrived."Good morning," Blair said."Morning, Blair. How's Thomas doing?" They all looked a little worried as they waited for news."He'll recover, but it'll take time."Billy nodded his head. "That's good. I figure that leaves you in charge for now."Blair nodded his head and gritted his teeth. "It doesn't change things much from how they've been over the summer. We need to start moving the cattle down tomorrow. I don't want to wait until my father is back home. He'll need more
Blair waited in the waiting room with Colt and Dylan while Eden went in first to see their father. He hadn't wanted to go first, too afraid that his father would look at him with accusing eyes. He felt like a failure, not just with the way he'd disrespected his father with his words, but for how he'd felt too.He could picture his father going to his room and finding his bed made up with no sign of him. His father would've been worried and set out to find him, probably with the idea in his head that his son had been hurt, only to find him asleep on the grass with a girl. Of course, he'd been mad, Blair couldn't blame him for his initial anger.They'd been raised to do the right thing, not sneak out and spend the night with girls. He could taste his father's disappointment in the air, and he hated himself for his father's heart attack. He'd always been a little daring, the first one to agree when one of his siblings suggested they steal a tractor or 'borrow' a horse from a neighbor. He







