02~ In the Love Garden

Vennesa's Pov

(2 Weeks Later)

I sat quietly in my room, life has been pretty rough on me. I haven't gotten the love I deserved for years, and it all shattered away from me the very day I lost my mother in a ghastly motor accident. She was returning from work when her car bumped into a moving lorry.

It wasn't a surviving one. I couldn't help but to cry, hoping I would wake up the following morning feeling better like nothing ever happened. But the pains kept coming, ringing repeatedly in my head, over and over again.

I won't blame my step-father for acting so rough to me, he has never loved me since he set his eyes on me. I blame my mother, she brought all these upon me. If only she had been so understanding, she wouldn't have left father in the first place.

I get it, she was trying to play the super-smart mother of the 21st century. Now that she is gone, it's me suffering the whole thing. I wish I can find my real father, and I'll get away from this shitty hell.

I held my stomach, a soft smile played on my face. I was scared I'd damage my womb if I drank the herbs, but surprisingly, it didn't. Just two days after Alpha Rogan and I had our last sex, I've been feeling weird. 

I had to meet my doctor who told me that I was pregnant. I didn't want to tell Alpha Rogan then, I wanted to be sure what my doctor had told me was the truth, and yes, it was.

I am a week and few days pregnant! Finally, I am carrying Alpha Rogan's child! I was super excited that I forgot about my past life experience, this is a new story I have to appreciate. Knowing quite well I still have a long way to go with winning his heart, but I confidently believe with this news, he will love me just the way I am.

I went in search for him in his room, but he wasn't there. I had to ask the guards where he was, they said he had left almost an hour ago.

"Do you have any idea where he went?" I asked.

"No. He didn't say." One of them replied.

I nodded. I decided to use the mating pull to find him. I sensed his aura to be in the palace garden, so I decided to meet him there. The happiness in me was beyond description, I can't wait to be in the garden already. I can't even stop imagining how happy he would look when I tell him the good news.

I got to the garden but he wasn't there, so I decided to go in. There was an inner room in the garden, he always stays there whenever he wants to be alone. I made my way further, until I got to the inner garden.

The smile on my face quickly faded as soon as my eyes glanced at the very thing I never wanted to see. I was shocked, my heart pounded loud against my chest. I couldn't even breathe, because breathing wasn't an option.

I wanted to scream, but my lungs were too tight to scream, so I kept quiet. Tears clouded my eyes, slowly rolling down my cheeks as I stared at Alpha Rogan fucking another lady. And he wasn't taking it gently with her, the way he massages her breast, he has never done that to me.

It hurts me to see him doing that, what he has never offered to me, he was giving it to some one else. The way she moaned, begging for him never to stop. I turned to leave, then I heard her voice.

"Ahh! Rogan," she called him seductively.

"Mm-hmm." He hummed. The pleasure of what he was doing didn't stop him.

"I want you to be sincere with me, I want you to tell me the truth and nothing but the truth." She started.

"I'm listening."

"That your so-called wife or girlfriend…"

"...You mean Vanessa?" He asked.

"I don't care what she calls herself. Do you love her?" She asked.

"No." He said, trailing kisses on her cheeks down to her abdomen. 

"If you don't, then who and what is she to you?" She demanded.

"Just a contracted wife, that's all. Her job is to give birth to a son and then leave, that's all." He said like it didn't matter to him.

"Tell me you aren't lying to me." She persuaded him.

"Why would I lie to you? Her father had given her to me for a bargain, there's no feelings attached. She knows that too."

My heart was broken, but on hearing this, it was shattered. I doubt there's any remaining left for me to breathe. I couldn't stay, standing here would only lead me to my death. I have always known he never loved me, but I never knew his hatred for me was to this level.

Could it be that he hasn't felt the mating bond yet? Am I the only one who thinks that we are mates?

I ran out of their presence and out of the garden. I didn't stop until I got to my room, slamming the door close behind me. I leaned against the door, holding my chest as I burst into uncontrollable tears.

It hurts a lot. To be hated by the very one you feel would change your life, the one person you had all hoped for would be the end of your misery. Some times I wonder if I was cursed. Why would mother leave me to suffer alone in this world?

I have endured the pains my father caused me, I don't think I can endure that of my mate. I can't keep pretending like every thing is alright, when nothing is actually alright. I feel like I am hunted, and I will keep being hunted until it's all over.

I touched my stomach, the tears streamed out the more. I remembered I was carrying the child of a cheater, one who considers me as a nobody. I was carrying the child of the man who will throw me out of his home after I give birth to his child.

I won't stand to watch my son taken away from me. I can't stand to watch some one else call my son her child. Never is that happening! My mother was taken from me by death, this time, it's never happening to my son. Wherever I go, he will follow me. And even if it has to do with me leaving the pack for good just to save him from his cruel and heartless father, then I will risk my life to do that.

I exhaled heavily.

It's only a matter of time.