Nothing happened. I stood there for one moment. Then two, then three, then four. Five minutes turned into ten minutes, and soon, I was staring at a dead body with a film of blood over its chest for more than twenty minutes. Exhausted, I collapsed onto the floor next to his cot. I must have been too late; his organs had turned cold. Maybe I took longer than I thought I did, too delirious to notice. The shock invading my system must have forced me into a forced sleep. I slipped into unconsciousness, right through the cracks. My mental fingers dug into the consciousness to avoid falling through, but there was no use; I fell right through like liquid. “Hey, at least you tried. That’s all I care about,” Alan said to me as he adjusted Theo’s form, narrowing his eyes at the target. “Trying isn’t enough,” I insisted to him, outraged. He chuckled, rolling his eyes. He didn’t even bother to look at me. “You’re too hard on yourself. It’s either you sav
I did not find Aldrich that night. Worry began to seep into my former excitement about Alan, but I did not let it overpower me. He was a strong warrior who had seen death through his life perpetually as seasons, and very much likely had political matters to tend to. I just wished he would come back so that I could tell him what I did. But before he arrived, I would figure out what to say when he asked how I did it. For the time being, I did not have time to worry about that. A groan pierced the air and I grabbed Alan’s hand. His eyebrows were pinched together, sweat still beading on his face and naked chest. “You’ve got this, Al,” I encouraged, rubbing the side of his thumb. “Focus. Don’t let the pain distract you.” He was slowly mending together, piece by piece and bone by bone. Naturally, it was an agonizing, painstaking process in which the bones unbreak themselves and structure back into place. Sometimes, they ripped through arteries and ve
“Where is Theo?” I demanded, barely registering what was happening.“I arranged for him to study with the royal tutor,” he answered, his lip curled amusedly, “he’s learning counting.”My face flushed like it was hovering above a stove as the realization settled in. Despite this, my eyes greedily drank in his muscular, toned form in the small robe. I noticed the bottle of champagne in his hand along with two glasses, and I wanted to run away. So I did. Unable to stifle my childish laugh, I giggled as I fled the room, knowing it was foolish but I was too bashful to face him like that. We had explored our romance slightly more since he had been home, but never at a blatantly sensual state like this. I was not prepared for it, especially now that he was bombarding me with it. I heard him padding after me as I flew down the stairwell, still clutching my mud stained skirts. He skipped several at once so I ran faster, my adrenaline pumping into my pace. “You c
It was like the kiss at the palace. Our lips mended together with a delicate passion, like they were hungry but trying to save their rations. His hands found my face and caressed my cheeks, holding my face as softly as glass. I melted into him, threading my fingers through his hair. My whole world in that moment was the droplets of water on his skin, the fairy lights glowing beyond my closed eyelids, and lavender and sandalwood. He was my entire universe. In the midst of the slow kiss, I couldn’t help but feel suddenly hyper aware of our naked chests pressed together. He had never seen me this way; or at least, was never in the right state to remember being this way. The reminder felt like cold water poured down my spine. I pulled away, my breathing increasing slightly. “Let’s swim,” I said, flashing him an attempted smile that I hoped appeared enthusiastic enough. He hesitated before nodding, sinking back into the water. To avoid seeming upset
Once we ascended the stairs, I felt the first flicker of awkwardness occur that whole night. “Um,” I said, hesitating in front of my bedroom doors. I had never invited him into my bedroom before. He looked at me with the same expression I was probably displaying; tentativeness. “I guess I will see you in the morning?” he asked, his eyes scanning me for an answer. Suddenly, I felt like we were two school kids on the porch after a first date. A grin spread my face apart at the sheer foolishness of it—he had just been inside of me, and we were technically married. “Yes, I will see you in the morning,” I teased, stepping over my threshold as he shot me a puzzled look, “because you will be lying next to me.” He laughed, walking in after me with more confidence in his stance. “Got to respect my lady.” We dressed for bed. He had allowed me to wear the robe back to the palace, and to cover his own self, he wrapped my dirty dress around h
Under the moonlight, Clement and I left the estate in disguise to roam into the villages. It was admittedly dangerous; that’s why I snuck out that night. Aldrich would never let me go, and I also did not know if he’d approve of me returning to my former life. He was so protective and territorial, he would also never permit me to prowl the night with another man, despite the fact Clement would never see me that way. I was still certain he viewed me as a mere child. In the first village we visited, there were several people tucked into straw blankets for warmth along the streets. Women, men, and even some children. They rejoiced when they saw us, forcing me to try to remember why I ever stopped doing this in the first place. We eventually came across a single mother with her children bundled in her arms. They were shivering in the crisp autumn night. Her dark hair matched the bags under her eyes. I walked right up to her, kneeling onto the pavement. “You
I was going to join Theo for sleep, but my anger was so wrathful, I would never find it. Instead, I stormed downstairs to where Clement told me I’d always be able to find him if he was in the estate. The library. I walked into the grand library in my nightgown and slippers. It was one of my favorite spots; it was a universe of old and new novels, all color coded and stacked in shelves that towered up to the vaulted ceiling. I walked through the endless galleries and ventured through the ancient seating area, not finding a trace of him. So I waited. I sat down in one of the loveseats. To make the waiting process more enjoyable, I plucked a book from the pharmaceuticals section. None of it involved witchery, for the only ones that nursed that kind of information came from my cottage, so it slightly bored me. I felt each minute pass by as I sat in the early morning sun accompanied by the sound of the ticking grandfather clock. Angry tears rimmed my
As I left the room, I immediately went to consult with the guard outside in the corridor. “How long has she been in there with that man?” I asked, trying to keep my voice neutral. “Who is he?” The guard thought for a moment before answering. “Since this morning. The man has been permitted on the premises since yesterday with claims that he was a friend of miss Cathy’s. This was confirmed when Cathy ventured out last night with him to the village.” “What?” I demanded, rage brewing in my stomach. I regained my composure before nodding. “Thank you.” I then continued my trek down the corridor, not letting my expression reflect what was happening inside of me.CathyShit. I ran out of the library in a haste. I did not notice him step into the room, but I heard him as he stormed out. Since I was not stupid, I knew what he saw and what he suspected as he ran out. I saw him turn around the bend all the way down the corridor; he was walking in large strides, but